You love me
And yet I am not yet loved
Because to be loved
Is to be vulnerable
And to let the love in.
I am peeling back the layers
Painfully.
And little by little
Letting my vulnerability out
It is a scary thing
Being vulnerable
When I don't entirely
Believe that you can be gentle with me
Trust in love
Is so much scarier
Than trust in gentleness.
This feels like faith
Trusting in something
I believe is there,
But cannot open my eyes to see.
09/13/24