Olivia POV I walk into a black SUV, I sit in the back and I put my head against the window and I let myself feel bad.
âWhy? Why does he have to be such a dick? One moment he is sweet, and holds me, and protects me, the other he is distant and coldâ- I think to myself I see NY pass by the window and when I notice we are in front of my building, I gather my things and when I get ready to open the door, the door is opened from the outside.
âThanksâ â I say looking at the floor âYou are welcome Missâ â he says I ignore it and open the building door and go towards the lift. When I get to my door and open it and I step in dropping everything on the floor and I walk towards my bed, thatâs when I notice that I am still wearing his clothes.
I give it a sniff â Oh he smells nice. It is intoxicating.
I grab my phone and throw myself on my bed and I start texting Anna and John.
I tell them about the Gala and the shooting, but I didnât tell them that was Raphael that killed the men, they were both worried because of all the news and me not replying to their texts and phone calls. After they were sure I was fine they said we would go out for a meal tomorrow their treat.
I call my mother and make some small talk, I donât tell her I was at the gala so she doesnât worry. We talk about dad, work and she asks me about my love life and I canât help but think about Raphael. I make up an excuse and end the phone call and just stare at the sealing.
I get up going to the kitchen when my stomach makes a lot of noise and once again I forgot to go food shopping and I honestly canât be fucked, so I grab a glass of water and an apple that was left and I sit on the sofa, thatâs how I spent my Sunday. Wrapped around his clothes and watching TV.
When I look at the time is 10 pm and I decide to go to bed, maybe I will die in my sleep and save myself from this tedious life.
I fall asleep and obviously I have a nightmare.
That man is grabbing me against the wall but this time I am naked, Raphael was there but he was just looking, he had anger in his eyes.
âRaphael help pleaseâ â I cried He looked at me and smiled, I hoped he would come and save me, but no, he didnât move.
The man started to kiss my neck and caress my breasts and tried to fight him, but he was stronger than me, then I heard him say âIâm gonna fuck you now, and he is going to watchâ and when he says that I wake up.
I am covered in sweat, I am shaking. I look at the alarm clock and itâs 5 am.
I get up and go to the kitchen to get a glass of water, I drink it and I decide there was no point in going back to sleep as my alarm would go through in 1 hour.
I walk to the bathroom and I turn the shower on, while the water gets warm I brush my teeth, when I finish I walk into the shower and I let my body relax under the hot water.
I wash my long hair and my body with my coconut shampoo and body wash.
I get out and I moisturise my body and do my skin routine, I apply a simple make up, as I am not very good at it, just some mascara and some pink Kylie cosmetics lip gloss.
I go to my room and decide to wear a black pencil skirt that goes to my knees, stockings that end on my thighs, a red button shirt tucked in the skirt, I walk back to the bathroom to do my hair.
I brush my hair back putting it up on a tidy ballerina bun, looking myself in the mirror I can see how tired I look.
I go back to the bedroom and put on my black blazer to match my skirt. I put on a red pair of stilettos and walk to the living room grabbing my work folders and my purse âShit I forgot to charge my phoneâ â I say to myself I grab my keys and walk out, when I look at the time its 7 am, and I decide to walk to the ferry. As usual I go to the top floor and sit reading a book. When I get to Manhattan I walk to the subway and go straight to work.
When I get there Lucas is no-where to be seen. First class is only at 9am, so he wouldnât be in until 8:30 and it is only 8:00.
I sit on my desk starting to look at the files piled up, âgreat, some more papers to gradeâ â I say to myself I get a hold of the first one and start reading it, and I couldnât focus, my mind kept going to Raphael.
Why was he so sweet and caring one moment and the other an utter twat? What the fuck is wrong with him?
As I keep reading the paper Lucas walks in and he seems surprised to see me.
âHey, are you okay?â â he says stopping in front of my desk âGood morning, yeah I am fineâ
âI am sorry about what happened at the Galaâ
My jaw dropped to the floor, fuck did he know what happened?
âI saw Raphael leaving with you on his arms, you were crying, did you see the shooting? I was worried about you, I tried calling but your phone was off, and I went to your flat but you werenât thereâ.
âOhâ â He doesnât know what happened after all â âyeah I was close by and I think I got into a state of shock and Raphael took care of meâ
His face lost all colour, his eyes get darker âI am fine though, I forgot to put my phone on charge, I spent the day watching tv yesterdayâ â I try to distract him âIâm glad you are okay, I wouldnât forgive myself if something wouldâve happened to youâ
âWas not your fault Lucasâ â I smile âokay, so do you mind getting me a coffee and a muffin from the cafeteria?â
âYeah sureâ â I say getting up from my desk feeling a little dizzy I leave the office and walk down grabbing his coffee and muffing leaving the bill on his tab and walking back, I pass by some students in the corridor and I can feel some of them checking me out.
That kind of empowers me but at the same time freaks me the hell out. I only ever had 2 guys in my life and both ended up cheating on me, so I kind of lost hope on men.
As I am about to get in the office I can hear Lucas shouting, as I canât hear anyone else I understand heâs on the phone, I decide to eavesdrop.
âFuck you Raphaelâ â I hear him say âNO, IF IâLL HAVE MY WAY YOU WILL NEVER TOUCH ONE HAIR ON HER HEADâ
What the actual fuck is happening. I decide to go in, so I open the door and I see Lucasâs face bright red in anger, he is shaking standing behind his desk. I look up at him and get closer putting his coffee and muffin in front of him. I now this conversation is about me, but he doesnât know that I know, so I lightly touch his hand and he smiles at me âFuck you, I gotta goâ â he says hanging up the phone.
I walk back to my desk and sit reading another paper, and underlining what was wrong.
âHey, Iâm going to give a lecture now, do you mind staying here and keep doing that?â â He asks shaking his head trying to push away his demons.
âYeah sureâ â I say smiling at him He leaves and I take off my blazer, I get lost in time grading papers because when I look up Lucas is back, a lot calmer.
âItâs lunch time, take your breakâ
Shit I forgot my lunch today. Not like I had anything at home to make lunch anyway. My stomach growls and I realise itâs been more than 30 hours since I last ate properly. That apple didnât do much for me.
I look inside my purse but I only had enough money for my weekly shopping and for the subway. So I decided to go into the teacherâs lounge and grab a cup of coffee.
I finish my coffee while I was reading the New York Times that someone left on the table. I got up and felt dizzy again but I ignored it, in the middle of the way back to the office I feel myself getting light headed and the next thing I know I am in the hospital.
I open my eyes and I see Lucas sitting on a chair next to my bed and Tasha standing next to him, he has his head in between his hands. Tasha is stroking his hair, what the fuck happened? When I turn my head to look around I see John sitting next to my bed holding my hand.
I try to talk but I canât. I feel something on my throat and I start to gag. Both their eyes meet mine and Tasha calls the doctors.
I see relief in Lucaâs eyes. What the fuck is happening?