Today is the 30th of April 2021 and a few hours ago, I finished Psycho.... WoooWOWOWOWOwowowOOWowoOWowwoOWOWOWOwoOWOWOWOwOOW *clapping*
Ahm, anyway moving on. At the moment this story has 1,260 reads with only 17 chapters out which is already amazing to me. To be honest I didn't expect it to go this far and even though this is not much reads considering the fact there are fanfictions out there who have over 500k reads, but I still think it's an accomplishment to be proud off. I've never had the courage to show my work to so many people, and since you guys are so nice and always write me encouraging and cheerful comments I really feel good about this story.
I don't want to turn out to confident, but I think this book will do well, I mean in my heart it's already doing amazing but I am still excited to see what happens when I publish it entirely, and leave it here for more people to see it.
I thought it would be fun to tell you a bit of how I came up with the story line, I know I'm an amateur when it comes to writing but I still think sharing experience and ideas with other fanfiction writers can help them, since I asked a lot of people on opinions on this story and things I wasn't sure about like my dear friend P. She helped me with a lot of stuff like for example the drugs Jisung was using in the beginning. If you haven't googled them, I'm telling you now that they actually exist, I just rearranged the way they work and their side effects, but I still tried to hold on to their original effects.
Big inspiration for this book was the drama "It's ok not to be ok" since I picked up a lot about these mental states and how to deal with panic attacks, I even gave the workers in this book the same working shifts as the people in the drama had. Other than that, I let my mind create Jisung's past and his crazy father as well as Jieun's past and the thing that happened with her sister. I also tried to keep Minho, Jisung and Seungmin as real as possible. I mean I had to immagine how they would react in every situation but I still tried to keep them as the real Minho, Jisung and Seungmin. And of course Jeongin was in here as well, but to tell the truth he wasn't planned for this book, I literally threw him into the story in the last moment. I wanted them to have a peaceful night without hiding to intensely, so I could create chapter 35 in peace.
Also, I'm sorry for writing mistakes, I know I make a lot of them since english is not my first language it's... it's my 6th but don't take me for a big language learner. I know there are a lot of fallows instead of follows and cames instead of comes and worms instead or warms and also thoughts instead of thoughs. I'm doing my best to fix such mistakes for the future chapters but I get tired of rereading my own chapters as well, you know because the more I read it, the more I wanna change it and it's tiring for my brain.
Anyway thank you to everyone who have been reading Psycho so far, and I'll be back to write what progress this book made on 30th of July since the last chapter is scheduled to come out on that day. Now, I will continue to work on Felix's and Hyunjin's book. See ya!!
By the way I have terrible cold at the moment and I know I should go to bed but I think I'm gonna end up watching Vincenzo for the night hihi.
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I take it back. I know shit about panic attacks lmaooo, but I also think they work different for everyone based on each individual and the way they are, so it's fine. I just finished checking up the last chapter a few seconds ago (watch it have like a thousand mistakes that I missed.) and I'm about to post it right.. now.
So, it's July 29th and Psycho is officially finished.
I am glad to inform you, that you successfully wasted 7 hours and 8 minutes of your life on this book, congratulations!! At this moment this book has 3,798 reads and also SOOOO MANY PPL added it to their reading list that I am literally blown away. Thank you so much to everyone who have been sticking around this long. I know it's exhausting to always wait for new chapters, but you still stayed and read it every week so I'm really thankful for that.
Thank you to everyone who helped me with feedback and with improving my skills. Thanks to P that always beats up my soul and mental will with listing every mistake. If you have any questions feel free to write them here or if you want to point out my mistakes don't hesitate. I'M OPENED TO CRITICISM.
Also I know I screwed up the age thing once she was seventeen then the other time she was eighteen, but yeah lets just say eighteen are her korean age.
Oh, and btw one last thing. In the last few months I came up with one more idea for Bang Chan and I'm really excited over it, so I decided to spoil every story that is currently in my draft I won't revile which one is for which idol tho.
But remember none of these are final ok?? Some sentences are actually really weird lol.
Now when Psycho is finished and all chapters are out I will feel really weird since I worked on this story for around 9 months. First to write it and plan it out, and then to publish it. I'm surprised I didn't drop it long ago already since I tend to lose motivation fast in the last 2 years. Ou, and... I guess I didn't have a specific message in my head while writing it but later on I learned something from my own story.
All the mistakes you did in the past, big or small will always lead you to something greater. You might have a lot of regrets and hate yourself for the thighs you did in the past but if those feeling are actually there, it means you learned something, and you shouldn't beat yourself up to much over something that has already passed. Just be happy with who you are now and keep working on improving yourself. I guess I can say this because I can relate to Jieun a lot in this story and because I have a hard time of letting the past go on my own but I try to live the best way I can, to do everything I want to do and follow my guts as much as I want.
Don't listen to what the world tells you, because it doesn't always tell you the right answer.
Thank you for reading this and I hope you have a nice day/night. A goodnight/morning... aren't those two the same...?? ANYWAY, treat yourself to something nice once in a while, eat that can of ice-cream in one day. Go out in your pyjamas, sing your heart out in public, stick your tongue out at that little kid, hit the person that gets on your nerves, BUY THAT ALBUM (me who is broke but still orders the new skz album limited and standard version.), go run outside in the rain and catch the biggest cold ever, have COVID-19 we only live once we have to experience it. You live for yourself and for no one else who cares what they think.
Do everything you wanna do today, you never know what's gonna happen tomorrow. It might be your last.
THANK YOU FOR STICKING WITH ME!! I LOVE YOU!!
.. btw, I'm watching a reply of JK's vlive right now. I think he's in his pyjamas.
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I'm happy to announce that on the 7th of February Psycho reached 10k reads which is fabulous haha.
I wasn't in the best mood on the 7th so I didn't wanna write a fake message, but now I'm thanking you guys.