Chapter 160: Confession

I am only fourteen years old and am suicidal thanks to school mainly. I don't necessaraly hate myself, but I do hate most of the world...... My parents wouldn't hear about it if I talked to them about me being suicidal. They wouldn't understand if they did listen. They don't even understand my music! People tell me that I am annoying all the time and pick on me even when I don't talk to them. I am becoming kind of anti-sicial because of people like the one's that bully me. I am also weird. I like to listen to alternative metal and even though I am constanly angry at the world I can't help but find the best in situations. When people pick on me I don't say anything and when I do, all I can do is yell at them and then I just cry after I yell at them. I am not confident and people say that I am..... but I am only confident in other people......... I just want someone to talk to that can relate. I am even writing about my life right now on wattpad..... it kinda helps me not cut myself because I bottle up feelings......