We make a quick circle around the park before starting to walk toward the entrance. With my jacket over Squirrely's head we do attract some good attention, but that doesn't stop me from guiding Squirrely through the park as quick as possible.
I look around and notice more guards around us, but in that moment Seungmin pulls in front of the amusement park signaling me to come over fast. Without much thinking, I just whisper Squirrely a few words, and right after we both take off.
"Run as fast as you can." My hand grabs his, and our feet move faster than ever before. As we keep moving forward, Squirrely pulls my jacket out of his sight and holds it tight into his hand.. kinda hot not gonna lie. We start getting closer and closer to Seungmin's car, but we also get noticed more and more. As we come to the entrance one of the security guards stands right in front of me blocking my way. With everything I got, I bump my shoulder into the guard, pushing him backwards. Without losing my balance, I keep running forward and see the door Seungmin already opened for us to get in. Squirrely jumps on the seat, and right after him I get inside as well.
Seungmin quickly drives off without even waiting for one of us to close the door, which catches me off guard a bit. I quickly stretch my hand and pull the door toward myself, slamming it close. All three of us take a moment to just breathe and process what just happened. Never in my life, I thought I will be chased because I'm a potential criminal.
"Are you guys ok??" I ask with a heavy breath. Squirrely just nods while Seungmin gives me a shaken up look through the reverse mirror. Well I truly hope this day becomes a memory that we are all going to laugh at one day, because right now it just shook us all up pretty badly.
I slowly crawl over Squirrely and sit on the other side of the care, since the two of us were kinda glued together because we didn't have much time to adjust our sitting position. After a few minutes, Seungmin pulls over in an almost empty parking lot, so we can change the licence plate. To be honest I'm not sure how much that helps but we still do it. I mean there are not thousands of cars just as Seungmin's but they will look at the licence plate first right??
I'm so confused. Can't this just end fast. Can't this day pass fast. I need my warm bed, and a day when I don't think about anything. I should try meditation, the only thing you focus on there is the way you breathe... What the fuck am I even thinking about. I bring my hands up and slap myself on both of my cheeks, attacking everyone's attention. Both of them just look at me probably asking themselves if I'm going to lose my shit now, or I already lost it.
"...Sorry." I say as my gaze shifts between the two. Seungmin just gives me a heavy sight before speaking up.
"Let's find a place to stay at. Since we attracted some attention before, we should find a quiet place for the night." He says, and I just nod. He starts the car again, and drives off like he knows exactly where he is going.
"Do you have something on your mind??" I ask out of curiosity.
"Yes I do." He says back, but his facial expression never changes. After that we stay quiet again while Seungmin just drives through the streets,getting further and further from the center of the city. Squirrely seems more worried than before, he is not admiring the city as much as before, but rather nervously playing with his fingers while looking out of the window. Somehow the look on his face keeps bothering me every second more and more, until my mood gets even more beaten up then before. I just keep staring at him, until I notice that he can see me perfectly because my reflection is on the window glass.
The moment we make eye contact I realize he knows I've been looking at him for a few seconds now, but instead of looking away I just make the ugliest, yet funniest face I have ever been able to provide. From then on the movement of my face and arms just becomes natural, as I keep making a fool out of myself, in hopes I make the boy in front of me at least smile.
After good 5 seconds of embarrassing myself, the corners of his mouth finally curl up, and he lets out a laugh. After that, I don't let him go back to being all depressed, I just turn my body to the side and cross my legs on the car seat, making him to the same. Of course I took my shoes off before doing this, because I know Seungmin is going to murder me if I make a mess inside his car.
For the rest of the ride, I play random games with Squirrely using everything we have. Well mostly our hands but it's still enough. I feel like a 4th grader when everyone were competing in that hand clapping game, that I never really understood. But hey, as long as it keeps the man in front of me happy, I'm ready to do it.
I really need to decide what he is. Is he a boy or a man to me, because I keep switching between those two every 10 minutes.
After a few minutes the car eventually stops and I put my shoes on again. Just when I'm about to walk out of it Seungmin turns around and speaks up.
"Don't come out until I come back. I need to know if he's willing to help us first." From the fact that he thinks this he can be trusted, tells me that they are friends or at least know each other pretty well. I nod and just like that he shuts the door close, leaving me and Squirrely alone. A few seconds pass by before Squirrely breaks the silence.
"What if I can't do it??" He says attacking my attention.
"Do what??" I ask back, since my brain is shattered into pieces at the moment.
"What if I can't tell the truth in front of everyone tomorrow??" He raises his head up and looks me at the eyes. In the last two weeks we explained to Squirrely why we took him out, and how we have to fix the situation we are in right now. At the time I kept reassuring him that he doesn't have to think about it to much and just focus on himself, but now we have one more day left. And not to mention that the video clip is still in the house since I forgot to take it.
I take a few seconds to think about how to reply to him, but it just gets harder and harder. I don't want to lie to him, but I can't tell him the complete truth neither.
"Do you want to do it??" I ask back, looking straight into his eyes.
"Of course I want to do it."
"Then don't ask yourself questions such as 'what if I can't do it'. Only think about the fact that you want to do it. That one minute when you stand in front of everyone will open the door to freedom. Just think about all the things you are going to be able to do and experience after you do it. Nobody will view you the way they see you now, and your fake reputation will crumble down like domine." I say slowly.
"What if I'm scared??"
"...then do it scared." I say knowing how he feels. I have never had social anxiety or ever been in his situation but everyone have something they are absolutely terrified off and his, is this. I know he is just getting his head wrapped around the entire world and just adjusting to living a normal life, but we don't have time to wait. As much as he doesn't like it, I don't as well. I don't want to push him out of his comfort zone so fast, but if he doesn't do this we might not get another opportunity.
In that moment Seungmin comes back, opening Squirrely's door, and making both of us look at him.
"It's safe, we can spend the night here." He says. I pick up my backpack and slowly crawl out right after Squirrely. My hand slowly reaches for my back pocket, making me realize I don't have my phone anymore. I slam my other palm on my forehead in amuse of how stupid this just looked inside of my head, and quickly catch up to Squirrely who is walking not to far from me.
"How do you feel??" I ask him. "You know, since you stopped using the drug completely only 3 days ago."
"I feel good. My energy dropped a little bit on the beginning, but I feel better now. And also, my body feels a bit heavier, but that is also getting better." He says as we keep walking forward.
The place we're at it's probably a motel. It has two floors shaped in an L shape and I like how it just looks like small houses glued one next to another. We walk up the stairs to the second floor and pass a few doors before stopping in front of our own. He slides in the key and opens it, reliving a small yet comfortable looking room. We walk in and I throw the backpack on the bed. We have a small bathroom and that's everything we need to be honest.
"We are low on budget, so we'll all sleep in one room. You and Jisung can take the bed since.. you two are comfortable with each other." Why does it seem like he thought really well about what to say, before saying it. "I'll sleep on the floor." We make an agreement and right after I sit on the bed. Since it's still early in the day, I have no idea how to spend this time.
Out of boredom I start searching the room and in one of the old drawers I find a few bored games. We open them up and decide to kill some time with them, but eventually we end up being to invested into the game and just like that, after hours of screaming and calling each other liars we decide to end the game with a tie of 3:3:3. I would be lying if I say I didn't want to win this, since Squirrely and Seungmin turned out to be tough competition.
When we decide to stop we noticed it's already night time, even though it's not that late my eyes somehow keep fighting with me.
Seungmin decided to take a shower so me and Squirrely are now cleaning up the floor from the game, when someone suddenly knocks on the door. We just look at each other not knowing if we should open or not.
"Don't worry, it's ok, you can open the door." Says a sweet male voice on the other side. With a small hesitation in my movement, I push the knot down opening the door. A moment later a figure of a boy shows up in front of me, with three plates barely standing in his hands.
I quickly help him with them, by taking two and right after life up my gaze to his face. I can see his cheekbones pretty clearly, and his small dark brown eyes. His wide smile could be an everyday medicine for my problems, to bad I don't have him in my life.
"Thank you." He says as he pushes the tips of his black hair aside. I step to the side letting him enter the room.
"No problem, and umm.. thank you for the meal." I say since I assume he brought three plates full of food for us.
"My name is Jeongin by the way. I'm Seungmin hyungs friend from high school, and you don't have to introduce since you're kind of famous at the moment." He laughs out loud as he slightly bows after introducing.
"Oh well, I'm going to do it anyways." I say awkwardly before bowing my head down as well. "Min Jieun."
"Ahem!!" Someone behind us cleans his throat obviously wanting attention. Both me and Jeongin turn our heads toward Squirrely, only to meat a pair of annoyed eyes.
"And this is the famous Han Jisung." I say as I point toward him with both of my hands.
"He looks normal." He is normal kid. What did you think that he'll be like?? "Well, eat up. You have to be in top form. If you don't succeed I'll have to face the consequences as well." Jeongin says while offering the plate of food to Squirrely.
"O- oh. Yes. Right." Squirrely takes the plate with a small smile, but it seems like the reminder of tomorrow somehow brought his mood down. I don't want him to overthink this, but I know it's impossible for him.
Well, we should eat for now. It's always better to think with a full stomach.
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