What-
The-
Actual-
Living-
Fuck?
I stare back at Emily for the second time today in pure shock. She can't be pregnant. Well she can be due to being sexually active but I really hope she's not pregnant. Wait- did he force himself on her?
" Emily please tell me he had your consent." I whisper not being able to raise my voice louder.
" He didn't force himself on me Ally. This is my own doing." she says while looking down in shame.
I inhale sharply as I try and get my thoughts together. If she's pregnant I will still support her as a friend but as a friend I can truthfully say that it isn't going to be easy trying to get a degree with a baby on the way especially when it has a douche for a dad.
" We don't know for sure yet. Until she does her business on that stick thingy we should all try to stay calm and not go and beat the living shit out of Ashton." Tyler states. I think he's trying to calm himself down more than he's trying to keep us from freaking out.
We nod in agreement before deciding that I'm the one who is going to fetch the pregnancy test from the store while Tyler keeps an eye over Emily until I'm back.
Can't say this is the first time I'm heading into a store to buy a pregnancy test. I feel no shame when the middle aged people throw me a displeasing look. As if they were angels when they were our age.
I look through a few isles before I finally find a pregnancy test. Someone clears their throat from behind me and I have to hold back a rude remark for being interrupted whilst holding a pregnancy test.
" Rough night?" a dark haired boy asks me as I turn around in the direction of his voice.
" Rough year." I comment with a sarcastic smile.
The guy chuckles before licking his bottom lip and staring at me with an intense stare.
" You have a good day." he greets before walking off.
Strange.
I shrug and continue on with my little mission by paying for the pregnancy test and driving back to the dorm.
When I enter the dorm I can clearly hear Emily emptying her stomach and by the sounds that are coming from Tyler's mouth he sure isn't pleased with her.
" Honey I'm home!"
I've always wanted to say that even though I just entered the dorm I stepped out of 20 minutes ago.
" Took you long enough." Tyler whines from the bathroom.
I open up the pink and off-white box that contains the pregnancy test. With one last shaking breath I enter through the bathroom door.
" Do your thing." Tyler urges Emily after a few minutes of her just staring at the pregnancy test in her hands.
When she looks up her eyes are filled up with more tears. I don't know how this girl has so much fluid in her body.
" W-what if I am pregnant? " she whimpers.
She's afraid that's clear. I would be too. Mom would definitely cut me off financially if I had to show up home with a baby attached to my body. I don't know how strict Emily's parents are. I know her sister had Tayla at a young age but from I've heard is that her parents didn't disown her or something. I know most families turn their backs once they find out about a pregnancy at such a young age. I just hope and pray that if Emily happens to be pregnant that her parents will still be there to support her.
" We'll still be here to support you through every step." Tyler admits and gives her a light squeeze on the shoulder.
Friends don't abandon friends when times get tough.
" O-okay lets do this." Emily breathes out before standing up from her sitting position.
" A little privacy. " she states after a minute or so of us just staring at her.
" Oh right -" I laugh awkwardly before moving both Tyler and I out of the bathroom.
We wait impatiently for Emily to finish. The atmosphere surrounding us is tense. The what if's are floating around in both our heads. Its unsettling to watch your friend go through something that probably could have been prevented if I just paid a little more attention and now there's nothing I can do to help her. All I can do is to be there for her.
" I'm done." Emily yells from inside the bathroom.
Here goes nothing.
Tyler gives me a worried look before allowing me to step into the bathroom. Emily is standing with the stick in her hand and it looks as if she's on the verge of fainting again.
" These 5 minutes are going to be the longest 5 minutes of my life." Emily breathes out shakily.
So we sit and wait. The three of us don't utter a word as we sit and stare at the stick that holds the answers to Emily's future. We look at each other as the seconds pass and then avert our gaze onto something else. I swear Tyler's eyes grow wider as the minutes pass by. Finally the long and dreadful 5 minutes are over.
" I can't look." Emily admits.
Heck I don't even want to look. The nerves are eating me up inside. I can't even begin to imagine how Emily is feeling.
" I don't want to look either." I quickly say when Emily's eyes land on me.
I know I'm supposed to be the supportive friend but this is too much. I don't want to hold Emily's future in my hands. Literally.
" Fine. I'll look." Tyler sighs making us all look at him in surprise.
He shrugs as he walks over and picks up the stick. Thank God it's one of those that covers the part where the urine is on.
Tyler gives us one last look before averting his eyes down onto the stick. I suck in my breath as his eyes scan over the little screen. I'm pretty sure he knows how to read a pregnancy test. He furrows his eyebrows which results to me gulping from being anxious. When he looks back up at us I can't read his eyes. He's freaking me out now.
" It's negative." he finally states.
It feels as if I just moved a mountain off from my back once I'm able to breath again. Emily has to lean forward to catch her breath. Thank God she's not pregnant.
" I'm going on the pill." Is the first thing Emily says once she stands up to her full length.
We laugh at her confession but nonetheless nod along in agreement. I don't want to go through another episode like this.
I wonder why she hasn't gone on the pill before? I'm pretty sure this wasn't her first time being sexually active with a guy.
At least she learned her lesson.
" I was lowkey starting to think of baby names." Emily chuckles as the three of us walk out of the small bathroom that all of the sudden smells horrible due to Emily's few incidents. The nerves probably blocked out our ability to smell and now that we aren't filled up with nerves we can actually smell the disgusting scent that is Emily's lunch.
" Emily!" I scold her once hearing the words leave her mouth. We just got over a nerve wrecking maybe baby phase and she was thinking of baby names.
" Speaking of names...I found you guys a name." she smirks.
She found us a name? Do I even want to know?
" What do you mean?" Tyler questions from beside me.
Oh I know exactly what she means.
" A shipname." she shrugs.
Of course. I never doubted her. I just pray she drops the subject. Oh who am I kidding? It's Emily we're talking about.
" What's a ship name? " Tyler asks completely confused.
He can't be serious right?
" It's like a couple name people give you. Usually both your names combined to form another name. A shipname." Emily babbles on while I still pray that the earth can just swallow me.
" Tally." Emily whispers for extra effect.
I honstley wasn't expecting that.
Tally.
It does have a good ring to it- no this is wrong.
" I like it. " Tyler admits while throwing a quick wink in my direction.
From the look on Emily's face I know she's already planning my babyshower. She's probably done with planning my wedding after finding out about the kiss on Halloween.
We continue with light chatter about our holiday plans and the busy schedules we have coming up. After an hour or so a knock comes from the door and Tyler volunteers to answer the door.
" Uh Ally-"
I look over at Tyler in confusion as he beckons me to come over. Rolling my eyes I get up from my bed and walk over to where Tyler is standing by the door. I can't see over his tall frame who it is but once I move past him my breath gets stuck in my throat.
Oh hell no.
In front of me, with a broad smile, stands my dad. That's not even the worst part. Next to him with a terrified expression stands Ashton. I don't know who to beat up first.
" You've got guts." I say to a gulping Ashton. He should have known that I would be here in my own dorm where Emily is my roommate. He's probably terrified from the pissed off Tyler stranding just a little behind me.
I look over to my slightly less happy dad from when I first laid eyes on him and sigh. He knows me well enough to know I'm beyond pissed. I really do wonder why my parents always show up at my dorm and disappear once I'm home. Strange people.
" Sweetheart -" dad starts but I cut him off by raising my hand.
I avert my gaze back on Ashton. I can't help the glare that makes its way on my face as my eyes zoom in on his wide ones.
" I'll be with you in a minute." I say through gritted teeth before turning around to Tyler who looks at Ashton with pure hate.
" Be nice." I warn before heading out of the door.
Only reason why I warned Tyler is because I don't want to miss any of the action. I've been waiting the entire day for this to happen. Once I'm out of the dorm with dad short on my tail I can hear Ashton struggling against Tyler's grip. He better not do anything as long as I'm gone.
" I've missed you." dad admits once we step out of the building.
" You have a funny way of showing it." I reply sarcastically.
Being sarcastic is the only way I can cope with the situation I'm currently in. I don't mean to be sarcastic but sometimes it feels like my only escape. I'm being disrespectful but also in such a way that it's not that disrespectful.
" I tried meeting up with you after Thanksgiving." dad states with an unhappy look on his face.
" I was busy." I deadpan.
I think back to when mom announced that dad is back in town and that he wants to meet up with me but I had zero interest. I still have zero interest in seeing him now but he kind of forced me into seeing him.
" I was heartbroken when your mom told me you weren't coming to see me." he says while holding a hand over his heart.
" I was heartbroken when I showed up at the house and you weren't there." I fire back.
Dad looks a little taken back by my words but he nods his head in understanding.
" I can see why you are upset with me Allison. I just wish you can understand -"
" There is this thing called a smartphone you know. It's used to stay in contact with friends and family. It's really cool. You should think about investing in one so that you can explain to me why you are screwing up our relationship by abandoning me for future references. " there I go with the sarcasm again.
" I didn't abandon you. " dad argues.
" Right. You just packed your bags and left the house for weeks because that's what any normal parent does. " I bite back.
Dad doesn't seem to like the harsh words as I can see his cheeks starting to heat up.
" I was going through a divorce Allison! With Maddie's death and now the divorce with your mother... I just needed a break to clear my head. "
I'm quiet by the time he finishes. Anger boils up inside of me with every word that leaves his mouth. He wants me to feel sorry for him? Yeah right. I'd rather boil one grain of rice at a time.
" Did it ever cross your mind how your actions were affecting me? Your own flesh and blood. Did you ever just stop and think that what you are doing now is going to be the reason why you push me away? Did you daddy?" my voice breaks at the end and I can feel my eyes swell up.
I can't be strong and tough in front of my dad. He's not my mother. With my mother I put on a protective barrier but with my dad it's a different story.
" Sweetheart-" his voice is filled with pain after seeing the first tear slip down my cheeks.
" No- you didn't think. I know you care about me but you pushed me away when I needed my dad the most. I lost my sister, I lost my relationship with my mother and now I lost the only person I could rely on in my life." I state as the tears keep falling.
" You didn't lose me-"
" I lost you the day you stepped foot out of the house with your bags. " I whisper not looking him in the eye.
I don't hear anything from him. I'm not being harsh. I'm being realistic. How can I count on him knowing that he could just up and leave at any given time? I don't have that emotional strength for such an unstable relationship at the moment. I need more stability.
" Go home dad. There's nothing here for you." I whisper after a few minutes of complete silence.
Just as he is about to open his mouth I turn around and walk away from him. I stomp back into the building with a shaking body as I try and get my sobs under control.
That was the second hardest goodbye I had to say. The first would always be saying goodbye to my sister.
By the time I reach the dorm I have cleared my face from most tears.
Now it's time to deal with problem number two.
Ashton.
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Shoutout to mg_who for the cute shipname Tally. I know there were others who came forward with the same shipname but she was the first one â¤ï¸ I loved all the others but Tally just has a nice flow going with it.
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