CH 31

“I’m here to confront you.” Gu Jiuci said.

Tang Ziyou was stunned for a moment and let him come in by turning sideways.

Seeing him lowered his head, Gu Jiuci smiled, “Don’t worry, it’s just work.”

Tang Ziyou was inexplicably embarrassed, “I didn’t mean that.”

“What do you mean?” Gu Jiuci asked him.

Tang Ziyou didn’t know what to say for a while and didn’t answer at all. He walked to the coffee table and took his script. He said calmly, “Let’s start.”

Gu Jiuci sat down on the small sofa beside him and Tang Ziyou also sat on the other side of the sofa.

The two spoke quietly to each other and said nothing more.

Gu Jiuci looked up at him when he lowered his head, only to see his low eyebrows and soft look. He was hit by the cold light in the room, making him look exceptionally quiet.

He hadn’t been so silent before, Gu Jiuci thought, he used to be very talkative. Every time he met, he seemed to have a lot of things to tell himself, but now, he was silent.

Gu Jiuci suddenly remembered the pot of flowers that he had raised a long time ago.

When he bought it back, it was still very bright, but because he didn’t care about it, it finally died in a flower pot.

He has seen him in the most vivid appearance, and now, he could only share silence with him.

Gu Jiuci felt that he regretted it again.

There were many things, when you were stuck in the game, you cared about it, couldn’t afford it, and couldn’t let it go. However, when you get out of that dilemma and reconsider the situation at the time, you would find that it wasn’t necessary at all.

If he could be more mature then, be more honest, and sensibly accept the changes in his mood, then he and Tang Ziyou should be very happy now.

Better than now, the two sat facing each other in silence.

Gu Jiuci said the last line calmly and put down the script.

Tang Ziyou looked up at him unconsciously and saw Gu Jiuci smiling at himself.

He was good-looking and he was more attractive when he smiled. Tang Ziyou once liked his smile, but now he bowed his head and avoided the past.

“I watched you acting today,” Gu Jiuci said, “Your acting skills are pretty good.”

“Thank you.” Tang Ziyou said softly.

“You are very suitable for the profession of an actor.”

“Thank you.” Tang Ziyou still lowered his head.

Gu Jiuci simply approached him, squatted down, and said softly, “That’s why I persuaded you at that time, I hope you don’t give up your job.”

Listening to the sound of his approach, Tang Ziyou unconsciously raised his eyes to look at him.

Gu Jiuci sighed, “I have been thinking a lot these days. I was wrong about the past. I was too awkward and too immature. It was obvious that I could solve things very easily, but I went around a lot of things. In the end, it made both people unhappy.”

“No.” Tang Ziyou said, “It’s not your fault, it’s mine. I’m too obsessed and lost myself. You’re not wrong. You just don’t like me, but don’t like a person (可是不喜欢一个人). It’s not wrong. No one has stipulated that if I love you, you must love me.”

Gu Jiuci heard the words and smiled, “So you think I’m not wrong, it’s your fault?”

Tang Ziyou nodded. He said, “I’m the one who tied myself up.”

Gu Jiuci looked at his clear eyes and shook his head slowly, “Emotional matters are never a person’s fault. If I don’t love you, then maybe I’m innocent. But when I like you, then I’m also in this mistake. Therefore, you don’t need to blame all the mistakes on yourself.”

Tang Ziyou shook his head, “It was originally my fault.”

“Well, like I said it’s not your fault.” Gu Jiuci looked at him, “What I want to tell you is that I advised you to go to work, not because I don’t like you, but I think everyone should have their own career and their own stage.”

“If you stay at home all the time, you can only see me, and you will attach all your feelings to me invisibly. However, 365 days a year, I don’t have many days at home, so I hope you go to work and this way a year passes quickly. You don’t need to care too much about me, so you won’t be too uncomfortable because of me. In this way, after a year, I can face you frankly. Not to let you live only waiting for me every day.”

Tang Ziyou was stunned for a moment. He didn’t expect that Gu Jiuci had this consideration.

He thought that the other party simply didn’t like him, so he persuaded him to go to work and told him that he couldn’t stay at home all the time.

He was silent again.

Gu Jiuci whispered, “But you are doing very well now. Although you have left me, you have your own stage, which is also very good. At least, you are happy when you are acting.”

Tang Ziyou looked at him quietly.

After a long time, he said, “Then do you know why I didn’t want to work during that time?”

“Why?” Gu Jiuci asked him.

“Because I want to rest.”

His tone was gentle and the emotions in his eyes were very weak. He said, “I’m not trying to cling to you or pester you, I just want to take a break.”

“Gu Jiuci, I’m different from you. You have parents and a brother. You grew up and someone helped you share the burden. But I don’t have anything. I only have Grandpa, but how can I bear to let him share my affairs? I can only work hard and do my best.”

“When Grandpa left, I was really tired. Not only was my body tired, but my heart was also tired. So I wanted to rest. I still have savings in my hands. I can do other things I like at home. I don’t think it’s wrong for me taking a break for a year or two. Don’t people get tired? I’ve worked hard for more than 20 years. Can’t I take a break?”

“When the parents of other children help them with the handicrafts, I am alone; when the parents of other people tutor their children’s homework, I am also alone; when other parents make suggestions for their children’s work, I am still alone. I was too tired, especially when my grandfather was gone, so I didn’t want to work hard anymore. I just want to take a good rest for a while.”

Gu Jiuci didn’t expect this to happen. He opened his mouth and wanted to ask him, why didn’t you tell me?

However, he swallowed it again, because he remembered. Tang Ziyou had said that he wanted to rest for a while.

It was just that he didn’t understand why he had to rest for so long?

Even if it was because of the death of a loved one, the sadness was unbearable, but he couldn’t stay at home for a year.

He didn’t understand Tang Ziyou and Tang Ziyou didn’t tell him his hard work alone for so many years, so he misunderstood him again.

But what he should have thought of was that Tang Ziyou only had his grandfather as a relative, how could he not work hard?

He lived easily because he had an older brother and parents, but Tang Ziyou didn’t. He only had his grandfather.

“I’m sorry.” He said, “I should have thought of it. I should ask you more and talk to you more.”

At that time, Tang Ziyou still liked talking to him very much and was willing to talk to him peacefully, but he didn’t want to. He resisted Tang Ziyou’s approach and didn’t want to talk to him much.

“I’m sorry,” he said, “I made more mistakes than I thought.”

Tang Ziyou shook his head. He could understand it very well now, “You didn’t like me at the time, so naturally you didn’t want to talk to me more. This is normal. It’s not your fault. It’s me. I forced the engagement to cause all this.”

“Perhaps it is indeed your fault at the beginning of all this, but the main reason for the matter to this point is me.”

He looked at Tang Ziyou, “Then you don’t want to rest now? Aren’t you tired?”

Tang Ziyou looked into his eyes without speaking.

Gu Jiuci asked him, “Is it because of me? I let you down, so you have to come back and start working hard again.”

Tang Ziyou shook his head.

He smiled and said, “I have seen it clearly. In this matter, there is a deep affinity for someone and a shallow affinity for someone. I probably belong to the kind with a particularly shallow relationship, so my parents left me early, and my grandfather left too. I originally wanted to have a family with you and have new relatives, but it was also unpleasant.”

“This is probably the case in this world, so I still have to work hard on my own. I don’t have anyone to rely on. I’m the only one left. I have to plan for myself and keep working hard while I’m young. When I get old, maybe I can really rest.”

Gu Jiuci felt sorry for him, “You don’t need to work so hard. You’re right. You’re still young and have savings in your hand. You can rest for one or two years. I can be your family and you can rely on me.”

Tang Ziyou laughed, with bright eyes and white teeth. He said, “Don’t say this kind of thing, Gu Jiuci. As I said before, we can’t. No matter if I have someone I can rely on in the future, this person absolutely won’t be you.”

“Well,” he smiled, “this is the end of today’s conversation. You should go back.”

Gu Jiuci looked at the smile on his face, but couldn’t smile at all. He had promised Tang Ziyou’s grandfather that he would take good care of him, but he didn’t do it at all.

He didn’t even know why Tang Ziyou wanted to stay at home. Not only did he not know, but he also let him leave in disappointment, ending his rest time early.

He didn’t ask much, but he had never patiently asked him why and never thought about how to satisfy him.

Gu Jiuci felt that he was really a failure. He was engaged to Tang Ziyou, but he didn’t know the original character of Tang Ziyou and didn’t understand the hardship he went through.

He only knew that he was good, but he didn’t know what kind of sadness and sorrow was behind him every time he showed his sincerity.

He didn’t show consideration to him at all.

Gu Jiuci left. He had no reason to stay.

Tang Ziyou looked at the sadness between his eyebrows and sighed silently.

He actually didn’t need this. He thought he didn’t need Gu Jiuci to be sad for him, to feel pitiful for him.

In fact, this was a lesson he deserved. He got it and saw it clearly, so he wouldn’t impose his love on others in the future.

As for Gu Jiuci, he could still live as free and easy as before.

This was very good. There was no need to worry about him. After all, he himself didn’t worry about him now.

Tang Ziyou felt that he was in a good state now. He lived a clear life. He didn’t love or complain, and every day was fresh and smooth.

He was very satisfied, so he hoped that Gu Jiuci could also put it down as soon as possible.

* * *

The next morning, when Tang Ziyou arrived on the set, he saw Gu Jiuci who had already discussed the plot with the director on the set.

He was dressed in black, tied with a silver crown, and he was very handsome.

Tang Ziyou didn’t have time to marvel at his looks like this. As expected, all appearances were suitable. He saw Xu Sijia put on makeup and hair and walked to Gu Jiuci.

“Hello, Teacher Gu.” Xu Sijia smiled.

“Hello.” Gu Jiuci said coldly.

Xu Sijia looked at him with a gentle tone, “Don’t you know, Teacher Gu, I’ve always been a fan of you. This time I know you are going to make a guest appearance, I”m so excited!”

She knowingly asked, “Teacher Gu, what role do you play as a guest? Do you play against me? I don’t know if I have this qualification…”

Gu Jiuci said very simply, “No.”

Xu Sijia: ……

Xu Sijia looked at him in surprise as if she couldn’t believe that he was so direct.

Gu Jiuci was too lazy to pay attention to her. As soon as his eyes looked up, he saw Tang Ziyou not far away.

Tang Ziyou quickly avoided his sight and walked to one side.

Gu Jiuci felt a little lost.

Fortunately, Director Wang next to him was very dedicated and said, “Xiao Tang is here. Come here. Let me tell you about your scene today.”

Gu Jiuci turned cloudy to sunny in an instant. He felt that Director Wang was still very good and could be included in the list of cooperation.