Jada
I adjust the collar of Jackâs black wool blazer in the elevator on the way up to the office the following Friday. âSuit porn take two!â I tease.
Heâs in Prada today; underneath the jacket, he wears a gray sweater vest over a pinstripe cotton shirt and wool trousers.
He yanks me to him and kisses me deep. âDid you dress me in this just to taunt Renata?â he mumbles into my mouth before moving onto my neck.
âThirty-percent to taunt Renata, thirty-percent for our meeting and forty-percent for me,â I say.
âI want a hundred,â he whispers. âI need a hundred percent of you right now, in the supply closet.â
I push him away, laughing. âFirst of all, that doesnât make sense, and second, we almost ruined this suit once this morning. This is the big sale, Jack. If we make this, weâre home free. They canât close us next week.â I fix his tie. âWe got this.â
The door opens. He grabs my hand. We always have to be touching lately. Iâve never experienced this feeling of being so happy with somebody that I want to be touching him all the time. Some nights we stay up way too late talking. Thereâs always something more to say, a new topic we havenât covered.
Or else sex.
Or else talking about how great the sex was after the sex. Or just how lucky we are to have found each other.
In short, weâre disgustingly into each other.
He actually asked me the other day if things were going too well. Like if things were suspiciously too good. âDonât you worry?â he asked.
He was serious. Itâs the messed-up way he was brought up. Happiness as part of a transaction. Good things always came with a cost for Jack.
Iâd climbed into his lapâa place I spend an inordinate amount of time these days. âI believe in us,â Iâd said. âWeâre in it together, no matter what.â
Heâd tucked my hair back behind my ear like he does, looking intense. He was so aloof when I first met him. Nothing mattered to him. Nothing touched him. I didnât realize there were worlds inside him.
They say a cynic is a wounded idealist. Iâve come to think that maybe a villain is just a wounded saint.
âFuck. You,â Renata says when she catches sight of Jack. âFuck the fuck out of both of you. Thatâs what I have to say.â
Jack chuckles and I make a pouty face. Renata sticks out her tongue at us and we all get to work. Fridays tend to be lighter, even with the chronic understaffing weâre facing. Our appointment at Nobella is at four. We havenât figured out an excuse to tell Bert yet. Lacey thinks heâll be out of the office by then, and people can pretend we stayed and punch us out in absentia.
Bert leaves even earlier than we hoped. Renata sees him pull out of his usual space out front. âBert just left,â she says. Itâs two in the afternoon, and sheâs by the window that overlooks the VIP parking area. âBye, asshole,â she says.
The whole office relaxes. Renata and Dave push Keith to the window.
âKeith needs to be soaking up sunshine for two now,â Dave says.
âDonât forget to move him back at the end of the day,â I say. âWe wonât be here to help you remember.â
âWe wonât forget,â Renata says.
Mackenzie wanders over. âWe are so nailing this.â She leans in and lowers her voice. âI talked to my friend at Hilfiger and she said Nobellaâs nailing down their spring line right now. We got in just under the wire. If they seem hesitant, I might offer a discount.â
âDonât do it,â Jack says, coming over. âTheyâre not buying on price.â
âRight,â she says. âI keep reverting back to the discount shit.â
âIf they donât love the bag, theyâre assholes who donât deserve the bag,â he reminds us. âTheyâre lucky weâre even considering them.â
âThank god youâre coming,â Mackenzie says. âYouâre our secret sauce.â
âI didnât even do anything at the last meeting,â he says. âIâm just telling how it is.â
âYouâre our secret sauce,â Mackenzie insists. âThese buyers are like horses. They sense confidence. By sitting there being how you are, you help us get in the right mindset. The mindset of: This bag is too good for you!â
Everybodyâs excited. We are going to have a whale of a celebration once we save the company. One more week to go.
As far as Renata and Dave and the rest of my co-workers know, weâre only saving the company to fight another day, or the next accounting period, as it were.
Jack and I know the truthâif we can pull this off, heâll be able to void the contract with Bloxburn and kick themâand Bertâto the curb.
Weâre debating taking a cab over and when to leave.
Thatâs when Bert walks in. He strolls around, wearing an expression of smug suspicion.
A dead hush falls over the place. People creep back to their assigned places.
Where did he come from? He was supposed to be gone! Did he move his car to fool us? Did he sense weâre hiding something? Weâre hiding a lot of somethings.
Bertâs walking up the row of cubicles, away from the project area. âWhereâs Lacey?â he asks.
Is that why heâs here? Did he figure out that weâre protecting Lacey? Letting her nap or even possibly leave early sometimes?
He turns and stands in the front of the room. âI asked a question. Where the hell is Lacey?â Heâs scanning all of our faces.
Nobody speaks.
âA funny thing about people who are keeping secrets,â he continues. âThey always give themselves away. For example, Iâve noticed a few of you glancing over at the small meeting room. What might I find in there?â
I grimace as he strolls over to the small meeting room. Out the corner of my eye, I see Jack standing up. I look over and catch his eye. I shake my head. This is no time to be a hothead.
Bert flings open the door to the small meeting room. âRise and shine!â he barks.
A few minutes later, a weeping Lacey is cleaning out her desk. âSleeping on the job. Not permitted,â he crows. âDoes anybody else want to help me reduce payroll expenses?â Heâs walking around again.
My heart breaks for Lacey. I canât believe he fired her. I try to catch her eye, to somehow assure her sheâs not alone.
Bert slows, and then he turns toward the window. Thatâs when he sees Keith.
I hear Renata inhale sharply.
Bert takes his time walking over to where Keith basks in his little sunbeam, listing slightly in his sad clay pot.
We all rise from our cubicles, watching.
âDid I or did I not instruct you to put this thing in the break room?â Bert turns around, addressing us all. âMy directive was clear, was it not? There is not to be anything obstructing this window.â He turns back around. âSo why is this thing here?â
My heart beats like a bongo. Keith just got that little bud. Is Bert gonna banish him to an even worse place than the breakroom? Like a janitorial closet where heâll never see the sun?
Heâs still too fragile for us to pick up and move across the city in the cold, blustery weather. Jackâs glowering at Bert.
Slowly, Bert walks up to Keith. He stands right in front of him. âWhyâs this piece of shit even in the office?â
I stiffen. Why is Bert so down on Keith? Itâs not like Keith takes up that much room.
And then, all in a blur of speed, Bert swings his leg and gives Keith a ruthlessly hard kick.
The blow lands on Keithâs lower third with a sickening thwick. Keith practically explodes. I gasp. Bits of cactus fly across the room, landing on the carpet.
Keith, or whatâs left of him, is just a little stub sticking out of a pot.
I clap my hand over my mouth.
âHis bud!â Shondrella squeaks.
Bert turns, smirking. âThat was incredibly satisfying, I have to say.â His smirk quickly turns to alarm, however, when he sees Jack beelining toward him.
âJack, no!â I run over and get between them and set my hands on Jackâs chest. âNo.â
Jackâs face is pure fury. âOut of my way.â
âForget it!â I say. âIgnore him. Donât do this.â
âHe fucking kicks him?â Jack growls.
âWhatâs the problem, prettyboy?â Bert says. âYou sad about your widdle pwant?â
Jack surges at Bert, but I hold him back with the help of Dave. âDonât wreck this,â I say.
Bertâs smiling. Heâs doing it on purposeâthat much is clear.
âYouâll ruin everything, Jack,â I say. âItâs the wrong move.â
âItâs the only move Iâve got,â Jack says.
âWhat about us? We need you, Jack!â I say. âWeâre a family!â
Bertâs laughing. âDid somebody say something about a bud?â He crunches a section under his boot. âOops.â
Thereâs no more holding Jack. He surges at Bert. His fist flashes powerfully, almost too fast to see.
Thereâs a weird, suspended moment when Bertâs face shows nothing but surprise. For that split second, I can almost trick myself into thinking that everythingâs just fine.
Then, in the next moment, Bert stumbles back and falls to the ground, almost in slo-mo.
âCome on, you bully prick, get up!â Jack says. âYou beat up on a poor, defenseless cactus, but you wonât fight me? Come on. Iâll give you two free ones!â
âJack, no!â I scream. âStop it!â
Suddenly, everything goes into fast-forward. Bertâs on his feet, going at Jack, throwing punches, one after another. Jack bobs and weaves. Bertâs fist never connects.
Jack dives in and tackles him low at the hips. In a flash, Bertâs on his back, and Jack is on his chest, one knee on either side, drawing back his fist, about to pound Bertâs face.
Dave rushes in and grabs Jackâs arm.
âStop it, Jack!â I plead, even though I can see heâs gone fully feral. âPlease! Youâre ruining everything!â
âGood,â Jack growls, lost in fury, struggling to get loose from Dave and get back to Bert.
I rush in and help Dave. Renata helps, too. Somehow, we get him off Bert.
Bertâs face is bloody and angry. He has his phone out. âNobody is leaving! Iâm calling the police, and youâre all witnesses.â
âWhat have you done?â I breathe.
Jackâs nostrils flare. âWhat Iâve wanted to do for a long time.â Itâs like a switch flipped.
âThis isnât you!â Even as I say it, I can see that thereâs something different about Jack. Something cold and calm. Like heâs gotten a dose of some drug. Heâs expressionless, his eyes blank, his body tense and angry. In an instant I donât recognize the man Iâve grown so close to.
âThat was very me,â he says.
Security rushes up. Bert instructs them to subdue Jack. Theyâre clearly confused, because Jack is just standing there, acting all weary and unperturbed. And blank. Totally blank.
He offers to sit in a chair by the door, and he plays on his phone, unruffled. I keep trying to make eye contact with him, but itâs as if heâs beyond reach.
Lacey is sobbing, cleaning up her stuff with Varshaâs help.
Mackenzie comes up to me. âWe have to slip out of here or weâll miss Nobella. No way will they let us reschedule.â
âGo with Shondrella,â I whisper. Shondrella is already putting on her coat.
Renata comes and grabs my arm.
âNobody goes anywhere until this is finished,â Bert barks.
âDamn,â she whispers.