I Fear

Before I dated you, I was scared to find a man and settle down. Now I'm scared I will never find a man or settle down. Partly, because I'm afraid that there are no good men left and no man better than you

But also, I don't know when, and I don't know how but, at some point I stopped feeling desirable. I stopped seeing myself as a catch.

I think part of me still believes that if I couldn't love you well enough, I'll never be able to love anybody well enough and that maybe my punishment for being unloving is to be unlovable

02/23