Chapter 20: Chapter 19 - I am yours

Olivia POV I wake up and slowly open my eyes to find myself all tangled up with Raphael. His breathing is calm and steady, he is still asleep.

I look at his face and his mouth is a little opened while he breathes and his hair is messy around his face as if I was hypnotized I move a few strands of his hair from his face and rub my thumb on his lips.

He moves slightly and I move back afraid to wake him up. He looks like an angel while he sleeps.

I get up and walk around until I see a door at the right and I open it to find the bathroom, just what I needed.

I do my business and when I am washing my face, cleaning all the running make up I start to realize that this is not Raphael’s penthouse. So where the hell are we?

I get out of the bathroom to find a wake-up Raphael still lying in bed with his arms crossed behind his head showing off his amazing and tattooed body.

“Hey” – I say crossing my arms and standing against the door.

“Good morning beautiful” – he says and I go a bit red.

“Where are we?”

“My house” – he replied “This is not your house Raphael. I’ve been to your house before”

“No Love, you’ve been to my penthouse in the city, this is my house” – he smiles at me.

“Oh, I see” – I look around and his room is beautiful “Coming back to bed?”

I move towards him as if his voice had an effect on my body that I could not resist. I lay down next to him and he pushes me towards him so I am on top of him with one leg on each side of his hips.

“Hi” – he says looking deep into my eyes, and those blue eyes kill me slowly.

“Hi” – I say He leans forward and gives me a little kiss on my lips, but when he starts to go back I pull him towards me and I kiss him. I need him, I need to feel him, and I need to tease him a little.

His hands grab my hips deepening the kiss, I feel his dick getting hard and I let out a gasp and he takes that opportunity to allow his tongue in my mouth.

The kiss gets deeper and full of desire, his hands are now on my ass, and with one movement I feel my back against the bed and he is on top of me in the middle of my legs putting pressure on my pussy.

I moan a little while I feel one of his hands pulling the t-shirt that was covering my body up, and his hand was on my stomach. I let out a moan feeling his soft hands on my skin, my pussy starts to get really wet, and I bet he can feel it through our clothes.

He pulls away from me and I cry saying his name “Not yet” – I say “I can’t do this” – he says while he stands up “WHAT THE FUCK RAPHAEL?”

He looks at me blankly “One minute you are kissing me like your life depends on it, the other you push me away, you took care of me in the hospital and when I got home but then no word from you for almost a week, after I send you a selfie fuck knows how you appear at the same bar that I am at and flirt with me and bring me home, fucking make up your mind” – I say while I let it all out “I want you, more than you will ever know, but I can’t do relationships. I fuck Olivia, that’s what I do”

“Fuck me then” – I say getting frustrated.

“You don’t mean that you are not that kind of girl”

“You don’t know what kind of girl I am”

“Of course I do, don’t pretend to be something you are not”

“But I want you Raphael, and I know you want me, why can’t we do this?”

“BECAUSE I CARE ABOUT YOU, AND IF” – he stops there in the middle of the sentence while he was shouting “IF WHAT?”

He sits down on the bed and passes his hands through his hair and I sit next to him.

“Raphael tell me what’s happening”

“If I allow myself to care for you, and to take you as mine, you become leverage to other people to hurt me, you would be in danger because of me”

“Who would want to hurt me?”

“Remember that guy at the gala?”

“The guy you killed?”

“His son will want revenge eventually, they are dangerous and if they find out about you they will use you against me, you will be in a lot of dangerous”

“I don’t care Raphael, my entire life I did the right thing, I’ve been a good girl and I ended up with an abusive boyfriend, and I managed to defend myself, I can take care of myself”

“No you can’t, I am dangerous, and these people are almost as dangerous as me”

I kneel in front of him between his legs and I grab his face with both my hands forcing him to look me in the eyes “You can protect me, please Raphael, either take me now or let me go forever”

“I can’t let you go” – I see the pain in his eyes I lift myself and I place a kiss on his lips and he hugs me whispering in my ear “I can’t be without you”

“Then don’t” – I say and hug him while I play with his hair.

He grabs me and throws me into the bed and stands on top of me, his eyes have desire and lust while he hovers over me.

“I don’t do girlfriends, relationships, but I need you to be mine and If we do this, there’s no way back, you will be mine forever, and you will have to do what I tell you to do so I can keep you safe”

“I can’t just do everything you want me to” – I complain “Olivia, I will need to keep you safe if you want to be with me, so sometimes it might seem weird what I tell you to do but you will have to just trust me”

“I trust you” – I say “This between us needs to be private, no-one can know, not even your best friends”

“Why?”

“Olivia, just fucking agree to keep it a secret”

“Okay”

“Okay?”

“Yes, Raphael. I am yours in fucking secret but you have to be mine, all mine”

“I’ve been yours since the first time I saw you”

I smile and pull him to kiss me.