Trigger Warning
I cut for the first time, it was nothing major, just on my finger... Around 10 times... I did it just to see if it would make me able to stop listening to them and focus on something else... I liked watching the blood come out of the small paper cut like wounds, I liked the way it felt too, how it throbbed and hurt when I bent it, how I felt the blade pierce through my layers of skin... I'm scared though. I'm scared people will notice and think I did it for attention... I don't think I did it for attention. I don't even know. I just wanted to see blood. I tried on my wrist, never got deep enough. I tried on my leg, again never got deep enough... Then I thought of my finger... So I tried it, saw blood, did it again, and again, and again. I think I need help... I kinda want to feel that bleeding and throbbing sensation again... I know it's bad... but it calmed me... And made me feel better...
IDK if I posted this one yet so I just posted it sorry if it is a double up.