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It was like time stopped and my heart broke all over again. I can't believe Malachi actually marked someone else. A mark is only meant for your mate when you find each other; maybe he really did mean all those mean words. Amaris still hasn't stopped whining and crying and my tears kept falling. Jax broke me out of my thoughts,
"Jadah what happened, are you okay?" He asked worriedly looking me over. I looked back at him in the eyes. The eyes are the window to the soul. He looked taken aback but kept his composure.
"My....mate marked someone else." I whispered dropping my head crying louder just thinking about it. Then everyone's furious growls ripped through the air, but I couldn't care less. They're not going through what I'm going through, They aren't feeling the pain I feel. With that I picked my half dead body off the floor and headed up stairs. Letting them continue with their rampage all I know is that I'm broken again. Malachi really done it this time.
I did it. I marked Kim. I could feel my wolf inside me from wherever he was hiding howling and growling in anger and sadness. Ever since Jadah left my wolf has been hiding. Still he doesn't talk to me and it's becoming harder and harder to shift as the days pass. The pack isn't the same, Jadah's family feels terrible for being part of the reason Jadah left but the blame is all on me.
I know Jadah could stand the bullying because she's strong, but when I rejected her I pushed her over the edge. It's also my family's fault who by the way can't be happier Jadah left. They still believe Jadah isn't my mate.
Leila has been moping around depressed, even Lucas who hated her towards the end is depressed. She was his favorite sister but he let his jealousy of some unknown reason get in the way. Leo on the other hand isn't effected as much, he's still the same old Leo, he was only following behind his siblings but deep down I know he feels guilty.
Kim. She's another story.
She's ecstatic that Jadah went away. That means no more competition for me and more room for her to become Luna.
I had to mark her or my father would never resign from the alpha position. I hate to say that my greed for the alpha's spot was that great but put yourself in my shoes. If you've been training and learning how to take control and run a pack like an alpha all your life you would feel the same. The only way to get the spot was to mark Kim so I did.
Right now Kim is in the mirror admiring the mark that should be on Jadah. It's placed on her right shoulder. She caught me staring at her before she turned away from the mirror and smiled.
"Baby I love it!" She squealed running towards me and placing a sloppy kiss on my lips. Ugh. This is sickening and if I keep it up I might hurl. I gently pushed her back and forced a smile towards her which she returned.
"I'm glad you do. You'll be the best Luna there is." I lied straight through my teeth. She gazed at me with her bright green eyes that I used to like but now I can't stand to look at anymore. A feeling of disgust circulated through my body and I guess she felt it because her eyes turned to worry.
"Babe what's wrong? Why do you feel so...so...disgusted?" She asked scrunching her face up.
"It's nothing. I just thought about Jadah." I said feeling Ryder my wolf growl at me. She sent a crude smile my way.
"I know. She's so pathetic to run away like that." She sneered turning her back to me to take off her clothes. I felt the urge to snap her neck for what she said but I just balled up my fists.
She stripped out of her clothing until she was stark naked and turned to me with a seductive smile.
"Come baby. I'm all yours." She said and I stripped out of my clothing and went to her. Im so sorry Jadah.
When I got to my room I closed the door before sliding down to the floor. I stared emotionlessly at nothing before tears poured out of my eyes again. I got up and was about to go lay down when I felt a wave of pain flood my body. I dropped to the ground and held my stomach.
"What...Is....happening?!" I yelled gritting my teeth together. Amaris was whining loudly in my head hurting my heart more. I wish I could get rid of this pain for her but I can't, I don't even know why I feel like this. I heard running footsteps advancing towards my room before my family came busting through the door. I craned my neck to look behind me and through my blurry tears I saw everyone there. Sophia was the only one who came to me.
"Come here." She said kneeling on the floor, I slowly crawled over to her until I was cradled in her arms. I felt another wave of pain hit me like a bus and I cried out.
"Baby girl it's gonna hurt." She cooed rubbing my back as I gripped her shirt.
"W-what's happening?"I gritted out feeling tears pour out again.
"He's sleeping with someone." She answered with no emotion and I froze.
First he marks someone, then he sleeps with someone! This time I yelled out in anger. I thrashed around in Sophia's arms to get away from her but she held on to me.
"Let. Me. Go!" I yelled pushing out of her arms and when she let go I took off. I pushed through my family, ran down the stairs and out of the house. Looking around I saw thick trees and I took off into the woods ignoring my family's pleading for me to come back. I felt Amaris howling inside me feeling the same way so I kept running and running until I couldn't hear the cries and pleads of my family.
I kept running until I stopped in the middle of the forest and was surrounded by trees. This is exactly what happened when the Alphas chased me away. Except this time I'm not gonna cry out because of self pity, I'm stronger than that. I felt something snap inside me like I had been holding something far too heavy up until now. Next thing I know my fists are slamming into a near by tree knocking it over.
I walked over to another tree and kicked it with all my might and I heard it crack, I kicked it again until it fell. If this is the closest I can get to letting off steam then so be it.
I kept this up until most of the trees around me were completely destroyed or knocked over. I was punching down one last tree before wiping the sweat from my brow. I peered up at the sky and I could see the sun rising and the birds chirping.
I've been out here since last night and it's now what I think is 7am. I bet my family is worried sick. I started walking home feeling the adrenaline leave my body, I am tired. I just want my bed and some new clot-
"What the hell?" feeling stinging, and a liquid run down my hand. I looked down and saw my knuckles were split and bruised.
"Aww fuck!" I yelled and started stomping home.
In no time I spotted the big beautiful mansion that was my home and sprinted to the gates. I ran into the house where I saw everyone sitting on the couch huddled together with bags under their eyes, hair and clothes all messy, and they were all sleep.
I smiled at them before I tip toed to the kitchen where I rinsed my knuckles and wrapped them in rags. I walked back out and over to the them and laid next to Jax. He visibly relaxed before wrapping an arm around me and we drifted sleep.
I was awakened by something poking my face.
When I opened my eyes I seen Gin in front of me holding her chin, and jabbing my cheek.
"What are you doing weirdo?" I asked, swatting her hand away before sitting up on the couch and crossing my legs. I looked around and noticed everyone was gone, it was just me and Gin.
"Waking you up." She said with a shrug before leaning back on her knees and pouting. "You scared me Jay. I thought you left us and didn't want to come back." She said down heartedly.
"I'm sorry Gin. I would never leave you guys. I just needed some space." I sighed hugging her,
laying my chin in her hair.
"I promise that if I see your mate I will kick him in the balls for you." She said seriously pulling back, I gasped and slapped a hand over her mouth.
"You can't say that! You'll get me and Georgie in trouble!" I scolded but she only rolled her eyes before removing my hand from her mouth.
"Whatever. But I'll still do it." She warned pointing at me with her index finger. I laughed and nodded, she hopped up and ran away.
I soon got up and stretched. I heard chatter coming from the kitchen,
"I guess I better go apologize." I muttered to myself before silently creeping to the kitchen door. I felt my nerves hit me like a ton of bricks.
"Come in Jay." I heard someone say from the other side and I sighed before pushing through the doors. I saw everyone at the counter eating. I gave a small smile before stepping further into the room.
"Good morning guys." I said and they started laughing.
"Sweetheart it's 3 in the afternoon." Jax said and I blushed.
"Oh...I came to say sorry for running out leaving you guys worried, and tired." I apologized.
"It's okay. We knew you needed time but Gin wanted us to look for you so we did." Jax said, "I see you hurt your hand pretty badly." He said glancing down at the rags on my knuckles.
I clasped my hands together, "Yeah, Got pretty angry and hit a few trees." I said bashfully tapping my fists together.
"A few?" He asked me with wide eyes, "We heard everything. It sounded like more than a few trees." He said and my eyes widened.
"You heard that?" I asked in disbelief.
"Yeah we all did." He said eating a bagel, "But we understood so we left you alone." He said calmly and I nodded before walking over to a counter and propping myself on it.
"Jax." I said and he turned, those bright green orbs landing on me. I smiled before speaking,
"I want you to train me." I said wiping my face from any emotion so he knows I'm serious.
"Sweetheart that's what we-" I cut him off.
"No. I mean to really train me. I want to know moves, be a stronger person, and most importantly a trainer." I said strongly and everyone looked at me with wide eyes.
"Jadah I know you're upset about your mate but-"
"This has nothing to do with him." I said in a strained voice, just mentioning him could make me explode. "This is all me. I want to be stronger and I know with your help I could get there. You said it yourself, if and when I complete my training I could become the packs trainer." I said with conviction. He looked at me for a moment before nodding his head.
"Alright, this is your decision. Do not think that I will let up on you and I don't want you quitting." I smiled before going back to my serious expression.
"Okay I promise I won't let you down." I promised and he nodded his head before ushering me out.
"Sophia come." He said and she nodded before walking out with us. We left the boys and Georgie to their business and went to the backyard, going out the back door.
When we got to the back I was confused as to why Sophia was here.
"Sophia is here to help you with your flexibility and will be your sparring buddy." He said answering my question. I nodded before waiting for one of them to instruct me to do something.
"Come here Jadah." Sophia said using her Luna's voice. I instantly followed her command and went to her. When I was in front of her she dropped into the splits right before me. My jaw hit the ground.
"Whoah!" I said excitedly and she kept her face stoic. I guess that was my cue to get serious. I cleared my throat before going back serious.
"When you do the splits or anything that requires bending your body, stretch to loosen up your muscles then let it all flow." She said and I nodded before dropping to the ground and stretching my legs.
I went to the left and bent down on my leg as far as I could, ignoring the burning I felt. When I was too far down I did the right leg the same way and shook out my arms before facing Sophia.
"Drop to the splits." She said seriously. I was about to protest but I did what she said. I was almost to the ground and looked up to tell Sophia this is as far as I can go but she bent down at the speed of lightning and pulled my leg out more and before I knew it I felt my crotch touching the ground.
I don't know how long I was sitting there in the splits but I knew it was a while. It hurt so bad like my muscles were ripped outta place and were stomped on. My thoughts were interrupted by Sophia,
"Okay now stand up." She said and I gave her an incredulous look.
"I can't. My legs are on fire." I gritted out being extra still.
"Well I guess you don't want to become the packs trainer or complete your training because you can't even stand up from the splits." She teased circling me. She was implying that I am a quitter. Despite the pain in my legs I placed my hands on the ground around me before pushing myself up and bringing my legs together wincing slightly from the pain.
When I completely stood up I saw Sophia on the ground in the middle splits looking bored. Oh really?I spread my legs apart before I slowly lowered myself into the middle splits feeling minimum pain. I kept going until my legs completely touched the ground. I looked up at Sophia and saw proudness in her eyes but her face was blank.
She stood up, dusting herself off and held her leg all the way up in the air. I copied her action, bringing my leg up all the way up and holding it. We continued mirroring each other's actions. To tell you the truth I felt like a human pretzel.
Right now I'm working with Jax. He has been teaching me these combinations and moves that help me either kill or hurt my opponent.
Some of the moves require me to use my flexibility. I continue doing my exercises, sit-ups, push-ups, running, jumping jacks, stretches, and continuing my training with Sophia who also sparred with me. The first couple times she got me down but I've been progressing rather well and now I pin her down most of the time. So I spar with Jax.
After a year I want to proudly tell y'all that I am now the packs trainer!
I know, time flies by.
Lately we've been going around and training packs who are too weak to defend themselves or simply just don't know how. Everyone specifically wants me to come train them and so word doesn't get out to my ex pack about me, I go by the name Jay.
I'm still rocking my golden hair but I went through a little change. My body is more toned, I'm more skilled, and confident. My relationships with the Knight family has improved drastically. We're thick as thieves.
My abilities are; yes I said abilities, plural. As you know the first one I discovered was speed and my new and now favorite is telekinesis; But for some odd reason it also let's me control nature. Jax says it's because all of my most painful moments happened in the forest so it bonded with my abilities and gave me the gift to control nature.
The rogue population continues to grow so Jax, Martin, and Levi have tightened the reigns on us girls. We can't stay out past 9 if we're not with the boys, and definitely no cussing but me and Georgie ignore that rule, and you all know no glaring or eye rolling at elders unless we're ready for a fight.
Georgie also completed her training we spar all the time which results in me pinning her down each time but she does put up a good fight. Ginger is now 7 and smarter than ever, also the biggest smart ass and daddy's girl there is. What ever she asks for she gets. All she has to do is say 'Please daddy' or 'Please' to who ever and they're under her command.
The boys are still the boys, they haven't found their mates yet not like they're complaining because they fuck anything with a vagina, and a pulse. The only decent one who decided to wait for their mate is Sam. He's the smart, and reasonable one in our group. He reasons with us when we fight, argue, and when we're about to make a rash decision.
When it comes to my mate I occasionally have the pains of him sleeping with someone since we are true mates and that mark does little for them. Every time it happens everyone either shakes or growls in anger. They can't do anything though because I won't let them. That'll cause problems that won't end well.
Even though it's been happening since I was 16 the pain never dulled down. Amaris is happy with our new lifestyle but every time we feel the pain of him sleeping with someone else and she's angry until the next day. She says his wolf still wants us and so does Malachi but I find that hard to believe. If he did he wouldn't have marked someone and would have been out looking for us.
"Give them back!" I yelled chasing him all over the living room. He jumped over the black leather foot stool, I was on the other side reaching over.
"Haha never!" He laughed taking a handful of my gummy bears and chewing them in my face. This only fueled my anger so I launched myself on his chest making him crash to the floor. He fell on his back and groaned before he flipped us over so he was on top. He wrapped my arms around me, making me hug myself.
"Agh! Stop!" I yelled between laughs. He laughed and wrapped them tighter around me.
"Let go or I'll call triple trouble." I threatened. He narrowed his eyes at me.
"You wouldn't." He said in disbelief and I smirked. Triple trouble is a group of the twins, and Ginger. She's the sheriff and they're her back up and they come save who ever calls them. I usually play the victim; and after I file my complaint justice is served!
"TRIPLE TROUBLE!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. Soon I heard 3 pairs of footsteps run into the living room where I was pinned down. Kendall looked down at me with wide eyes before he was tackled to the ground by Ginger.
"Max and Sam pin em'!" She yelled hopping off him to let the twins pin his arms down while he thrashed around.
"Get. Off. Of. Me." He kicked. I laughed and glanced at Ginger before we grinned at each other evilly and tickled him all over. He laughed loudly while squirming under the twins tight hold. We then joined in with his laughter and continued to tickle him. When we sobered I playfully glared at him.
"What seems to be the problem here Mrs?" Ginger asked in her fake deep sheriffs voice, we all chuckled playing into her Wild West fantasy; I cleared my throat and put on my best accusatory face,
"He touched my gummy bears!" I accused pointing to him. They all gasped,
"You didn't." Max said in mock disbelief touching his heart with his free hand. I chuckled,
"I did, and they were Good!" Kendall yelled with an evil chuckle.
"What should his punishment be ma'am?" Ginger asked.
"$2.00 for my gummy bears and to hug himself." I said crossing my arms over my chest. They nodded before Max wrapped Kendall's left arm over his chest diagonally and Sam did the same with his right arm. I dug in his pocket and took out $5 from his wallet and walked away while Ginger tickled him again.
"You'll...haha p-pay for t-this!" He laughed, supposedly threatening me but I just laughed and walked to the kitchen where Jax was sitting at the table eating a donut and drinking a cup of coffee. He looked like one of those cliche cops from the movies. I laughed out loud at this thought. He peered up at me with a confused look,
"What's got you laughing besides the fact that you called triple trouble on one of my sons." He asked with a chuckle. I just shrugged my shoulders before walking over to the refrigerator.
"Jadah you should know that the rogue sightings are becoming more and more frequent and more packs packs have calling and requesting your assistance.
Only problem is, we can't train them all." He said honestly looking away from his newspaper, I shut the refrigerator door after grabbing an apple, and walked over to where he was sitting.
I became like his second beta and he would always fill me in on what was going on with our pack or another one, specifically for training.
"Okay what packs?" I asked him, and he pulled out a piece of paper full of pack names. I took a bite out of my apple before going over the names.
"I see none coming from near our area. Just out of town packs." I stated thoughtfully, chomping on my apple.
"Yes I know but it won't be long before the rogues hit the SilverMist pack." He said. I growled at the name before I took deep calming breaths. That's considered very disrespectful to talk and growl at an elder especially my father and Alpha.
"Calm down." He said sternly.
"I'm calm now." I said taking one last deep breath before looking at him, "I highly doubt the rogues will hit the strongest pack in the world so if they did hit the SilverMist pack would we have to help them?" I asked partly happy to rub my rebranding in their faces but the other half of me is itching with want to kick all of their asses before letting the rogues get them.
He looked me in the eyes before nodding. I immediately hopped up from my seat and looked down at the names on the piece of paper.
"Well then let's pay a visit to the PurpleViper pack before they call." I said running out the kitchen, while Jax chuckled.
"EVERYONE PACK UP WE'RE GOING ON ANOTHER TRIP!" I yelled running to my room laughing at the groans I heard.
While we're away I hope that the rogues would avoid the SilverMist so I didn't have to see them nor hear about any blood shed but if it does come to that which it most likely will.
They'll regret rejecting Jadah Love Knight.