Confession

I think about death 99.9% of the time. And , yes I've cut and even thought about suicide, I even planned on doing it, but I know I won't do it. I'm scared that if I do God won't forgive me. I know, I know its wierd. But it's one of my biggest fears. Oh and I also have these weird, how can I say this... Um ... Thoughts on how to kill someone and how to cover it up because of all the crime shows that I watch, but I won't do it. I also think how it would feel if I shot someone. Again I wouldn't do anything to harm any being. I know this is weird but I make up scenes on how my first time will be.

Don't judge.