Olivia POV Olivia POV Once we get gone fro the doctor I decided to go have a shower and change into something comfortable. I am extremely tired and the hot water will do me good.
I turn the water on and undress. I am surprised Raphael didnât come after me after all the doctor said it was safe to have sex.
I put my hair in a bun and allow the water to fall on my body relaxing me. I put both my hands on my stomach and I look down.
âWe are going to be okayâ - I say When I finish my shower I wrap a fluffy towel around me and go to the dressing room. I put on yoga pants and one of Raphaelâs T-shirt. I grab a fluffy blanket and wrap it around me. Itâs a cold day today and I need to feel cosy.
I walk out of the bedroom to find Raphael drinking in the morning. Thatâs never a good sign. I walk to him and I wrap my arms around his waist. Now we are both being comforted by the blanket.
Hey, are you okay?â - I ask him âYeah. Was just thinkingâ
âShouldnât you go to work?â - I say looking at his watch.
âIâll go in the afternoonâ - he says still not looking at me. He is looking out of the windows to the snowy NY.
âNothing is going to happen to our babyâ - I try to reassure him. He finally looks down at me and smiles giving me a soft kiss on the top of the nose. I know he is worried. I am too, but I will do my best to keep this baby.
âIâll die before something happens to this babyâ - Raphael says and I hug him tighter. I knew he was worried unjust didnât know how much. He is going to be a good father. He is already loving this baby so much.
Raphaelâs phone starts ringing and I let go of him so he can answer. I look out of the window hugging my own body wrapping the blanket more around me. It smells like him.
âJosephâ
I look up at Raphael. His face is hard.
âWhat the fuck happened?â - Raphael is acting mechanic now. He walks to his desk putting the glass down but his eyes never leave mine.
âHe can fuck offâ- Raphael says. I donât know what Joseph is saying but whatever it is is making Raphael extremely upset. His grub tightened on the desk.
âIâm on my wayâ - Raphael says and my eyes drop to the floor. Is it going to be always like this? What if I need him? Will he leave as well. I look up at him and he can see the uncertainty in my eyes.
Raphael starts collecting his things from the desk and he walks towards his safe. He is getting his gun.
âWhat happened?â - I ask while he places a kiss on the top of my head.
âDonât worry loveâ
âRaphael, we talked about this, you are going to tell me now what happenedâ - I let out in annoyance.
He canât keep hiding things from me, I need to know if he is going to be safe or if he is going on another fucking suicidal mission.
âScott is dyingâ - he says and my head goes into mush. I had forgotten about him. I had blocked everything he had done to me. I sit on the sofa and I take a deep breath. I donât know why but I thought he was dead already. Since the day Raphael discovered I went there to see him. I assumed they killed him then. But they just increased the torture and now he is dying. Indoor feel bad for him. I canât feel.
âGood riddance â - I say and Raphael chuckles looking at me.
âI need to go see what he wants, I wonât be longâ - he says and I look into his beautiful sky blue orbs.
âOkayâ - I say while he walks out and towards the lift.
I stay here, sitting and thinking about everything that happened. How it all started.
That day if I hadnât gone to the park to read I wouldâve never have met Raphael. Or maybe I wouldâve, he went to do some speeches at NYU with Lucas, but he probably wouldnât have looked at me, I wasnât in distress then.
I decide to grab my phone and look at the magazines. See what they are saying about Raphael.
My mouth drops open when I see the cover of one of the magazines.
âOH NOâ - I say out loud. - âwhat the actual fuckâ
âRaphael Lockwood diving into paternity?â - and thereâs a photo of a red hair girl, I look at the photo and it is Tammy, what the actual fuck? Sheâs showing already.
Raphael, you are dead. I think to myself.
I walk to the kitchen to find Maria, she is singing while she bakes, it smells good.
âMariaâ - I say standing near the kitchen island.
âOlivia, do you need anything?â
âI need you to call Tammy and tell her to get her filthy ass here right now â - I say and Maria finches.
âWhat has she done now?â
âI bet you knowâ - I say looking at her face. Her eyes drop to the floor and she walks towards me.
âI am sorry, I told her to keep quiet and I would talk to Raphaelâ
âSo you knew about this?â
âYesâ - she says looking into my eyes. I can see she is sorry but I still canât believe she didnât tell us, she didnât tell me.
âDoes Raphael know?â - she shakes her head saying no.
âI havenât told him yet, and she got tired of waiting for what it seems likeâ
âHow far along is she?â
âShe is 29 weeks pregnant â
I look into my phone starting to count weeks. It was when we were broken off and right before I was taken. How could he? How could he do this to us?
I walk out of the kitchen and into the bedroom. I lock the door and go put on a pair of jeans, boots and a warm sweater. I grab my coat and I walk out towards the lift.
I need to get some air, I feel like I canât breathe here. As I am getting out of the building I see the fucking bodyguard.
Thereâs no way I will be able to get rid of him.
Oh, fuck him. I walk down the street towards the park. He lives 2 minutes walk from the park. When I get there I start walking towards the frozen lake. I sit on one of the benches looking at the couples walking hand in hand.
My eyes start to burn with tears and I allow myself to cry. I am hormonal after all.
I donât know how long itâs been since I got here but my hands are starting to go purple with the cold. I get up and start walking towards the coffee cart outside the park.
âHi, can I get a decaf cappuccino please?â
While the guy is making my coffee I look around and I see the bodyguard on a distance.
I pay for my coffee and I keep walking.
I am not ready to go home. And I donât need this guy following me. I cross the street and I make a signal for a taxi. He stops and I get in fast. Thereâs isnât a lot of traffic so we manage to disappear before the bodyguard could follow me.
âWhere to miss?â
âBrooklyn â - I say. It is quite a long drive. When we get to Dumbo I get out of the taxi and I walk near the river. I like this area, I miss how uneventful my life used to be. I love Raphael and I love my life with him but I miss this.
I walk for a bit feeling the cold and then I decide to take the ferry back to Manhattan. I can feel my phone ringing. I look at it to see sex missed calls from Raphael. I turn the phone off.
âNow you canât find meâ - I say.
I know Raphael is gonna go crazy. I know he will be really mad at me. But I am not ready to face him.
Or to hear his voice.
I sit on the ferry and I take a deep breath. I miss this, to see Manhattan from this side.
Once I get to Manhattan I decide I am not ready to go home. I get a cab and I go to Annaâs place. My brother moved in with her to Manhattan. I never thought I would see him in the big city.
When I get there I ring the bell and the door opens almost straight away.
âRaphael called, I was worriedâ - my bother says âDonât tell him I am hereâ
âWhat happened? Did he hurt you?â
I shake my head but I canât stop the tears from flooding down my face.
They both hug me and we walk to the living room.
I decide to tell him what happened. I need to talk to someone. My hormones are going crazy and playing tricks with my head.
More tomorrow Stay safe Love Peyton