Iâm in my new room, tucking panties into a drawer when Austin walks in, freezing in place as his gaze zeroes in on the black lace in my hands. I watch as his Adamâs apple bobs, his thick swallow audible in the small room.
âCan I help you?â I raise a brow, feigning strength and annoyance, even though my stomach is all a flutter.
Austin clears his throat as his feet bring him deeper into the room, his proximity making me even more nervous.
âYes. I wanted to talk to you about some changes. As I mentioned before, I wasnât sure how Iâd handle Jack and Pen under the same roof.â He rubs at his stubble, breathing audibly through his nose. âWell, as you saw in the game room, it isnât going well.â
âIs that why weâve moved out into one of the cabins on the property?â
âYes.â A shudder washes over him before he continues. âThat house⦠I donât even want to know whatâs happened or whatâs going to happen in it. Thatâs why Iâm having a home built about ten acres west of the main house, but weâll be staying here in the meantime.â
Iâm nodding, wondering where I fit in. âOkay. Does this mean you still want me to stay on?â
âThatâs what I wanted to talk to you about. I asked you earlier today if you could stay on, and you said youâd think about it, but I need to know.â Austin pins me with an intense stare I canât discern. âThings are clearly changing, which means Iâll be cutting your checks instead of Jack. The terms under which my brother hired you will no longer apply and thereâll be changes to the conditions surrounding your employment.â
Itâs my turn to swallow back the lump in my throat. The way he said that last word has me feeling all kinds of filthy. âOkay. Have my duties changed?â
His face transforms as his eyes fill with heat, but he quickly blinks it away. âNo. Thatâs not it.â He leans back on the dresser and crosses his arms in front of his broad chest, the new stance letting me perv on his exposed forearms.
Jesus. Heâs rolled back his button-up shirtâsomething he never doesâthe change letting me see all the beautiful art he has tracing his bronzed flesh. The intricate designs are all black lines apart from the various pops of green. So. Damn. Sexy.
âAnaya, I know my brother hired you, but Iâd like to ask you to stay on with me as your direct boss. Iâll be the one paying you. The one giving you orders.â
My knees wobble and my core clenches. God. Why did that sound so hot?
âYes, sir.â I hear it. The shake in my voice, and apparently, so does Austin.
He pushes off the dresser and walks toward me, only stopping once his body is a mere breath from mine. âIs that something you like, Anaya? Taking orders?â
My face heats and I look away, unable to withstand the heat in his eyes. Itâs like molten lava, searing a path wherever they land, threatening to melt me in place.
âAnswer me, Monroe.â The pad of his fingers press against my jaw line, coaxing my head to turn toward his.
I blink, letting my eyes settle onto a sliver of his neck because I canât muster enough courage to do more. âMonroe. Why do you keep calling me that?â
His hand leaves my chin, the backs of his fingers caressing my cheek, back and forth. âBecause thatâs what you are. My blue-eyed Monroe, with your blonde hair, endless curves, and bee-stung lips. Youâre every manâs weakness.â
My eyes shoot up to his and I see the surprise in his face, like he hadnât expected to tell me all that.
But like a gauntlet being thrown down, he clears his throat and steps back; the moment shattering whatever heat thereâd been between us. âItâs late. I shouldnât be in here.â
He turns and heads toward the door, speaking without turning back. âLet me know if youâre not okay with the new terms. Iâll give you two weeks to decide.â
And just like that, heâs gone, leaving me a shaky mess of emotions with a massive need to relieve the deep ache between my thighs.
Itâs been ages since Iâve pleasured myself, and the thought of doing it here and now, a door down from his, only gets me wetter.
Shaking my head, I walk toward the door and close it, trying to push out all my sinful thoughts along with it.
Pressing my back to the door, I let myself slide down, groaning as my butt hits the ground.
Iâm a married woman and heâs a newly widowed man. What in the hell is wrong with me?
Austin
Iâve just closed my bedroom door when my phone lights up. Looking down, I see the number to William from WRATH securities flashing across the screen. Without hesitation, I click the line open and press the phone to my ear. âTalk to me.â
âHello to you too.â Thereâs a smile in his voice, which hopefully means good news.
âHello, William. There, Iâve greeted you. Is that enough or should I send you flowers and chocolates too? Maybe pen you a sonnet while Iâm at it.â
Laughter booms through the receiver. âSo damn dramatic. Donât get your panties in a wad.â
âThey arenât. Do you have anything for me, or did you just want to hear my masculine voiceâlet it remind you of what a real man sounds like?â
âHar. Har. Keep talking and I wonât tell you about Anayaâs husband, Ray.â
With the mere mention of that manâs name, my breathing picks up and my cheek starts jumping like a recently acquired tic. âWilliam, you better start talking, or I swear Iâll pull my hand through this damn phone and rip the information right from your throat.â
More laughter ensues, making my patience wear thin and driving me to the brink of insanity. âOkay. So get this, heâs a model citizen. Clean as a whistle. Not even a damn speeding ticket. Mother Teresa wouldnât even come back this clean. Either heâs lived the life of a monk, or somethingâs not right.â
I feel my face scrunch at his words. How is that possible? âCan you send me a copy of his social and driverâs license?â
âAlready on it. You should have a copy of both in your inbox right now.â
I place him on speaker and pull up the email app on my phone. Finding Williamâs message, I tap it open and wait for the images to load.
Iâd pictured a million different scenarios in my head when it came to Anayaâs husband, but none of them were this.
The guy in the photo looks to be in his early to mid-forties, the date of birth corroborating my assumption. Anaya is into older men? I mean, Iâm older than her at thirty-three, but only by a decade and a year.
This guy, Ray, seems to have an extra ten years on top of that.
âAustin? You there, brother?â
âYeah, sorry. Itâs just sort of a shock.â
âWhat? That heâs a saint on paper?â
Of course he didnât catch the massive age gap between Anaya and Ray. Heâs only looking at it from a security standpoint. Which is what I should be doing too, isnât it?
I grunt out a sound, unwilling to come clean with my thoughts.
âYeah. But weâll get to the bottom of it. Itâs what we do. Itâs what we live for.â Williamâs too cheery tone has me sighing.
Truth be told, I wish I could be as happy as he is. And for fuckâs sake, I should be. Penelope is home and my children are safe. Iâm a lucky man.
But nothing I tell myself can shake this immense guilt I carry around my neck like a damn anchor, bringing me down and placing me in a perpetually bad mood. To make matters worse, I know Iâm not easy on Anaya.
She makes me feel extra messed up. I look at her and the feelings she elicits have me acting like a damn lecherous thief, stealing moments of joy that I have no business experiencing.
My thoughts drift back to how she looked in her roomâher full lips parting when I asked her if she liked taking orders. God. That made my dick so hard, itâs a miracle I didnât reach down and give it a squeeze right then and there.
âAustin? You there?â Williamâs voice cuts through the line and itâs then I realize Iâve mentally checked out for the last couple of minutes.
âYeah, sorry. Iâm here.â
âEverything okay? I mean, besides the current mystery and the fact that we still donât know what happened to el Jefe and his men.â
âSpeaking of which. Whatâs going on with that, any leads?â Distraction and avoidance are the name of the game. I donât understand whatâs going on in my head and Iâm definitely not ready to delve into that can of worms with William.
âWe havenât been able to get anything solid, but something Cárdenas said when we left his villa stuck out. I think he might have something to do with it. If so, then you can count yourself lucky. One less problem to deal with.â
âLucky my ass,â I scoff. âNothing that good comes free. One way or another, that man will come knockingâlike the grim reaper, collecting whatâs owed.â
âAmen to that.â William lets out a long sigh. âAnyway, thatâs all I have for now. Iâll keep you posted if I get anything else. Weâll talk soon.â
The line goes dead and Iâm both relieved to have his happy ass off the line but also angst ridden, wanting to know more of what they have on Ray. I have no doubt that their file has important details like where heâs at right this second.
As if it has a mind of its own, my hand clenches into a tight fist, the skin around my knuckles cracking from the stretch.
Thoughts of Anaya with another man have me vibrating, turning my vision red. What could she want with him? Heâs old enough to be her dad.
Against my better judgment, I open the bedroom door and step into the hall, unwilling to wait for answers. I need them now, and Itâs a good thing I know where to get them.