Chapter 10

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One year after your death.

It's been one hell of a year. It's been great actually. I've moved in with kody and bee at their house, which actually isn't that far from the bakery.

We are all basically best friends now. I do miss being with Al though most times. I've already forgiven him for killing me, I'm just worried about his mental state. He probably has gotten worse by now.

But, besides that, I learned how things work down here. Apparently there's an extermination once at the end of every year, where arc angels come down to hell and kill off sinners because of the over growing population. A bit gory but I see how it can help. Though blue and kody take it very seriously, and have us hide out in the basement until the next day. I mean, yeah, It terrifies me to be double dead but as long as we keep doors and windows shut and locked I'm sure we'll be safe, because the rule is they can only go inside homes if there's an opening.

Anyway; back to my long rant about what's been going on over the year.

This past year on my first extermination I thought I saw and heard a familiar woman. Though I couldn't put my finger on it as to who it could be. I have only seen her about 2 other times since then, and I know i knew here In my past life but it's just so hard to recognize who it could be. I've seen another woman with her before. And I can only describe her as looking and sounding like Alastors mom.

But It couldn't be her right? She would've gone to heaven? Oh, well, we all keep secrets. She might be in hell.

My current plan is to find this mystery woman again and talk to her. Because god dammit it's bothering the fuck out of me! I'll even search the entire pentagram if I have to.

But I can't today, despite not living in their bakery attic anymore, I've actually grown to enjoy working weekends and I like helping my friends.

I lay awake in bed, listening to my clock tic every second in the silence of my bedroom. It's loud and yet deafening. I hate it. But at the same time my mind is full of thoughts. Why do I keep getting reoccurring dreams of when I was a child? Especially the day my mom killed herself. Probably trauma just coming back to haunt me now that I've been more stressed anxious and worried, mainly for alastors sake. But other things I've mentioned as well.

I hear a knock at my door, and a soft voice come from behind it

"Hey y/n?... it's blue.. 30 minutes until we have to leave.."

"Ok blue thank you, love you"

"I love you too..."

I hear his footsteps fade down the stairs. I stay in bed for a few more minutes and groan, not wanting to move. I'd rather find that woman today...

After another moment I get up and walk to my closet and look through my clothes, since i now own a variety of different clothes. Mainly men's clothes and suits. But I do own a couple dresses just in case I actually need to wear one.

I slip on a slip fitting tank top and put on a white dress shirt over it, leaving a couple of the top buttons unbuttoned, then puts on dress pants and dress shoes, not bothering to tuck in my shirt like always I ruffle my hair to make it more messy than it already is, and fold my sleeves to my elbows. I love this look on me. There's no way alastor would recognize its me though, I've changed down here, but I'm still my old self no matter what. I grab my wallet and hide it in an inside pocket of my pants so no pickpocketers come and snatch my shit. I learned that the hard way.

I walk down to the kitchen and dining area to see kody has made breakfast.

"Woah smells fantastic as always" I smile and take a seat as I dig into my still warm meal

"Eggs sausage bacon and biscuits and gravy. My favorite breakfast meal" he says in delight, feeling proud of his work like always. I actually love all this food as well. Well... I like most foods, I'm not much of a picky eater. Except mushrooms. I hate mushrooms. [Sorry to everyone who actually likes mushrooms-]

"Well thank you for making breakfast, I appreciate it." I say with my mouth slightly full, but I'm at least courteous enough to cover my mouth when talking unlike most sinners down here. I swear it's like they were raised by wolves.

By the time we finished breakfast we were dressed and out the door, being stuck in my own thoughts it only felt like a minute passed as we walk through the front door of the bakery. I get to work on setting up chairs and tables as blue and kody get food and drinks prepared and ready. I sweep and mop, and wipe down tables... yeah, it's hell. But we at least have standards of keeping our shit clean and organized.

When I turn on the open sign, a few of our regulars come in as kody takes over and takes their orders. When I'm done I quickly start helping blue fill those out and get our regulars done and out of the way. Not even 20 minutes later a woman walks in. The same woman I needed to talk to! This is perfect! "I got this kody-" gently pushing him out of the way I stand at the register and smile at her. She has bright (e/c) eyes, though it fills the entirety of her eyes. She has (h/l) (h/c) and wears a long dress and cardigan. She has light grey skin and horns that protrude from the sides of her head and grows up. From her appearance she almost reminds me of... my mom.

"Hello how my I help you today miss" I give a warm smile. I'm nice, I always have been. Unless you get on my bad side. No need in being a bitch when there's no reason to.

"Uhh just get me a black coffee two sugars, and about 3 croissants" she says as she takes out her wallet. At least she isn't like most customers who try to buy something and not pay. Sucks how people try to scam us out of our shit. I take her money and give her change back as blue gets her order ready.

"Oh miss, I have a question if that's ok?" I smile nervously as she looks down at me, she doesn't seem mad or annoyed so I'm sure it's safe to say she's a nice one

"sure, what is it?"

"Well uhhhh... did you by chance have a child named y/n l/n?"

Silence.

She just stares at me in shocked silence.

"How do you know my child's name." Her entire persona changed from calm to threatening. I quickly put my hands up and smile again "Because mom, we finally meet after all this time and I wanted to make sure it was actually you" her eyes widen in disbelief "Y/N?! MY BABY IT'S ACTUALLY YOU!!" I quickly jump over the counter as we pull each other into a bear hug, all she is doing now is mumbling 'I'm sorry' into my shoulder as she sobs, it makes me feel a bit awkward but I pat her back anyway "how about we grab your order and sit down and talk things out, I do want some things answered afterall" she nods in agreement as we grab her order and sit at a table.

When she finally calms down she looks me with deep sorrow in her eyes. "You're too young to be here" I mean she has a point. I barely lived life and I was only 31. "I know mom, I didn't mean to die. But... onto more pressing matters" I lean back and sigh deeply. "... what did i do wrong?" She then looks at me quizzically "what do you mean?" I frown and sit up right "i mean when i was a kid, before you killed yourself and left me. What did I do wrong to make you think it was all my fault for dad being gone, for you to off yourself." Her expression changed once more, now feeling guilt for her actions before.

"Actually... nothing was your fault. Your dad didn't leave because of you, he went and joined the army, but... later died, I don't remember how. He left because of me though so it wasn't you dear. I was very clingy to him and tried changing who he was. My mental and emotional state spiralled downwards after that, and we ended up in debt. It was difficult feeding one mouth let alone two. So, I let everything I kept bottled away, out. And took everything out on you until i had enough and forced you to watch me kill myself. I know I can't go back and change the past, even if i want to. But I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me?" She looks up at me. My heart aches when I realize she was actually struggling with her mental and emotional health just as alastor was, she never meant to actually do that to me. After moments of staring at eachother she starts to lose hope, but I grab her hand and smile warmly "Hey. You're my mom and always have been. Of course I forgive you" I get up pulling her with me and give her another hug as she immediately hugs back. "Oh thank you dear... you've grown into a beautiful person, even if you're a demon now, but still beautiful in your own way" she lets out a little giggle and starts writing down a piece of paper and hands it to me "this is my address for if you ever want to visit. I actually live with Alastors mom, so we can all catch up on the past 25 years ok? I need to go now but I'll see you later" she then grabs her drink and food and leaves giving me a wave goodbye.

I look down at the slip of paper and smile. Today is a great day, huh Al?