âSandy,I,âLiesl shook her head in confusion as she looked at her sister who was posed with the ma,she had been marrying the day she got pregnant with Merlinâs baby.âWhatâs going on?â
âI hate them.âSandy said as tears started to form.âMerlin,Trent,Torrie.Since you put the restraining order on us and Isaias took over the company,they have nothing to do but sit in their house and be mean.Merlin was bad enough with his neat freak tendencies and the way he loses his mind if you drop a single sock on the floor.Holy shit heâs so anal retentive.Not to mention the fact he doesnât have sex.Ever.I donât think he even jerks off.How did you do it?â
Liesl watched in disbelief as Roddy rubbed her back as if consoling her.She looked to Janka,âdid I step into the twilight zone?Roddy what are you doing here?With her?â
âI love her,Liesl.I always have.I always will.âRoddy said sadly.âOurs is not a conventional kind of love,Liesl but I adore her,âhe smiled down at Sandy with a gentle expression.
âShe fucked someone else on your wedding day.A man she blackmailed for a year to keep fucking her over and over.â
âWhat?âSandy frowned at Jankaâs comment.âI never blackmailed anyone.âShe looked to Liesl,âwhat is she talking about?â
âMerlin gave me a story about how you blew him in the bathroom at Momâs party and when he realized he was making a mistake,you told him if he didnât finish the job and fuck you right there,you were going to come downstairs and tell everyone you knew where his freckle was.â
âOkay,yeah,âshe made a face,âthe day of the party I did help him get the ice cream off his pants and one thing led to another and his cock was in my mouth.âShe clearly had no problems with her actions as she spoke matter-of-factly,âI mean I was brushing his pants down and he got harder than a rock.I teased him a bit,blew him and then he was going to walk out and leave me hanging.I told him if he got to come,he either returned the favor and ate me out or he fucked me.He fucked me.I was good with a one and done.â
Janka spoke up,âhe said you blackmailed him for months.â
âI didnât blackmail anyone.â
âThey had meetings with the board of directors because you were extorting Merlin to keep the affair going.They told him to do whatever it took to keep your mouth shut.âLiesl commented seriously.
Sandy stomped her foot,âyou know what?Fine.I wanted him and I knew I could have him.He stared at my boobs all the time.My ass too.I used to catch him staring and he would mock me and say things like,if I didnât want to be ogled,I wouldnât dress like I did and I knew he wanted it.The day at Momâs party was the first time either of us gave in but whenever your back was turned,he wanted in my pussy.â
âOkay!âRoddy squeezed her arm.âI said I would come here and help you talk to your sister but if youâre going to go haywire,Sandy,Iâm going home.â
âThe first time I had sex with Merlin,yes,I told him if he didnât finish what he started and left me wet and horny in the bathroom,I was going to go downstairs and tell you I blew him with his fists in my hair while he railed my face.â
âSandy!âRoddy hissed.âPlease.â
âBut every single time after,it was Merlin,calling me,texting me,emailing me.He came to me at the wedding,Liesl.Snuck into my dressing room.I told him he shouldnât be there,and he was there.I got caught up in the wickedness of it all,and well,âshe turned her face away,âI might have been more than a little excited to take something from you.â
âSandy,you demanded my engagement ring,my house,you harassed me for months!â
âI know!âshe shrieked.
âWhy?Why are you always trying to make me miserable?â
âI donât know.âSandy grimaced.âIf you figure it out,tell me because Iâve spent thousands and thousands of dollars in therapy over the last seven years to figure out why it is I derive such infinite pleasure in making you cry.I donât know why Iâm like I am but I am.The instant I have the ability to get under your skin,I feel the need to exploit it to the millionth degree.Christ,I even made a pass at Isaias and heâs the furthest thing from attractive to me I can think of yet,the minute I saw how upset he was over Merlin and Trent,I wanted to take him from you too.â
âSandy,youâre unhinged,âJanka said dryly,leaning against the counter.âYou know this right?â
âYes.I do.I know I have a problem and everything in my life centers around Liesl.â
âWhy canât you leave me alone?âLiesl whispered.
âIâm going to.â
âYeah,right.â
She spoke quietly.âYour act of cutting me off for a month really helped and I needed the space,Liesl.The first two weeks were hard but then I filled my days with therapy and talking to Roddy.I realize,Liesl,for my own sanity,I need to be as far away from you as possible.Youâre bad for my mental health,Liesl.â
âYou make it sound like sheâs the problem.âJanka hissed angrily,âbut sheâs never done anything to you.â
âI know itâs not her,âSandy said quietly.âI know Mom wants you to do a dinner with me and Merlin at Grans on the weekend.I need you to do it.â
âWhat?Why?â
âShe needs to put on a show,âRoddy said quietly.âShe needs to make Merlin believe sheâs still obsessed with him and with you and making sure you two stay apart.âHe rubbed his head,âweâre leaving the country.I have a job offer in London,England.Iâm taking it.Sandy is coming with me.We feel strongly if she is away from you,away from the triggers which make her hyper focused on making you react to her,then she can heal and get to the root of whatever this mental illness is.We canât do it here.Your family will never give her the help she needs.They all like to wash their hands of her because sheâs difficult.â
âDifficult?âSandy gave a sad sniff and leaned her head on his shoulder.âYou used to make it sound like a good quality,Roddy.â
âI like you provocative,not difficult,love.âHe teased her and kissed her temple.
She looked to Liesl sadly,âIt pissed me off.Everyone was accusing me of being the worst,so I was the worst.Gran told Mom I was such a mean-spirited bitch Iâd probably steal your wedding ring right off your finger,so I demanded the engagement ring.Auntie Maureen said I was the kind of person to fuck someoneâs husband in the wifeâs home and then take over the house for myself,so I demanded the house.I gave them all what they wanted.Theyâve hated me since I was small.They all treated me like I was a demon.I gave them what they wanted.âSandy sighed loudly,âlook,Iâm not proud of it but it is what it is.One part of my brain knows youâre my sister.I love you.I feel empty inside when I donât see you.The other half of my brain wants to know how far I can push you and make you cry before I feel satisfied.âShe looked away,âIâm sorry Liesl.For what itâs worth,I know Iâm sick,but I didnât know how to fix it until you cut me off.It seems being away from you is the best plan.â
âWhat do you want me to do?â
âI had to report my passport stolen because he locked it up and my new one wonât be ready until Saturday afternoon.I plan on being on the Sunday night flight.I need to get out of the country before he realizes I flew the coop.Agree to the dinner.Iâll pick a fight with Merlin.Heâll leave.Iâll say Iâm staying at Momâs,but Iâll be leaving with Roddy on the eight oâclock flight.â
âI thought you loved him.â
âI do.âSandy said quietly.âI just love Roddy more.s who I want to be with.He accepts all of me,even this crazy part.Heâs going to take me away to help me heal.Please.Say youâll help.â