Lara's POV
When I wake up it was about 5am. I had gotten about four hours of sleep last night.
Carter was no longer by my side. Me and Carter had gotten quite close since I got here. I've been very open with him about all the troubles I've had and he's very understanding about it.
I got out of bed and made my bed. I head over to my window chair. I wrap my blanket around me and go on my laptop.
I never told my dad about wanting to go to college because I know he'll help me but I don't want to leave Alannah home. She's s adjusted to our new homes but I cannot leave her for too long. So most mornings when I wake up I do some studying and reading.
About half six I put my laptop away and watched the sunrise. I tend to watch the sunrise most mornings when I'm awake.
After watching the sun rise I head in to mine and Alannah's joint bathroom. I have a shower.
After my shower I blow dry and straighten my hair. After I did my hair I got dressed. I put on my green high waisted bikini, but obviously to go for breakfast I can't go down in a bikini. I put on some light blue denim shorts.
Someone knocks on the door and I have a feeling it's a maid asking what I want for breakfast. I open the door to see a maid standing there.
"Bom Dia miss Fernandez." She says smiling.
"Bom Dia Ana." I say which is good morning in Portuguese.
"O que posso trazer para o café da manhã?" (What can I get you for breakfast) she says smiling kindly.
"Eu e Alannah vamos comer uma tigela de açaà com granola, por favor." (me and Alannah will have and Acai bowl with granola please) I say and she nods and smiles.
"Obrigado." I say and she says a quick bye before leaving.
I fold up my throw blanket and put my laptop on my vanity unit. I then head out of my room, closing the door behind me.
I walk to Carter's room which is a bit away. I peek open the door to see him still fast to sleep. I roll my eyes at the lazy boy infront of me.
I step into his room and close the door behind me. I slowly wander over to his bed.
I click my fingers in front of his face but he doesn't even flinch. I take a few steps back before then diving on him causing him to jolt up.
"Lara what the hell I was sleeping." He says and rolls on to his side.
"Wait. That didn't even hurt? I just dived on you what the hell?" I say and he sighs and sits up.
"Lara, darling, you arent even heavy, I've lifted heavier in the gym." He says and I roll my eyes.
I pull the comforter back and climb into bed beside him.
"You look nice, where are you going?" He asks as I put my head on the chest.
"Me and Alannah are probably going to have a pool day." I say and he nods.
"How well did you sleep last night?" He asks when I finish yawning.
"I had about four hours sleep." I say and he nods. Which is pretty good in my books.
"That's good for you." He says and I nod, resting my head on his chest.
At about 8am we crawl out of bed. I say goodbye to Carter then head to Alannah's room where I then wake her up.
We sat there for about half an hour talking about what swimming costume Alannah should wear swimming today.
We head into the dinning room and like every morning, we were waiting for Carter.
Carter walks into the dinning room and sits on the other side of Alannah and kisses her cheek. Then we start breakfast.
After breakfast the men head to their office.
Alananh goes and plays in her play room whilst I help Arabella and Claudia take in the dishes. I finish my coffee just talking with them in the kitchen.
After I finished my coffee I found Alannah in her playroom and took her up to her room. She brushes her teeth with my help and I then help her wash her face.
I get her dressed into her swimming costume and then put on a yellow summer dress over the top.
We make her bed and clear up her mess from her stuffed animals. We make her room a little more presentable.
We spent most of the morning in her toy room.
When I say the males of this house give into her, they really give into her. Anything and everything she wants they get for her. Claudia and Arabella aren't as bad but Marco, Carter and Dad are awful. No matter how many times I tell them not to give into her demands they do it every time. She knows exactly how to get away with it as well.
She's literally the princess of the house, she gets away with everything. I don't want her to be spoilt and get everything she wants. But everytime I tell the guys that its like it goes in one ear out the other.
She could literally get away with murder. Well I suppose anyone in this house could but that's beside the point.
I am thankful for them though. They treat her how she needs to be treated and they're all like father figures to her.
After lunch my hair went into a messy bun and me and Alannah went to the pool. I jumped into the pool infront of Alannah while she just sat there with her legs dipped in.
She splashes her legs around uncertain on if she wanted to come in or not. I put my arms out for her which she then took. I held her whilst walking around the water trying to get used to it. The pool wasn't that deep I could just about stand in it but the further down the pool you go, the deeper it gets. I stay in the part where I can clearly stand.
Alannah starts to get used to it and leans back getting all her hair wet as she basically floats on the water with me supporting her. I spin her around as she lies there causing her to laugh.
"Here you are." Carter says running to us and handing me a rubber ring and some arm bands for Alannah.
He blows them up as Alannah sits by the side of the pool waiting patiently for him. She stands up and he helps her put the rubber ring on. He then puts the arm bands on her and she just jumps in the water.
I quickly help her resurface and she quickly rubs her eyes. I sit her back on the side of the pool.
"Hey you're okay." I say wiping away one of her tears.
"I thought I was going to drown." She says and I nod and hug her. Carter wraps her towel around her as she sits there. I sit next to her on one side and Carter sits on the other side.
Carter had to leave after a little while to go to a meeting. Alannah climbed into my lap and put her head into the crook of my neck. It didnt take much longer after that till she fell asleep.
I gently stood up and walked over to a sun lounger where I sat down and cuddled with Alannah whilst she was asleep.
Alannah has gotten quite independent recently. She has less and less nightmares. She does tend to come and sleep with me but most of the times it's not about her nightmares.
I can't even remember the last time Alannah fell asleep in my arms. She tends to go to sleep in her own bed now. She's going to be four next week and it drives me mad to think I've been looking after Alannah for four years. The time has flown by.
I'm literally nearly twenty, that's so mad. I cannot believe that I am nearly twenty, I feel quite old.
But being nineteen and having a nearly four year old it blows my mind on how I've done it. So many people wouldn't of even stepped up. I don't even know why I did. I was going through so much at the time and it shocks me I stepped up. But I wouldn't change if for the world, Alannah is literally my life now. Everything revolves around her, as long as shes happy I am happy.
But when you have a baby well technically a toddler now. Whether you gave birth to them or not, when you cuddle them in your arms it is the most beautiful and happiest moment. You could be having the worst day and all you need is a hug off of your child ans it feels like things are starting go get better.
I enjoyed about an hour of silence just lying there with Alannah just watching her sleep and also admiring the garden.
After the hour I woke Alannah up to apply suncream to her because I completely forgot.
She just sat at the foot of the lounger day dreaming for about five minutes. You could tell she had just woken up. We then just played in the pool for a while until Dad came to the back door and asking me to come with him.
I got out of the pool with Alannah. I wrapped her towel around her and sat her down next to Claudia and Arabella. "I'll be back in a moment." I say and she nods. I roughly dry myself off and put my shorts back on and then kiss Alannahs forehead before heading to dads office.
"Yeah come in." Marco shouts after I knock the office door.
I open the door to see both my Dad and Marco.
"What did you need to talk about?" I ask and Marco gestures for me to sit down.
I sit down and look between them both whilst they just exchange looks which was clearly making me worried.
"What's happened?" I ask and dad sighs and looks at me.
"Every year when we have this ball. We have our Allies and well big businesses that we've done buisness with." He says and I furrow my eyebrows.
"Okay so?" I ask confused. I have no clue why they're telling me this.
Dad was just stood there looking like he was trying to find the words. Marco looked from his watch to my dad then sighed.
"We had to invite Jax." He says my eyes widen.
"Jax? My Jax?. Jax from New York Jax?" I ask and they nod.
"Why? I can't see him." I say and Dad sighs.
"We're going to be late." Marco says ans Dad sighs and stands up.
"We had to amor." He says and kisses my forehead before him and Marco leave.
I spent the rest of the evening by the pool with Alannah, well until dinner really.
I was feeling quite annoyed. They know I don't want to even talk about him, nevermind be in the same room as him.
Me and Alannah were sat in the dining room after a long day in the garden. It felt quite awkward, no one was really talking. Well except for Carter and Alannah, but no one else was.
Carter stands up randomly and picks Alannah up and they run put of there. Now the dining room was completely silent.
"Did you have a nice day today?" My dad finally asks and I sigh. I take a sip out of my glass and head out of the room.
I head up to my room and start pacing around when someone knocks on the door. I turn around to see my dad stood there.
"Go away." I say and he sighs.
"Amor." He says when I head into my closet to get changed. I shut the door behind me and hear my dad sigh.
"I'm sorry sweetheart but we had to. So please just stop ignoring me." He says as I get into my pyjamas. I take my hair out of its messy bun and let it flow around my shoulders. I step out of my closet and wrap my cardigan around me.
"Look dad I'm grateful for everything you've done for me and Alannah. But we actually physically got hurt by Jax for you guys. I don't want to talk to him. Don't you understand that? Alannah was getting over her nightmares before they got us. Luckily I convinced Jax to take her home. I was down there for days and if I couldn't sleep before, I sure as hell can't sleep now. That's all because you guys stole from them. We have to live with the consequences, us not you. You got the best part of it right? But no don't worry about it as long as your buisness is okay." I say sighing.
"I can un invite them if you want? I don't think Marco will want it but if he scares you that bad then I won't force you to attend." He says and I sigh.
"Just give me time to breath." I say and he nods and heads out of the room.
I sit down on my window chair and watch Carter spin Alannah around in the garden.
After letting them play for long enough I went downstairs and called for Alannah as it was her bed time. She happily ran and jumped into my arms.
"Goodnight Alannah." Carter says kissing Alannah's forehead.
We head to the living room to see our parents sat there chatting and drinking wine.
"We came to say goodnight." I say and they turn around.
Dad stands up and kisses both of our foreheads and wishes us a Goodnight like the rest of them.
After giving Alannah a bath I get her into bed and hold her hand till she falls to sleep.
Once she was asleep I tuck her in again and kiss her forehead.
"I love you bub." I say before heading into my room.
I head into my room to see Carter sat there on my bed looking at me as I walked through the door.
"What's up?" I ask sitting at my vanity unit.
"Nothing nothing, I just heard your dad told you." He says and I sigh.
"So you knew?" I ask and he nods.
"But think about it this way." He says sitting on my bed with me.
"He claimed he loved you. How hard do you think it'll be for him to see you walk down those stairs looking absolutely phenomenal. Then you can act maturely about the situation like sort of don't talk to him. If he addresses you, you just ignore him." He says and I nod.
I walk into the bathroom and brush my teeth and then tie my hair back into a messy bun. I go into my room to see Carter sat exactly where I left him.
"I'll agree to it. But just don't expect me to talk to him." I say and he chuckles and nods.
"That's perfectly fine." He says and I nod and lie down beside him.