Confession

I honestly can't help but look at things happily even through things that shouldn't be happy it's either that or no form of emotional reaction at all except for the occasional anger. And I'm pretty arrogant in a way. I don't cry. I don't really feel sad anymore I used to as a kid for more personal reasons. But even when my friend dies no form of sadness just the reoccurring thought "hey can't get worse" and it's weird, but weird is ok isn't it ?