Yan Jing spent days at home thinking about how to kill Kang Hua without witnesses.
Princess Kang Hua sat by the window and the sunlight shone on her grey hair strands. In the past she would pluck grey hair, but she knew there was no need to anymore.
Princess Kang Hua heard the door opened, she raised her head and she was surprised to see Yan Jing as much as she was surprised to see flowers blossomed during autumn.
A few nights ago most of the maids and servants ran away from the Yan Manor. Only the older maids and servants stayed because there was nowhere else for them to serve. So the Yan Manor was quiet enough for a door creak to sound loud.
Yan Jing threw a basket of three long white fabrics in front of Kang Hua. âItâs the emperorâs edict, you can kill yourself.â
âWhy should I?â Princess Kang Hua asked. âDidnât the emperor ask you to kill me?â
âYou should have killed yourself long ago!â Yan Jing said.
âWhy should I die before you?â Princess Kang Hua said.
Yan Jing didnât want to admit he would be killed after Kang Hua died. âI told you, Iâm not going to die with you!â
Princess Kang Hua laughed coldly.
Yan Jing regretted he couldnât kill someone with his own hands. âIf you kill yourself, Iâll take care of your bastard child.â
Princess Kang Hua prolonged ingesting the bottle of poison because her heart wasnât at ease about Yan Shi Ting.
Princess Kang Hua didnât get a chance to accept Yan Jingâs bribe, an old maid entered the chamber.
âMaster, ninth princeâs wife is here,â the old maid said.
Yan Jing ignored the resentment in Kang Huaâs eyes.
âItâs your choice,â Yan Jing said and left the chamber.
Yan Shi Ning was surprised at the quiet and dirty state of the Yan Manor. It was different to the first day she arrived at the Yan Manor two years ago. That day the arrogant Princess Kang Hua and Yan Shi Ting waited for her at the entrance of the Yan Manor between the clean two lion statues. Afterward for two years, Princess Kang Hua and Yan Shi Ting always reminded her that she was eating and living in their home.
An old maid escorted Yan Shi Ning to the courtyard and she sat opposite her father.
The old maid poured tea for Yan Shi Ning, she drank it and thought it didnât taste half as delicious as it did two months ago.
âShi Ning, this is a bad time for you to visit,â Yan Jing said.
Yan Jing didnât want his daughter to see the poor state of the Yan Manor.
Yan Shi Ning smiled gently at her father. âFather, a few days ago my body was unwell and I couldnât come to visit sooner.â
Yan Jing saw how much his daughter looked like Dung Thi and he sighed sadly. âShi Ning, all these years have you ever resented me?â
Yan Shi Ning was surprised by her fatherâs question and quietly drank tea.
Yan Jing knew his daughterâs silence meant she did resent him. âYou have the right to resent me. Iâm to blame for everything that has happened.â
Yan Shi Ning didnât want to hear her fatherâs regrets. âThe emperor... did father receive an edict from the emperor?â
Yan Shi Ning knew her question was as rhetorical as her fatherâs earlier question.
Yan Jing wanted to leave at least one good impression of him in front of his daughter. âI donât know what the emperor will do. But Iâve resigned and the emperor gave his permission for me to return to Xuan Qing.â
Yan Shi Ning felt a little pity to see an old man chased away from the imperial court. âThatâs good. When I married ninth prince, people told me to live a peaceful life. Father, distancing yourself from the imperial court will let you live a peaceful life. Having power is good but it comes with anxiety.â
Yan Jing lowered his head and drank tea. He didnât think his daughter could be that kind.
âI heard little sisterâs health is poor,â Yan Shi Ning said. âI came here to visit little sister.â
âShi Ning, thereâs nothing good for you to see,â Yan Jing said.
âFather, sheâs still my little sister,â Yan Shi Ning said.
Yan Shi Ning put the cup on table and she walked to the gardens.
In the gardens Yan Shi Ting was dribbling and smiling at the sky like a fool. She saw Yan Shi Ning in front of her and grabbed Yan Shi Ningâs dress.
âYou hurt me!â Yan Shi Ting said.
Yan Shi Ning felt guilty seeing the beautiful Yan Shi Ting became a fool. But Yan Shi Tingâs shrieks scared her and she stepped back from Yan Shi Ting.
âShi Ting, let go of my dress,â Yan Shi Ning said.
Yan Shi Ting teared off a sleeve of Yan Shi Ningâs dress. The dress was one of the new expensive dresses Lady Suâs dressmakers delivered to Pei Jinâs manor. She didnât get to pity her dress because Yan Shi Ting was touching the collar of her dress.
Yan Shi Ting thought she found a treasure.
âWhat a beautiful dress,â Yan Shi Ting said.
Yan Shi Ning felt relieved Yan Shi Ting wasnât going to tear the other sleeve off her dress.
Suddenly Yan Shi Ting grabbed Yan Shi Ningâs collar. âThis is my dress! Take off my dress! Youâre a bad person! You stole my dress!â
Yan Shi Ning pushed Yan Shi Ting away from her and took many steps back.
Yan Shi Ting fell on the ground and cried loudly. âYouâre a bad person! You want to hurt me! Why do you want to hurt me? Why? Iâm the crown princeâs wife!â
Yan Shi Ning heard Yan Shi Ting was insane but she didnât know how insane until she witnessed Yan Shi Tingâs crying one moment and laughing the next moment.
âShi Ting, Iâm truly sorry,â Yan Shi Ning said. âI didnât think Iâll cause you to become like this. But donât worry, after she dies, Iâll take good care of you.â
Yan Shi Ning left Yan Shi Ting in the gardens to look for her motherâs killer.
After Yan Shi Ning left, Pei Lam stepped out from the shadows. He watched Yan Shi Ting sit on the ground while tearing petals and leaves off flowers.
âBig brother crown prince, I love big brother,â Yan Shi Ting said to the flower. âBig brother, do you love me?â
âUm,â Pei Lam said.
âThen in the future will you marry me?â Yan Shi Ting asked the flower.
âUm,â Pei Lam said.
Pei Lam couldnât believe the Yan Shi Ting in front of him was the same young girl with bright eyes in his memories. He thought those early childhood years were beautiful.
Yan Shi Ting felt that someone was standing behind her. She turned around and smiled. She stood and grabbed Pei Lamâs sleeve. âBig brother crown prince, youâre here. I knew big brother would come.â
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Yan Shi Ting felt happy. âBig brother crown prince, do you know long I waited for big brother? I thought big brother wouldnât come. Big brother crown prince, why isnât big brother talking? Is it because you donât love Shi Ting? Big brother crown prince, you canât hate Shi Ting. Shi Ting will be the crown princeâs wife.â
Yan Shi Ting remembered something and began to take off her dress. âBig brother crown prince, today my dress is easy to take off. Big brother come behind me. I know big brother loves that position the most-â
Pei Lam hands squeezed Yan Shi Tingâs neck.
Yan Shi Ting tried to push away the hands around her neck, but the hands were too strong. She gasped for air and felt like she was slowly choking.
A while later Yan Shi Ting stopped struggling. She silently cried, suspicions were gone and everything beautiful died. Why was the crown prince crying? She wanted to wipe his tears but she had no strength left.
Pei Lamâs hands let go of Yan Shi Tingâs neck and he silently cried.
âFor you dying is better than living,â Pei Lam said. âIf you die, you can escape.â
Afterward the body of one of the imperial cityâs beauties fell into cold water. But Yan Shi Tingâs eyes were wide opened as though she was asking, âBig brother crown prince, why did you kill me?â
Pei Lam stood in the gardens, pulled out an old letter and teared it to pieces, âBig brother crown prince, Iâll open the small western door of the Yan Manor. If big brother wants me, big brother can come there to find me. Iâm waiting for you.â
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End of Chapter Forty-Three