- avery
" you feel better now?" mattia speaks as i walk out the bathroom. ever since my panic attack , mattia has been watching over me non stop. i havent really left the room unless its to grab food when mattia isnt here. i called camila and told her everything that happened , she said she catching the first flight tomorrow down here.
i was really expecting my birthday week to be a little better but nope. i dont even know if i want to celebrate my birthday anymore.
" yeah , i just keep throwing up everything i eat." i yawn and hop back into bed. everything i eat makes me sick and im losing my appetite.
" have you been to the doctor? your barely eating , when you do you throw up. you wont sleep either" he says worried. " in know you probably wont want to , but i feel as though its safe to figure out whats going on. it could be the flu yk"
he is probably right. one thing about me , i hate being sick. being hot all the time and not being able to do things on your own is just awful.
" ill go right now , just get this over with before my birthday comes." i sigh
" want me to come to or you wanna go alone?" he questions. i would love for him to come but i need some time by myself.
" ill go alone , just call me if anything comes up." i groaned.
" okay , i love you and please be safe" mattia responds. " i love you more"
gosh i feel like im gonna die.
( at the doctors)
" hello avery what brings you here?" the doctor says. she pulls out a blue pen from her pocket and begins to right on a paper.
" um , two days ago i had a panic attack. after that i have been losing my appetite but whenever i do eat i throw it up." i explain to her.
she still looks down at the paper and continues to write. " when is the last time you've been to the doctor?"
i dont even remember , i think it was when i got shot.
" a couple months ago, i got into an accident." i tell her.
" okay we are gonna run some test , im going to need you to pee in a cup." she tells me. she passes my a clear cup with a blue lid. i exit to go to the bathroom and pee.
what if i find something completely wrong with me? i hesitated to sit on the toilet and even pee.
i wanted to get it over with so i squatted over the cup and did what i needed to do.
i removed myself out of the bathroom and walked back into my room. i passed the cup to the doctor.
" wow not to be weird, this is the clearest pee i've ever seen."
(play song)
i sigh before turning the key in the lock. i wonder how he is gonna feel about all of this. i hope he feels the same way as i do.
there is so mang things going on in my life this possibly could be the best thing besides him.
i step into the house placing my bag onto the hook. i walk past the living room and head straight for the stairs.
walking up the large stairs slowly admiring all of our pictures. i look at my feet and shut my eyes blocking away my tears. hopefully history doesnt repeat itself.
i finally made it to our room door. i press my hand on it lightly and pushed it open. there he was standing by the dresser, i smiled softly at him. i walk in surprising him. his eyes meet mine and he puts down the picture frame of us together down.
" hey how was the doctor?" he asked. he walks over to me and places his hand in mine. i cant hide something this important from him no matter how i know he would feel.
" i have some news but i need you to sit down for it." i sniffle. " okay you seem sad." he acknowledges and sits on the couch infront of the bed.
i sit on the edge of the bed close enough to him. " so my doctors appointment was better than i expected. i may be a little dehydrated." i start
" um but i got some important news but i dont know exactly how you gonna take it." i fidegt with my fingers and worry takes over his face.
" i love you okay whatever it is im going to be there bo matter what." he says softly.
i shake out all the negative thoughts and placed positive ones. even if they possibly aren't true , it puts me in a better mood.
i look him into the eyes and anticipation peers through. his eyes are screaming hurry up and tell me.
i sigh one last time , " mattia , we are gonna have a baby."
i cover my mouth and close my eyes. i dont get an immediate reaction from him which is making me have second thoughts. i knew this was gonna be to much.
his face is just stuck. " are you serious?" he finally answers.
i nod my head slowly and the biggest smile creeps onto his face. " avery dont joke with me okay." he stands up from the chair infront of me.
" whg would i joke like that? im being very serious." i say with the straightest face.
i wait for a proper reaction because all he did was think i am joking.
" im gonna be a dad baby , wooooo!!!" he screams excitedly. i swoops me off the bed spinning me around. " oh my god im gonna be a fucking dad."
he puts me down and places his hands on my cheek. he presses his forehead against mine and smiles. i give him a smile back even though im caught off by his reaction. " we are gonna be parents," i cry.
" i know , im so happy that its you. im blessed for real. gosh im so inlove with you."
before i could withdraw my mind from its far places, his arms were around me, as sure and hard as on the dark road to me, so long ago.
He kissed me, softly at first, and then with a swift gradation of intensity that made me cling to him as the only solid thing in a dizzy swaying world. His insistent mouth was parting my shaking lips, sending wild tremors along my nerves, evoking from my sensations that i had never known i was capable of feeling.
Its like opening up my soul, tasting feeling and seeing every colour of the rainbow in our own sensual way, almost like catching a smile in a bottle, its softness, its sweetness... Like breathing in his like a cool inhalation of oxygen to warm the soul..
Like nothing in the world exist but him and i... This feeling like im levitating off the ground floating in the air... What im feeling cannot be put into words, nor has there yet been any part of speech or figure of speech invented to describe it.. Its like an aphrodisiac, mixed with a Pandoras box effect , fireworks glowing inside of me from the touch of mattia's lips on me.
It feels as if my whole world has been waiting for this moment. As if all the love inside my soul, as well as my body combine into lust and passion. i feel as if i were safe but are complete aware of how i look, and wanting to impress him. A true good kiss, is the feeling when i feel sick to the stomach but strong as well. That, is what I consider to be a good kiss.
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i feel like uoo guys knew this was coming. can you believe it? me neither. i cryed so much writing this. my phone screens is flooded with tears.
this chapter was perfect. it shows you the real beauty between their relationship no matter what comes in. its the feeling of them both against the world. LETS TALK ABOUT THIS KISS.
that was the best kiss scene ive ever written and when i tell you im actually proud.
well happy reading guys !!!