Kulsum's POV-
It has been a week since everything and we've just stayed out of each other's affairs.
From the past several days, he's giving me cold shoulder and silent treatment.
He used to greet me with Selam and atleast talked to me.
But now, he's treating me as if I'm invisible. No greetings, no talks......nothing.
Fine if he doesn't care....why should I?
A few days ago, Esra's father flew to Istanbul and he's been all over Abdul Razzaq.
All of us were seated on the dining table as it was time for breakfast.
Esra's father, Abdul Razzaq's father and him were chatting about some business deal while the rest of us silently ate our food.
"Razzaq son, it's been a pleasure doing business with you, as always." Esra's father Mr. Baris Ozchivit raised his glass.
"Likewise, Mr. Baris." Abdul Razzaq said as he slightly smiled.
"Oh please, no need to be so formal, we've been associated with each other since you were born. In fact I think we should officially become family to strengthen our bond." He smiled.
"Affedarsiniz (I'm sorry) I don't follow." Abdul Razzaq forrwed his eyebrows.
"I think it's beneficial for everyone. This way you'll have us as your permanent stock holders and my daughter will remain happy till eternity." He cleared his throat.
"Okay, so what do you propose?" He straightened up.
"I want you to marry my daughter Esra and you'll not only sign us as your permanent stock holders but you'll also own 30% of my property." He folded his arms.
The words were barely audible to me. It's like someone has slapped me hard across the face.
I snapped my head at him in utter disbelief as I witnessed everyone did the same.
How can someone be this evil and shameless.
He did not even paid heed that he already has a wife.
And yet he decided to talk about it right in front of me!
Those words are like poison to my heart making it ache and break every passing second.
I glanced at Abdul Razzaq, who was trying to remain calm and subtle.
"What are you saying Mr. Baris, he already has a wife!" My father-in-law said as his eyes widened.
"There now Mr. Alparslan, of course we're allowed to have a second wife." He chuckled.
That word....second wife. It's the most despising word for every woman.
I wished that ground would open up and swallow me.
I glanced at Esra who was grinning and gave me an evil smug smile.
This woman has literally no shame at all!
She crossed each and every limits of being evil.
"Ain't that right son? What do you say? Trust me, we'll be set for generations." He shifted his gaze to Abdul Razzaq who was stern as a log.
I hesitantly glanced at Abdul Razzaq, I don't know why.
My heart was screaming for him to just deny.
"I'll think about it." He said in his usual cold expression.
That's it....
It's over. My world came crashing down. I felt my nerves getting shot.
"Great, I'll be expecting to hear from you soon." He smiled and left.
Esra gave me an evil smirk before leaving but I was too numb to care.
I refused to believe that it was real. I was somehow hoping that this is just a nasty nightmare and I'll wake up soon.
But no! This is actually happening. I internally screamed and wanted to just smash each and everything.
Suddenly I felt a warm and soft palms on mine.
I looked up to see that it was Aslihan.
She looked at me with pitiful eyes. My mother-in-law and Zakariya were present as well staring at me with pale faces.
I sensed that Abdul Razzaq already left. "Don't worry Kulsum, everything will be alright." Aslihan spoke softly.
"Yeah, we won't ever let Esra come between you two." Zakariya said firmly.
"Oh yeah, how? Will you marry her instead?" Aslihan snapped at him.
"Astagfirullah, I'd rather die being unmarried than marry that deceitful woman." Zakariya said dramatically as he placed his hand on his chest.
"You two stop already......Kulsum dear, don't worry, everything will be fine. I'll talk to Razzaq." My mother-in-law said as she smiled weakly.
"No it's fine. It's his decision. Whether he marries her or not.....it's up to him." I sniffed.
I mean what I said. I don't want anyone to meddle in this matter.
It's obviously clear that he wants to marry her otherwise he would've said no right there and then.
I got up from there and just ran to my room and threw myself on the bad as I was having an immense panic attack.
I know he won't deny the proposal, my guts is telling me that he won't reject.
My heart is breaking down pieces by pieces in my ribcage.
I even spotted them at the hotel that day. What if he's actually cheating on me?!
What if Esra is pregnant and they're just planning to marry them off!?
But Abdul Razzaq wouldn't do this right?
But somewhere deep in the core of my heart, it's telling me that Abdul Razzaq wouldn't do this.
He didn't cheat on me, but all the circumstances and situations are against him.
My breaths started getting shallow as I reached for the water.
After a while, I calmed down. I took out my prayer mat and started praying nifal rakaats.
I raised my hands and cupped them as I started making dua.
'Oh Allah please guide me. Please grant me peace and patience. I say that I don't want him but my heart aches at the thought of him being with another woman as well. I know he's permitted to have a second wife but I can't bear it any longer.
I don't know what else to do or think. I say that whatever he does, doesn't matter to me but only you know that it does matter to me.'
I went in sujood as I continued praying.
'Oh Allah please respond upon me. Please guide me in the right way. I'd be lying if I say it doesn't bothers me if he marries that woman.
But only you and the core of my heart knows that how much it bothers me.
I don't know what else to do. Only you can answer my prayers and ease my pain.
Indeed you tests those whom you love. Oh Allah please make it easier for me.
I cannot live like this knowing and witnessing him marry another woman.
I'm not saying this because I want something from him.
Yes, in the beginning maybe I wanted his money, but now I just want him.
I don't know if I love him but I definitely do care!
And I can't bear him being with another woman.
I know it's just for 7 months.....but now, I'm not sure I even want to end all of this even after 7 months.
Oh Allah I don't know what's happening to me or what I'm feeling.
Oh Allah, you know about your servants better than them.
Allah please help me and put my heart and mind into the right place.
Oh Allah please guide me.
Allah please don't test me with this. Indeed you put no burden on your servant to which we cannot bear.
Allah please make it easier for me. I beg you. I don't know what I'm feeling.
But you know. You know what's best for me.
Allah please don't do this to me. I can't see him like this.'
Saying so, I got up from the sujood and folded my prayer mat.
I opened the door and was about to head out when suddenly I bumped into something really hard.
I was about to fall backwards, but I felt a strong muscled arms grabbing my waist gently and pulled me back as I collided against his solid chest.
I witnessed Abdul Razzaq holding me as I gazed into his ocean blue eyes.
My heartbeat erupted in my ribcage as my breaths became heavy.
But somehow, I felt safe and comforted in his embrace and his glittering eyes showed affection and.....love?
I never felt my heart go this wild upon seeing him.
Is this the sign I was waiting for?
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Note- please don't skip the duas made by Kulsum.
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