Raphael POV I wake up alone in bed and I am hating every second of this. Olivia put on her head that we couldnât see each other the day before the wedding until the ceremony.
I think that is all bullshit but she decided that was how it was going to be.
Sheâs staying in a hotel with Mel and I am home with Maria, Gabe and Mike.
Today is the big day and I donât know what to do with myself without her. I just wanted to hug her and see how happy she is.
We havenât talked about the bachelor party since that day. She forgave me and I forgave her and thatâs all that matters.
I get up and walk to the bathroom to brush my teeth and do my morning routine. I am not showering until later on.
The wedding starts at noon and it is 7:00 right now.
I need to get the kids ready so they can go do the photoshoot with Olivia. Olivia booked one for me as well but at the library, she thinks that the penthouse doesnât/t have enough class for a groom photoshoot.
I walk to the kitchen and Maria is sitting at the kitchen island sipping her coffee.
âGood morningâ - I say while I walk inside and Maria jumps.
âGod, you scared meâ - she says with a smile on her face.
âSorryâ - I tell her walking towards the coffee machine and making myself a coffee.
âHow are you feeling?â - she asks and I shrug my shoulders.
âNervous I guessâ - I tell her.
âI remember my wedding day, I was so nervous I didnât have anything to eat all dayâ - she says and thatâs when I start to worry.
Olivia needs to eat. I hope her mother is making her eat.
âRaphaelâ - I hear momâs voice coming from the entrance âKitchenâ - I shout back and not long after mom walks in and hugs me.
âHello baby, I am so excited for youâ - she says âHi, momâ - I say returning the hug and giving her a kiss on the cheek.
âWhere are my grandchildren?â - she asks âMike and Gabe are still asleepâ - I tell her and she frowns.
âDonât start mom, today they will be really tired so I am allowing them some extra sleep in the morningâ
- I say Mom is always telling me I need to be harder on them, I need to have them on tighter schedules but I think we are doing the right thing. We get them all up and ready at 7. Then they have breakfast and a little play, they have snacks and then they have a nap. After they wake up they have their lunch followed by more play, snacks, dinner, play, bath, play, milk and storytime followed by sleep at 8 pm. It works well for us and for the kids.
Once a week we let them rule us, so basically we donât wake them up and we do everything at their rhythm.
Mom grabs some coffee for herself and we all start chatting about nothing in particular and time starts to fly by.
Around 9 we get the kids up and we give them breakfast followed by a bath and getting them dressed for the ceremony. Maria goes with them to the Hotel while I stay at home supposedly chilling but I canât.
I need to talk to Olivia so I grab my phone and I call her âBabeâ - she says answering it âHey, I miss youâ - I tell her âI miss you too,â she says and thatâs when it hits me, we will be married in a few hours, she will be mine for the rest of our lives.
âAre you having fun?â - I ask her âI just had my hair done, gonna do my makeup nowâ - she says and I smile âCanât wait to see youâ
âIâll be the one in whiteâ - she says with a giggle.
âIâll be the one waiting to spend the rest of my life with youâ - I say.
âI have to go, the kids are hereâ - Olivia says âOkayâ
âRaphael?â
âYeah?â
âI love youâ - she says and I smile âI love you tooâ - I say and then the call ends.
I sit back on the sofa and turn the tv on. Fuck that I need a drink.
I stand up and walk to the bar and grab myself a glass of whiskey. I down it and then pour myself another one and thatâs when the door opens and Tim walks in followed by Joseph.
âWhat are you doing?â - Tim says throwing himself to the sofa sitting next to me.
âHaving a drinkâ - iI say âNo youâre notâ - Joseph says grabbing the glass from my hand and drinking it.
âWhat the fuckâ - I say âYou need to be soberâ - Joseph says and I shrug âGo on, go have a shower mateâ - Tim says and I stand up taking a deep breath and I walk away from them grabbing the bottle of whiskey on the way.
âDonât you fucking dareâ - I point at Joseph when he was ready to take the bottle away from me.
âDonât get drunk mateâ - Tim says âI wonâtâ - I reply walking to the bathroom.
Olivia POV We end the call and I look at myself in the mirror and I love my hair. Itâs simple but will look beautiful with the veil.
The beauty squad is with me again. My hair is the definition of perfection.
Perfect curls falling down my back with just a little bit pulled up where the veil is going to be.
âTime for makeupâ
I nod my head and close my eyes allowing them to make the magic happen.
I can hear mom playing with the kids and it melts my heart.
Mom treats Mike and Gabe as her own grandchildren and I love her for it.
Maria is helping mom with the four kids so both I and Anna can get ready.
She is my maid of honour so I have the squad taking care of her as well.
Her make up is done sheâs having her nails done now.
I am so nervous that I canât even think straight. Mom has been bringing me water and food but I can barely touch it. I didnât sleep last night. I was feeling sick and my anxiety kept creeping in.
Mom was with me and that helped a lot because I ended up having a panic attack in the middle of the night curled up in the bathroom. Thatâs when I realised this was a stupid idea. Staying away from Raphael. He usually is the only person that can calm me down.
âMomâ - I say âYes, baby?â
âCan you take the kids to play in the other room please?â - I say when I feel my anxiety taking over again.
My chest is tight. My hands are shaking and I have a horrible tingling feeling on my hands.
I grab my phone as soon as mom walks out and call Raphael while I stand up and lock myself in the bathroom.
âLiv, Liv, open the doorâ - Anna says while I sit on the floor hugging my legs waiting for Raphael to answer his phone.
He usually answers straight away.
Why isnât he answering? Has he given up?
Isnât he gonna show up?
I try calling again and no answer one more time.
Shit. I am struggling to breathe. I start counting the tiles on the wall next to me. One by one, touching each one but itâs not working. So I start pressing each finger as Raphael told me to.
Nothing.
I try calling him again but it goes straight to voice mail.
Fuck.
I can feel the tears rolling down my face. I put my fingers through my hair holding my head.
Everything is spinning now.
Heâs gonna leave me on our wedding day. Heâs not gonna show up and Iâm gonna be the mock of the city.
âLiv, please open the doorâ - Anna says again and I ignore her.
I keep trying to breathe but itâs not working. I look at my hand and I see the engagement ring. I start to rotate it on my finger and strangely calms me down.
I start to get more control about my thought and my heartbeat starts to calm down.
âLiv, open the doorâ - Anna says once again âIâm okayâ - I tell her with still a weak voice.
âLiv, let me inâ - she says and I move to the side and unlock the door getting on my knees.
I sit back down when Anna opens the door and walks inside kneeling in front of me.
âHey, look at meâ - she says and I lift my head âWhat happened?â - she asks âMy anxiety, Anna, what if he doesnât show up?â - I ask her âHeâs not that stupidâ - she barks âAnna, what if he leaves me?â
âHe wonât, if he knows whatâs good for him he wonâtâ
âWhy didnât he answer the phone then?â - I ask her and I see her face shifts.
âHe didnât?â - she asks âNopeâ - I say emphasising the p âHeâs probably getting readyâ - Anna says âHis phone went to voice mailâ
âThatâs oddâ - Anna says âSee, even you think thereâs something wrongâ
âNo, wait. Heâs with Tim and Joseph, if something was wrong Petra wouldâve knownâ - she says and I nod my head.
âWhere is she?â - I ask âGetting her hair doneâ - she says and I smile at the thought of everything being okay.
âCome on, letâs fix your hair and take that ruined makeup offâ - Anna says helping me stand up.
Raphael POV I finish my shower and grab the bottle again taking a sip. This is not helping. So I put the bottle down on Oliviaâs dressing table and I wonder how Olivia is feeling. If sheâs as nervous as I am. I can barely keep my shit together.
I sit on her little chair and look at myself in the mirror.
I can hear my phone ringing and I stand up to go answer it.
Joseph has it âWho was it?â - I ask âYour wife to be, but you canât talk to her until you are both in that ceremonyâ
âAre you fucking with me right now?â - I say grabbing my phone.
âNo, he is not. You need to go get ready to go greet the guest in the library â - Tim says grabbing the phone and turning it off.
âYou are both assholesâ - I say âSo are you and you donât see us complaining, now go get readyâ - Joseph says with a hand movement.
I walk back to the bedroom and I see my suit hanging in the dressing room all ready for me.
I grab everything and start putting it on. Once finished I look in the mirror and I look like my everyday self but in a black tux. Not too bad.
I brush my hair back and I walk out of the bedroom and Tim and Joseph are standing near the door waiting for me.
âReady?â - Joseph asks and I nod my head.
We walk out of the penthouse and down on the elevator towards the SUV waiting for us in the garage.
âGood luck Bossâ - one of my men say.
âThanksâ - I say walking into the SUV Once we are all inside the driver takes us to the library. The traffic is horrible today. Well, it always is in New York and I think thatâs why we are leaving half hour earlier than we should.
I start fiddling with my fingers while I look out of the windows while Joseph and Tim have polite conversations with each other.
âI need to see herâ - I say.
âYou will see her in one hourâ - Joseph says âNo, I need to see her nowâ
âRaphael be reasonable â
âFuck you, to the Plazaâ - I say and the driver nods his head.
âAre you out of your mind?â - Tim asks âMaybe, but I need to see herâ - I say not giving a flying fuck about what they are saying.
Olivia POV Hair and makeup did. I couldnât love it more. The makeup is discrete and with nude colours just the way I like it. My eyes look absolutely perfect.
âTime for the dressâ - Mario says and I smile walking with him to the other room to change.
Once inside Mario and his assistant start helping me with the corset. They donât do it too tight so I can actually breathe and I appreciate that.
My dress is from. Vera wang and itâs absolutely perfect with a heart neckline. It accentuates my curves.
I look like a princess.
Mario helps me with my amazing beautiful shoes and I look in the mirror and I canât believe this is happening.
Mario places the tiara and the veil on my hair and I look just perfect. Just the way I always dreamed of.
Thereâs a knock on the door and my mom walks in. Tears appear straight away on her eyes.
âOh my God Liv, you look beautiful â - she says âThanks, momâ - I smile at her.
Not long after Anna appears holding hands with Mel and she looks adorable with her flower girl dress.
She looks like a mini-me with brown hair. She looks beautiful.
âOliviaâ - I hear Raphaelâs voice âWhat is happening?â
Anna runs out of the room closing the door behind her and mom holds my hand.
âWhat is happening?â - I ask mom âDonât know, donât moveâ - mom says opening the door and then waking out closing it behind her.
âI need to talk to herâ - I hear Raphael say âItâs bad luck to see her before the wedding â - my mom says âI donât believe in superstitions, I wanna talk to herâ - he says âMomâ - I shout from inside and she peeks to the room.
âIâll talk to himâ
âOliviaâ - I hear him.
âRaph, I need you to turn around. Please, and I will come outâ - I say âOlivia please I need to see youâ
âYou will feel me, but please do as I sayâ - I tell him and I can hear him taking a deep breath.
âFineâ - Raphael says and I open the door and I close my eyes I stretch my hand and the mom grabs it taking me to Raphael and when I am near him I turn around and we are back to back against each other.
Raphael grabs my hand and takes a deep breath.
âCan we have a moment please?â - I ask and mom nods.
âCome on, letâs leave them to talkâ - she says Everyone leaves the room and me and Raphael stand there. In the middle of the room. Back to back.
Holding hands.
âAre you okay?â - I ask him âNoâ - he says and my heart skips a beats Raphael POV âWhat happened?â - she asks and I can hear panic on her voice.
âThey had my phone and I couldnât answer when you calledâ - I let out âWho are they?â - she asks sounding confused âJoseph and Tim, they said I couldnât talk to youâ - I let out âWhy did you call?â - I ask her âI ...â
âYeah?â - she is struggling with her words âI had a panic attack and I needed youâ - she tells me and I hold on to her hands tighter.
âI am sorryâ - I tell her âI am okay now that you are hereâ - she tells me.
âI want to kiss youâ - I tell her. My voice as low as a whisper.
âDonât open your eyesâ - she tells me and I can feel her turning around.
I keep my eyes closed and I feel her hands on my face. Sheâs not looking either.
Her hands-on my closed eyes and I wrap my arms around her waist and I can feel the puffy skirt from her dress.
I smile âWhy are you smiling?â - she asks while her hands caress my lips.
âI can almost imagine you in a wedding dressâ - I say and thatâs when I feel her lips crashing into mine.
All my worries, all my doubts and fears disappeared. She is here with me.
âOkay love birds time to goâ - Anna says and we break our kiss.
I keep my eyes closed.
âCome onâ - Anna says turning me around and I open my eyes âI love you and I will see you soonâ - I tell her while I walk out of the bedroom.
Tim and Joseph are with Oliviaâs mother and the kids outside.
âBetter ?â - Joseph asks.
âYesâ - I say walking past them towards the car.
The drive to the library was smooth. I could breathe now. I know she is okay and we will be together soon. For the rest of our life.
I walk into the library and I am instructed where to go.
Everything looks beautiful here. Olivia did a great job. She will be proud.
Everything in white and light pink. It looks divine.
I never thought I would have a wedding like this. Thereâs more than 500 guests. paparazzi outside and some journalists inside to cover the ceremony. They are only allowed to cover. No photos. No phones or cameras are allowed in the ceremony. We will provide all the photos to the guests and we will give two photos to the press to release.
I know it sound too much but it is our day and we donât want people taking photos like crazy.
There are some special and important people attending this wedding.
I walk down the isle while everyone is sitting and thatâs where I stay until the most beautiful girl in the world appears right at the bottom.
Hi everyone Thereâs photos on my IG (peyton_iuga) of the venue, and the dress. Feel free to check it out.
The second chapter about the wedding will be out Wednesday the 27th.
Hope you are enjoying.
Stay safe Love Peyton