She was pregnant.At least according to the three tests Elsie and Janka made her take.As she sat in Fredâs kitchen while Meredith went over all the options she would have,her big brother was rubbing her shoulders reassuringly.
âYou need to start by telling Isaias.â
âHeâs away.â
âI know but call him.âFred spoke in a tone Liesl knew he used to try to soothe Winnie when she was having a temper tantrum.
âFred,he was agitated when I told him I had fallen in love with him over the phone.How the hell do you think heâs going to react to find out Iâm pregnant over the phone?Heâs going to leave me.âShe blurted the words out in a panic.âHeâs never going to want to be with me.Heâs going to think I tricked him or trapped him.â
âLiesl,he loves you.â
âYes,but Iâm the first person he ever said the words to.Heâs not going to be as receptive to a kid!âshe started to stand up,but Fred pushed her back down in the chair.
âYou donât have to tell him,âMeredith tossed out.âYou could just go to the clinic,get it taken care of and nobody will be the wiser.â
âIâll be the wiser!âshe almost shrieked at Meredith.âI canât.I canât make such a decision without his input.Iâm such a fool.â
âItâs not the end of the world,âFred patted her shoulders,pressing a kiss to the top of her head.âWinnie was the best accident to ever happen to us.â
âYou and Meredith were married for three years before you got pregnant.Iâve been with him three months.Not even three months.âShe felt her bottom lip trembling at the way she was feeling.âWhat if he breaks up with me?â
âAre you more upset about being pregnant or potentially losing Isaias?â
She glared at Meredith for the question,âboth are equally disturbing Meredith.â
âSo,you donât want to be pregnant?â
As her sister-in-law posed the question bluntly,she felt a flurry of feeling in her chest and she looked up with tears in her eyes,âI think I really do.â
âYou think?âMeredith asked boldly.
She knew Meredith wasnât trying to be cruel.She was forcing her to say aloud what her sister-in-law knew already.She was already in love with the child she was going to have.âI know I do,âshe whispered and then put her hands on her belly.âIâm having a baby.â
âHow far along are you?â
âWhat?I donât know?â
âWhich test did you do?You can get the test which tells you how many weeks you are.I mean itâs a rough estimate but based on your HCG levels it tells you.â
âElsie just brought the tests which had pink crosses on them.â
âFred,go to the store and get the fancy tests.âMeredith ordered him.
âWhy do I have to go?â
âBecause your sister needs you to go.â
âShe needs me to hug her.You go.â
âNo.You stress her out with your yakking about calling Isaias.Get out,âMeredith waved him off.
âNo.Buying pregnancy tests is as bad as buying your tampons.Iâm not doing it.â
âActually,âshe whispered,âI think I want to go home.â
âYou want to go back home?â
âI do.âShe sniffed.âIâll stop at the pharmacy on my way and get the test Meredith said but I want to go home and paint.I need to paint.â
âIâll drive you home.âFred helped her up.He tilted her chin,âno matter what happens,weâre here for you.Whether you do this as a couple with Isaias or on your own as a single mom,though I personally think heâll be all in,weâve got your back,baby girl.I love you.â
She felt the tears streaming as her brother hugged her tight and she reciprocated his hug.She rested her cheek to his chest.âI love you too.â
He held her hand the entire drive home and he walked her straight to the door of Isaiasâhouse.She clutched the brown bag containing the advanced pregnancy test which Meredith had suggested and she closed the door as Fred walked away.She made her way up to the bathroom and for the fourth time that day,peed on a stick.
Three minutes later she stared at the stick.Nine to ten weeks.It had to have been when they were in New York.Not the gala over a month ago but four weeks before when theyâd had their first real date.She shoved the test to the bottom of the trash bin and sat on the edge of the toilet and contemplated her choices.
She could call Isaias but still felt strongly this was something she wanted to tell him in person.She collected herself and made her way to the sunroom.She collected her paints and noted the tarp and box of edible paints.She hoped she could get the opportunity to use them with him.She wiped a wayward tear as she forced the thought of Isaias away.
She stood in front of a blank canvas and began sketching.
Several hours later she stretched and then frowned as she was certain she heard footsteps on the stairs and then the front door closing.She looked at her phone and noted the time was coming on five.Where had the day gone?
âHello?âshe called out,wondering who had closed the door.
She went to the front door and opened it and looked out but didnât note anyone out there other than Malloryâs teamâs vehicle at the bottom of the driveway.He waved up at her and she frowned.If anyone had come or gone of them would have seen.She listened and then took the stairs up to the bedroom.
She looked around and then paused as she noted the suitcase at the end of the bed.Isaiasâsuitcase.When had he come home?
âIsaias?âshe called his name and noted the bathroom door slightly ajar.She pushed it open and called his name again.She noted his toiletry bag on the counter and realized he must have been getting ready to shower.A towel flung onto the bench beside the shower confirmed her thought but then something else caught her eye.
She felt her heart clench.âIsaias?âshe walked to the counter and noted the pregnancy test she had tossed into the garbage bin now sitting on the edge of the counter.
She tore through the house looking for him,checking every room.Heâd left.She had heard the door closing when she was in the sunroom.Heâd seen the pregnancy test and had left.
âNo,no.âShe raced back to the sunroom and grabbed her cell phone and immediately called him.The call went straight to voice mail.
She sent him a text.âCall me please.â
She sat down on the floor and stared at her phone and waited for him to call.