Since Squirrely's bed is pretty much wet, we had to lie him down in the living room. Not that there aren't other room's in this giant house, it's just that it's easier to keep an eye on him like this.
We decided that it's best if we move him to a bedroom during the night and just before he wakes up.
I want to give him some food but because of the drug I also gave him, he can't feel even if you throw him out of the window.
Something feels off about it. I'm also worried at the fact that I gave it to him almost 2 hours before he should take it. He won't overdose right??
Minho came out of the shower and went straight for the kitchen. I almost forgot that we haven't even eaten since we got here. Hopefully my friend remembers and brings two cups of ramen with him.
The day is perfect to just lay in bed and do nothing. Even though winter is almost over the weather is still chilly outside. And this house is in the forest so I expected it to be cold but Minho lit up the fire place and the warmth wrapped around the entire house in no time.
Since the living room is opened toward the upper floor and the ceiling is the highest here the warm air traveled nicely through the entire house. Even my ankle can now take a break.
"Here" He hands me the bowl of ramen "I think it's going to rain for a while. The sky is as dark as my sense of humor" He jokes without even a slight sign of sarcasm in his tone.
"Do we have wi-fi in here??" I ask as I notice that I'm disconnected for the entire time. The TV is also not working.
"I think I have to turn the electricity for this room on. The house is so big that there are more insurers for the electricity. I have to turn this one on. Wait a sec." He disappears in the hallway leaving me alone again. Out of curiosity my eyes make a quick scan of the living room.
I didn't really have much time to look around before, but I think knowing my surroundings with him on the couch, would be a good thing.
I get up and just now notice the layout in the room. Two couches are placed in an L shape and an armchair is completing the chain creating a U shape. In the middle there is a small yet quite big table and the big TV is hanged on the wall.
The flames from the fireplace are warming us up from the right side of the room and on the left is the staircase and a bunch of drawers with pictures on them and some have glass doors so I can see the objects inside.
Minho's grandmother has a lot of pictures. And when I say a lot, I mean a lot. They are on the walls, on window sills, on and inside drawers.
A lot of them are pretty old and I have no idea who the people on them are. One is probably his grandma and others are friends or family.
There is one pretty face I can recognize tho. It's baby Minho also kid Minho and teen Minho. One of the pictures was from a few years ago. When he dances a single dance move that will hunt him for the rest of his life.
"I want to be a singer" I murmur out remembering his dream he had in high school. Does he regret it?? Not chasing his dream?? He never really talked to me after he left the company that accepted him and started part time.
His family went bankruptcy at that time and even thought his mom told him not to worry, he found a job and only after they paid their debts off, he took a small break.
After that he couldn't just return back to the company so he continued working part time. He's good thought. It's not hard to imagine him on stage behind the mic.
"Is it on??" I hear his voice that pulls me out of my thoughts. I turn around and see him around the TV. He plugs it into the socket and right after the the green dots start to sparkle on the monitor.
"Yeeeyyy" I take the controller and jump on the couch. I can hear a small chuckle escape his lips as he picks up both of our meals and sits next to me.
"What are we watching?? " I ignore his question and quickly move through the controller. This is a modern TV it must have Netflix.
When I finally find what I want my eyes lit up at the red letter that appears on the screen.
"I found a new one a few days ago" I finally answer Minho's question and he nods a few times before a frown forms on his face.
"Don't you have like five that you haven't even finished yet" Yes I do. I don't know I get bored when all the drama starts. I know lot of people can't wait to see everything sorting out and all. But me. I am a person that likes the beginnings. I like to see how things start but get tired when it's to complicated for my brain. I finish every kdrama I start... it just takes a while.
"Give me that" he snatches the controller from my grip. Before I can even say a word he holds his finger up and signals me to be quite. It's weird but everytime he shows his determination I just shut up and wait.
"First, we are gonna finish all the ones you have started before. Look you have 2 episodes left here. We are gonna watch this." He clicks on the middle button and the series start to play.
"It's called 'it's ok not to be ok'" I murmur out as I grab my first bite.
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We finished around three dramas by now. And as the clock passed 1am, I can't help but keep looking at the minutes that pass by.
Minho took Squirrely into a room just as we planned but I keep thinking about him waking up. Wouldn't it be better if he was here, close to us so we can keep a proper eye on him.
I see Minho peacefully sleeping, his head layed on the side of the couch and his body covered with a blanket. The urge to check up on Squirrely is stronger with every second that goes by and I don't know for how long I can sit on this couch like this.
I have been staring at the TV screen for over 10 minutes without even paying attention to the episode. I will be revealed if he wakes up and starts shouting like a mad man to be honest.
Just something. A noise. Glass being broken. Banging on the door. Hearing him fall from the bed. Anything. I will be happy with anything.
My ears focus on the sounds that are around me. I desperately want to hear a sound from his room. But focusing on one thing is never to good and the thunder that is tearing the sky in pieces just proves that.
The loud thunder lits up the sky and for a split second it feels like it's daytime again. This is the first time me and Minho jump out of fear in perfect syncs.
He gave me a sleepy and annoyed look before putting his head back down and closing his eyes once again. I can't control the weather mate.
"That's it. I have enough" Minho just hums without even knowing what I mean. I jump off the couch and my feet immediately turn toward the stairs.
My steps are quick and careful as I step through the hallway. As I finally reach the door I turn the handle quietly and enter slowly. In the moment the door opened a cold wind hits my skin.
I turn on the light and my brain immediately shouted to me about the sight in front of me. The window is opened rain entering through it and the wind has turned the room upside down by now. The bed is empty and so was the entire room. Not a single sight of him.
"MINHOOOOOO!!" I immediately turn around and run down the stairs. My hands reach for the raincoat and my shoes in a split second. Minho just looks at me confused before he gives me a questionable look.
"He's not there. The window is opened he must have jumped. We have to search the area this instance." His eyes open widely and he stands up in less than a second.
"I'll search through the forest, you search the town" He says and starts putting his shoes on. I just nod and run out the front door.
The moment my boots sinks into the mud I can feel the heavy rain hitting my body. Where would he even go in a weather like this and it amazes me that he had the courage to jump of the second floor.
The town is not far from the house, I just have to follow the road we took with Seungmin yesterday. I walk carefully but fast and after 10 minutes I spot the first house.
Since the town is just out of Seoul there are big roads around. I walk through the main street my eyes searching every gap between every house.
I can feel every beat my heart makes. Every step I take feels heavier. Every breath colder than the previous one. Every drop of rain hitting the rain suit harder making me feel like granates are raining on me.
How could I allow a mistake like this. How could I leave him alone when I know he's afraid and confused as fuck. I'm such a stupid idiot for leaving him alone. Who cares if he freaked out and bit the shit out of Minho. Leaving him alone again made it just harder. He has been alone for 12 years why would I leave him alone.
The thoughts that are shooting through my mind make me wanna bury my head into the ground right now but before I do that I have to find him. If we lose him now it's over. Everything will crush down and he'll be in the polices hands in no time.
The cold in my feet makes me feel like they are about to crumble to pieces. I need to stop myself from thinking. I need to stop the panic that my thoughts are creating right now or I'll lose my mind.
I start to run through the streets until I end up looking at the board that is showing directions for Seoul. The only thing I can hear in this wild night is the rain drops landing on the beton around me. Thunders are everywhere around me and the night sky lights up every three minutes like a fire that just got enough of oxygen to keep it alive.
I turn my head to look around the roundabout that is in front of me. Without hopes my eyes wander through the dark roads that lead toward different parts of Korea.
I don't expect a single soul to pass here. Not even a car but I do spot a dark figure standing in the middle of the road. His chin raised up high his eyes gazing the dark sky. His feet feeling the cold of the concrete road. As I get closer I see the creepy smile on his face, his eyes widely opened.
He is just standing there letting every drop of rain soak up his clothes. His body is shaking from the cold temperature but he doesn't allow himself to move even an itch.
I don't know if he noticed me by now or not but his mouth slightly opened with the last step I took. Only a meter or two are between us which makes me as myself the final question. What do I do now??
"So this is how the rain feels"
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