I'm suffocating.
I'm trapped.
The laughter, the mockery,
The abuse, the torture-
Why me?
Anxiety kicks down the safe wall I had built,
Creeping in like shadows I try to escape.
I'm being consumed.
"Panic attacks."
"Aggressive pounding."
"Profusely sweating."
What's happening?
My mind is confused.
My heart, though in the right place, starts screaming,
Help!
Help!
Help!
But no one can hear me.
It's muffled.
I try to speak, but something stops me.
Am I being held captive?
Whose hand is silencing me?
My brain begins to pick it up-
HELP!
I try to scream,
But I can't.
It's overwhelming.
God, help me!
And then, He answers.
I wake up, feeling a sense of relief-
From this seemingly endless nightmare.
Yet, I return to reality
Where I still feel her unwelcoming presence.
Anxiety has become my best friend.
She's shown me that things aren't what they seem.
Oh, what would I do without her?
She gives me feelings I've never known.
I'm not calm, not at peace.
Instead, I'm always jumpy-
Anxious, she calls it.
Oh, and she also introduced me to fear, which is new.
She helps me understand that fear accompanies her,
No wonder my heart aches every time she arrives.
Oh, what would I do without her?
She's my only friend, after all.
And now,
She wants to introduce me
To someone else.
She calls them
Depression.
A new challenge I fear?