It is true.
As I watch my mate stood frozen by the entrance, I now know how true that rumor was. Good Lord, did I do this. A gasp escaped me as my heart broke for him.
My mate was covered in blood but I could tell most of it was his, and I find myself just wishing it wasn't. Most that wasn't his had dried up, but his was still flesh as his wounds refused to heal as fast as an alpha werewolf should.
He had a long claw slash on his right peck , a stab wound on his lower stomach with dark vein-like extention proving the weapon used had been silver, the last of his major injuries was on his thigh, I couldn't determine what caused that one just that it looked as gruesome as the rest.
I just couldn't...I...oh moon goddess.
Tears were now flowing freely, like I hadn't spent the last two weeks crying, I didn't even know I had so many tears.
I didn't miss the step my alpha took back but I didn't care, before he could make up his mind on what to do i was already making my way to him quickening my pace as I neared him until I was standing just a step away.
His breath hitched , his clenched fist tightening till they're white.
"Open your eyes, "
My voice came out as whisper, trembling with emotion. His face rarely showed his emotions, his eyes though, they tell everything , also I really missed looking at those green milky orbs.
More tears flowed down my cheeks making my head ache, the tropical green eyes had been reduced to dull almost empty soulless orbs.
I really don't deserve him.
Deciding on his health first, I reached out holding his huge hand in mine, dragging him to the nearest empty hospital bed, ignoring the electrifying sparks that spread all over me, leaving goosebumps on their wake. Once sitted I tried to let his hand go to tend to his wounds, but he wasn't having any of it, his hand held onto mine in a firmer grip his chest vibrating with deep rumbling. My heart squeezed and at that moment I just knew Elijah Killian has my heart always and forever, nothing mattered, just me and him to the bitter end.
I mindlinked one of the nurses and a doctor , because I wasn't risking it, to attend to my mate as I continued holding his hand.
I watched his gorgeous face that appeared ragged both from low maintenance and war, nothing though could beat his handsome features. In fact, he appeared to grow more gorgeous by the day, it's insane.
As if having enough of my staring, the Alpha lifted his face to face me, letting me see his eyes.
Is this what I have been reduced to now, an emotional rollercoaster , is the thought that raids my mind as I feel another wave of emotion hit me.
Anger, guilt, sorrow then, anger then all at once even more tears flowing.
"Shift, "
The wolf before me gave me a confused face, then realization, then settling for fear.
But I wasn't having none of it, the red orbs facing me made sure of that.
So now this wolf can make its presence known, after leaving my baby to fed for himself for two weeks, heck even in battle he still was a no show. But now, now he shows!!??
"Shift"
I added more affirmation leaving no room for arguments.
Elijah still held doubt ,and I knew exactly why.
Slowly he stood from his bed, the nurse and doctor stopping their treatment, watching us with curious eyes.
My mate gave me one more look, before bone snapping and rearrange fill the room and before me stood the extremely huge black lethal alpha wolf.
I didn't move even an inch to accommodate him, his large form radiating body heat that I so desperately wanted to cuddle to.
The oversized wolf sat slowly on its hind legs lowering its head in an effort to appear less intimidating.
I was mad though, I didn't care how scary or intimidating he appeared.
I bent down removing my left shoe and hitting him twice with it.
The wolf faced me surprised, well as surprised as a wolf head can appear.
"How could you, huh? How could you leave him like that huh?
You left him to fed for the both of you. He got hurt because you weren't there.
You.....yo...you can't just leave him like that when the going gets tough, aren't you an alpha huh...huh....
He needed you as much as you needed him. He is you other half, literally!
I....I.. I am not worthy enough for you to abandon him. No! No don't you dare growl at me!
It's true, am not worthy, I caused you both great pain, but even as stupid and naive and selfish and....and...I said don't growl!
My other half, my wolf, she didn't leave me, she didn't, despite myself, she didn't, we pushed through together, together! So why did you leave him huh.."
I was rumbling, I don't even know if am making sense but he understands, that's all that matters, no matter how much they were hurting, Elijah's wolf had no right leaving him like he did, I mean what if he died in that battle!!
The wolf whimpered as it closed the small distance pushing its head lightly against my body, asking for forgiveness. I wasn't the one he should be asking, but I know he won't stop until I do and I am in no position to deny him.
"Okay beasty, I forgive you on behalf of Elijah, "
The overgrown wolf cocked his head with interest, mostly due to the nickname that slipped from my mouth. He seemed pleased with it as he yelped happily licking me all over.
I laughed out loud cuddling its large head on me as I tried to return the affection.
"My beasty."
I whispered to him, as I ran my fingers through his soft, black, shiny fur. Rumbling sounds and purrs were vibrating from his chest constantly his tail wagging behind him .
God I really missed him. Never again is my stupid ass putting us through that again.
The exhaustion of two fucking weeks was finally catching up on me, physically, mentally and emotionally, especially emotionally. Being here in my mates embrace, even in wolf form, was all the solution I needed.
Goddess I really hope this storm has passed and will never cloud us again, because only you know am not strong enough to withstand another.