I slowly feel myself waking up, as my hands press down on something warm. I slowly open my eyes, feeling a headache traveling up to my brain just from that simple movement... I don't remember. I can't remember. What happened after me and Minho started drinking?? Small holes of memories from last night come to me as I lift my head up, noticing how squeezed my body is, but I still can't feel the armchair under me. There is something long... what the hell. Two?? I grope whatever is underneath me, trying to figure out what it is, and not long after someone giggles above me.
In that moment, I realize that what I'm touching is a waist.. SOMEONE'S WAIST?!?! I look up immediately seeing Squirrely's small smile, he is still sleeping, but I probably tickled him while I was groping him. A slight feeling of panic runs up my body, when I notice his peaceful face. It wouldn't be the first time to see him sleeping, but it somehow feels different. Like first of all, what the actually fuck am I doing in his lap. And second of all, what the fuck happened last night for me to end up on his lap??
I slowly try to get up and move away, but the moment I try, I notice his hands around me. Damn it, if my head wouldn't hurt so much I would actually enjoy this. It's warm, and peaceful, and... I need to slap myself. I look around and notice Minho is nowhere to be seen, only Seungmin on the other couch.
"He went to the bathroom" A raspy voice catches my attention. I look up and notice Squirrely's closed eyes. He has been awake this entire time?!?!
"Why didn't you tell me you were awake?? Do you enjoy watching me struggle that much??" I say in a low tone and then lay my head back on his chest. I feel so drained, like I was on a hiking trip for hours and just got the permission to sit down, but there is also this weird knot in my stomach that keeps bothering me. While I'm trying to figure out what this feeling is, he just quietly laughs before answering me.
"It's cute." He says and normally I would get up and cut myself the embarrassment, but right now, I feel like something is going to explode inside my stomach. I tap his chest aggressively a few times, before raising up.
"I will throw up." I say and see his eyes open immediately, he quickly sits up and rises me up, before getting up himself. The moment my feet touch the ground the world starts spinning around me, making me look for a better balance. He notices my struggle, and supports me by holding me up on both sides. The feeling just raises up my esophagus with every second we stand here. He tries to move me forward, but I just freeze on the spot. He reads the disgusted look on my face, immediately bends his knees down, and lowers himself under me. He picks me up on a piggy back ride and starts sprinting toward the bathroom. I have to admit I'm surprised by his strength, I mean, I know he build some muscle because Minho has been forcing him to work out with him, but I didn't expect him to be able to carry a pig like me.
"Hyung open the door!!" He knocks on the door impatiently. I can hear a weak growl from the other side, realizing Minho doesn't have it any better then me. After a few seconds he opens the door noticing my pale face. His eyes widen a bit, before he collects the last drops of energy he has.
"That's the face, she's gonna throw up." In the moment he says that I feel the liquid raise up my throat, and in the next moment I vomit all over Squirrely's shoulder, and on the tiles in front of the bathroom. Squirrely freezes for a moment as he feels the warmth of the thrown up alcohol all over his clothes.
"Damn, you're so disgusting." Minho says and right after signals Squirrely to take me inside. He places me next to the bathroom tube leaving me to clear my stomach. Right after I'm done, I notice Minho helping him take off his shirt reliving his bare skin. I can't see his ribs anymore, that's a good sign. A moment later Minho coms to me and hits me on my back.
"You done?? He needs to take a shower you know." I just nod, and slowly get up to wash my face before leaving. As I turn to the door I see Squirrely and Minho bent down, cleaning up my mess. I pick up a towel and try to kneel down myself, but immediately earn a glance from Squirrely. He takes the towel out of my hands and pushes me back.
"Just go to sleep, I'll clean up. After all you cleaned up after me when I threw up as well. You too." He says, and takes the towel out of Minho's hand as well.
"You at least threw up inside the tube." I say as I take the towel again.
"Just let us help." Minho takes it back as well, and we keep wiping my damn vomit... I shouldn't drink anymore, this smell could end the human race.
After we clean up, we let Squirrely take a shower while me and Minho return back to the living room. I have never drank to the point of throwing up in my life before, not to mention the horrible headache and the fact that I have barely any energy to move. We just sit down and lean back on the couch, both of us with no words to say. By now I remember everything that happened last night, including what I said to Squirrely. I should definitely never drink in my life again.
"You lost." I say with a weak smirk on my face "You threw up first haha." His head turns to me.
"I got up first." He defends himself.
"I don't care, you own me 10.000 won." He just rolls his eyes and nods.
"Whatever." I just look up at the ceiling trying to ignore the pain around my forehead. We should probably eat or drink something, so the pain lowers. Who am I kidding tho, I can't even get up. I hear the water running inside the bathroom, and a sudden feeling of guilt runs over me. I just throw up on the person who has been making my days better for the last 2 weeks. He even comforted me without knowing, and I showered him in yellow vomit. What a fucking idiot.
I look at the clock and notice it's... 3.38am, what the hell?? Our stomach woke us up before we literally threw up in our sleep.
"Should we wake him up??" Minho asks while pointing at Seungmin.
"I think he'll be fine. Let him sleep, he didn't drink that much...." I pause for a moment, when an interesting memory from last night shoots through my mind. "Dude, you literally confessed to him last night." I say with a teasing smile on my face.
"You better take that memory to your grave with you." He says as he glares at me.
"~SEUNGMIN I LOVE YOUUU!!" I slightly yell in a teasing tone, and in the next moment he jumps on me and shuts my mouth. He hits me on my back, before throwing me back on the couch and backing off. Damn, this man is brutal sometimes. Why does he hit so hard?!
"Ok, ok, I'll stop." I laugh out loud, and sit back normally. A minute later, the bathroom door click open and Squirrely comes out. He coms out with a towel wrapped around his waist, and one over his head.
"I forgot to take clothes, sorry." I watch him as he turns around, his bare back facing both of us. He quickly searches the bag on the ground for a clean pair of clothes, with me just staring at his back. I watch the towel on his head slowly roll off, showing his wet black hair. Small drops of water gathering on the tips of his hair, and once the drop is to heavy it slowly falls off of it reliving it from it's weight. For some reason, I can't look away.. he is turning me into a pervert. He picks up his clothes and raises up, in the process picking up the towel from the ground as well. His eyes slowly wander to me and Minho, and he finally catches me staring at him. With a slight confusion in his eyes, he looks at me, and then down at himself. For a moment, it seems like he is embarrassed, as he uses his hands to cover up his chest.
"What are you embarrassed of Hannie, there is nothing much to see. Don't worry, in a few more months, I'll make sure she has a nice view." Both me and Squirrely just look at him. Squirrely with wide eyes, and me just a little surprised at how this dude keeps pushing me and Squirrely together. I mean, when I imagine what could I see in a few months... well, yehh.. I feel my ears getting red again. ANYWAY, MOVING ON. He picks his clothes fast, and moves back to the bathroom.
"What's wrong with you??" I ask as I turn my head toward Minho.
"He could have a really nice body though. He has a small waist and a tiny body, so imagine him with just the right quantity of muscles." He says, with excitement filling his tone.
"Why do you keep pushing us together??" He looks at me with a small frown on his face.
"What do you mean?? I ain't pushing anyone together. He likes you, you like him, what's here to push together. You two are literally glued together in a hug every 3 days. Almost makes me cringe actually." He shakes his body as the memories of me and Squirrely hugging cross his mind. He likes you, you like him.... he likes me?? Suddenly the memory from a week ago crosses my mind, when Squirrely pulled me on the couch and hugged me. That's the day when he said he knows the difference between liking someone as a friend, and liking someone in a romantic way. That really made my heart flutter.
Why am I even thinking about this literally everyday. I'm just annoying myself with it. Actually, I have been running away from asking myself this question but... do I like him?? I realized that no one has made me laugh, smile, and even worry this much in 5 years. And what's even more important, nobody has made me blush for over 5 years. But is it worth liking him?? Of course I can't stop my feelings, but still... I mean, we don't know what will happen after this is over. What if they take him away because of his mental state?? What if I never see him again?? What if we fail and they take him away... NO, NO, NO. I promised to myself and him, that I won't let it end badly. I won't allow myself to let someone lock him up again after all of this. Even if I have to jump into a fire for it, I will, protect him.
"What?? Why did you go all quiet all of a sudden. Are you fighting with yourself again??" Minho's question throws me out of my thoughts, making me look at him.
"Kinda." My answer makes him chuckle before continuing.
"I don't really remember what happened last night, but I do remember you saying something to him. Why don't you just ask him how he feels??" I just keep my eyes on him, without a specific expression on my face, and blink a few times.
"Me asking him if he likes me, it's as hard as you deciding if Soonie, Doongi and Dori die or die." He pauses for a moment staring into thin air in front of him.
"Ok don't ask him if he likes-" Minho gets cut off by the bathroom door opening, and Squirrely walking in fully dressed.
"Likes what??" He asks, as his confused eyes keep switching between me and Minho.
"Umm- You- Your body." What the hell did I just say. "I like your body." Now this makes zero sense, but hey, better then saying I like you.
"You- my body??" His cheeks get cover in a slight shade of red, and a second later he looks away and brings his hands up to cover his cheeks. Damn, he is SOOOO FUCKING CUTE. "But my body is.. is skinny and just.. What is there good about it??" He looks confused and a bit.. ashamed?? Why though, his body is perfect for someone who was an addict and was barely eating anything for the past few years. Why is he so not confident about it??
"What are you talking about, your body is perfect. You build up a lot of fat ever since we came here, and you... it's fine. You're fine." I say slightly running out of words, as he keeps looking at me with his big eyes.
"She's lying, she lik-" The moment Minho opens his mouth, I use the last drops of strength I have, and jump on him to shut his mouth as fast as possible. He just laughs at me, as I push him down on the couch with me laying on top of him. I let go of him, hoping he will stop and let me deal with my own feeling on my own. A deep sight escapes my lips as I relax my body, with my right leg over his and my hand on his chest.
"Be quite." I whisper in his ear. He keeps laughing lightly, while I can't even move an inch anymore. My body is just so drained and soggy right now.
"Should we get up and make something for this damn headache?? And my stomach also hurts." I suggest, even though nor me or Minho can pick our asses up. Squirrely just looks at us with amusement, his eyes keep switching between my hand on Minho's chest, my legs over his, and my head that is right next to his. Is he jealous?? He always pushes Minho away, every time he is close to me.
"I'm not sure I can move. Maybe in a few hours??" Minho says, and moves his left leg over mine, making himself even more comfortable.
"NO!!... I'll make it!!" Squirrely rushes forward, and takes Minho's leg off me. In the next moment he takes my hand and pulls me up in a sitting position. I just yawn at his action, while he kneels down in front of me and looks at my face.
"Let's go!! I'll make sure to make something edible, ok??" He nods at his own question, and raises me up. He has so much energy for god's sake. To be honest, I wouldn't have the energy to take care of two drunk pigs for hours, and then help them make themselves feel better, in 4am in the fucking morning.
He takes my hand, and quickly drags me toward the kitchen, leaving Minho who has a wide smile spread on his face, behind on the couch.
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I'm so done with this week (written on Sunday). Like, I caught a cold every night, I played beach volleyball for around 4 hours straight, and instead of burning my shoulders, or nose, or ears, I burned my feet, which resulted to me not being able to make a normal step for 2 days. I spend SOOOO much money, because I went to eat for the end of the school year around 3 times (the money spend continues this week too). Then school ended, I finally got my year report card (THANK GOD), I called for a job (they haven't called back yet), I got to kinda keep a friend even closer then before, I ended a toxic friendship, and bitch I don't regret it (no wait... that happened last week??), then I went on a trip with my parents during the weekend, had my birthday there, HYUNJIN CAME BACK ON MY BIRTHDAY (Korean standard time lol).
I had to control myself so my parents wouldn't think I completely lost it. But I did jump on the bad, and around the room out of happens, and kinda listened to the song every minute of the day (even while being outside) But like come on, the MV and the song itself were so... UGH.
Also I was so happy when I came out of the shower and I was trembling, cos you know Europe is literally burning right now. IT'S SO HOT. But now I'm back home and I am sweating just from breathing. AAAAGHHHHH (That was a deep sight). I hope the summer passes fast, I can't do this shit, my head hurts non stop and I can't write without sitting down on the floor (because maybe it's colder there), BUT LIKE STRAY KIDS ARE PROBABLY GONNA HAVE A COME BACK IN JULY AND HYUNJIN IS BACK, so that is definitely gonna make the summer this year more bearable.
Ou shit this is kinda long, but if you read it thanks and have a nice day.
HYUNJIN IS BACK BITCHES AHAHAHAHAGGAANYHDNSKSJYBN, OUR BOY IS BACKKKK!!! Also did you see Chan's hair?? It looks sooooo good.