Chapter 2

A perfect face looks deeply at me without showing any feelings. Now I am afraid of him, like the others. What am I supposed to do? I don't know the difference between Khun Sam now and Khun Sam ten years ago. Because the last time I met her, she was grinning from ear to ear. But now it is rare to see a smile on his face, as if he was hiding it.

If I tell you the truth, will you blame me for trying to get close to me?

No, denying is better.

"Good evening, Khun Sam?"

I greet her awkwardly, because in situations like this, I have to be polite. Khun Sam accepts my compliments and looks at me.

"I read the article in your interview, so I think you like dogs."

"Yes, I gave an interview, but I told you that I like cats."

"Um... I must have misunderstood." I raise my clumsy hand to tuck my hair behind my ear.

"Even if it is about cats or dogs, you are a person who likes animals."

"It's different. Have we met before?" The question makes my heart race as my eyes meet his.

It's like we've been fighting and I'm the first to give in.

I can't fight, she's too powerful.

"We may have never met before."

"Can we? What do you mean?"

"It's my first day working here. I saw you before, but I'm not sure you saw me." I responded compromisingly. And she nods in agreement.

"Oh yeah, you're the new intern, Bunny."

The word 'Bunny' makes me feel that the ML Boss, who everyone fears, is adorable. I smile unconsciously and look at her again. Did I do something wrong? Because she takes a step away from me and loses control.

"Are you OK?"

When I almost reach her, she rushes to avoid me;

"I'm fine. Maybe I'm a little drunk or maybe I just got tired of the smell from the bathroom." Then he walks out the door, but halfway there and turns to me. "Don't we really know each other?"

"If we had met, you would remember me, right?"

"It's true."

For a moment she looks confused and heads towards the bathroom exit. I'm trying to control myself not to show my enthusiasm. When he leaves, I lose control, fall to the ground and almost pass out.

Geez... I met her unexpectedly. Also, we talk a lot.

I'm afraid my beautiful boss heard my heartbeat during our conversation. It was so exciting. I was hoping to meet you tonight, but that was so much more.

It's so good. I am not disappointed to work here.

"You can't stop smiling. Did you see her? The one you've been waiting for so long." My mom who is waiting at home starts to smell me. "You drank?"

Just socially, Mom.” I smile at her and nod back. “I met Khun Sam, I'm so excited!”

"It's not strange to be excited when you meet your idol. How did it go?"

"Ah..." I look through my eyes for a moment because I don't know how to respond. "Everything can change, including Khun Sam. And I didn't know her well, she only smiled at me once."

"You know her more than anyone else. I collected and kept everything about her from magazines and interviews, I'll show her one day."

"You won't get this chance, she'll never get close to me. She's like a pop star and I'm just a fan of yours. All I can do is follow her for inspiration. That's all."

I feel that you are as sad as you are heartbroken."

"No, I'm not. We talked a lot today." I told. "But we won't get a chance to talk again. She's the boss and I'm just an intern."

"Khun Sam is not a bad girl. She often came here to ask about the dog, Tiger. And when she graduated, she kept coming back. Didn't you tell her that her tiger had died?"

"She didn't know me."

"I knew him. You said that she smiled at you and reached up to touch your head. That's why you loved her so much."

"That was ten years ago. She doesn't remember me."

"Don't tell him you're my daughter."

"I don't want to be blamed for trying to get close to her."

"You're making this too complicated. Just do what you want. It's late. Go take a shower. We'll talk tomorrow."

I agree and head to the shower. My house is small and old. It wouldn't be better for my mother's salary, a poor janitor. We pay the rent on this house. If something has changed, it's because now I'm older and I work. Also, my first paycheck will be released this month so I can help her pay.

Today, though unexpectedly, it was moving. As I head to the shower, I pull out my collection of articles to read Khun Sam's interview... I'm her biggest fan and she'll never know how much I adore her... For a long time... twelve years ago.

When I was in fourth grade and Khun Sam was in third grade, we were eight years apart. It was a big age difference. Khun Sam was a high school student at a famous girls' school. If you were not rich or from a prestigious family, you would hardly get into that school.

Difficult conditions come from the choice of society.

If you study at Triam Udom school (the highest ranked school in Thailand), you will have friends who are likely to become doctors, politicians, and developers. But if you are studying in a fancy private school, you will have millionaire friends.

My mother and I felt like strangers in this high society school. My mother was a janitor and I was the janitor's daughter. I used to go see my mother every afternoon after school.

In this school, they had their own society, but it wasn't that they didn't use profanity like teenagers in general. I enjoyed watching the older female students in long skirts sarcastically talk about the boys from other schools.

Sexuality is just an exception in every kind of society. Because it's all about hormones.

This is an all-girls school, so the girls decided to bond in a loving way, whether it was just a trend or not. I loved to see when the brides walked hand in hand. They had beautiful skin and a lot of charm... It could be the good food, like their skin said 'I'm rich', or something.

To me... it was like she was a girl from the slums.

And this school was also the royal school, full of the king's great-great-grandchildren. One of them was Khun Sam. I met her because the dog, named 'Baixinha', gave birth and they asked my mother to bring the puppies to school. Khun Sam did not agree with the opinion of others and took Tiger, the ugliest cub, to his home. But her parents wouldn't let her, so she brought it back with tears in her eyes.

"I can't take him home, aunt. Please take care of him."

Although she was a third year, she cried like a child. My mother, out of respect for her position, calmed her down and agreed to take Tiger home.

"Your parents don't allow it?"

"No... I don't know what to do. It hurts. I'm afraid it won't have a chance to grow."

My mother laughed at the way Khun Sam avoided using the word "die." I was watching the scene for a while, I decided to pull my mother's shirt to get her attention and said something innocently.

"Mother... take the puppy home. Poor thing, when she cries, she's not pretty."

I can remember that Khun Sam looked at me for a moment. When my mother saw her cry and heard what I told her, she decided to take 'Tiger' home.

"I'll take it home, but I can't keep it. If I get sick, I'll have to…"

"I'll help you." Khun Sam looked at me and grinned from ear to ear. "Thank you very much, bunny."

Palpitation...

Palpitation...

My heart raced at that moment, especially when he placed his hand on my head. I told myself what a stunning girl she was. Although he smiled through tears, the world became brighter.

Since that day... She became my idol...

What was he studying? How tall is she? What were your favorite subjects? What did you like to eat? I found out about it in magazine interviews. Because she is from the famous royal family, she has always been in the spotlight. Although she is not as beautiful as a pop star, she has good taste, intelligence, and beauty.

She dreamed of having a kindergarten and loved to write. He knew a lot about her.

But it's better to keep it a secret. If he finds out, it won't be good.

"Today, you should go up to her and tell her that you missed her."

My mom doesn't give up. The next morning he keeps telling me to go see Khun Sam and tell him this long story.

"No mother."

"Don't worry, I think she'll be happy and curious to know about Tiger. She might miss me, and this is a good chance to learn from her."

After saying that, he places the image of Tiger in my hand.

"Do you have a picture of Tiger?"

"I took this photo with my cell phone and printed it at a printer. This is a good opportunity to get closer to her."

"But..."

"Come." She pulls me out like Khun Sam is waiting for me. "Hurry, hurry up. It's late, you'll be late."

She forces me to talk to her, like it's that easy. Everyone in the office knows full well that the ML Chief is not a welcoming person, and that perception is controlling me right now.

But I want to get closer to her. We talked yesterday, and she's not a bad girl.

I can't concentrate on work all day. I keep looking at his living room and the picture of Tiger my mom gave me. I have a small hope that Tiger will inspire her to talk to me.

"Tiger... If you can hear me, please help me talk to Khun Sam today."

Then I focus on work again until 6 pm. Everyone goes home. And now it's just the two of us in the office, and yes... Khun Sam is still in his office.

My house is far away, but I really want to talk to her. Should I knock on the door and ask him? I'm confused and don't know what to do, but I finally decide to knock on his door.

knock Knock knock

"Khun Sam, excuse me, can I come in?

Silence...

I almost give up, but something tells me to open the door, and all I see is her head resting on the table, like she's fallen asleep. I don't want to wake her. So I decide to leave his room.

I'd better go home, but I'm too worried for that.

However, when I decide to leave, I hear someone say something in a low voice. And it's just her and me in the office.

"Help me."

"I can help?"

"I have no pills. My head hurts."

I look back and see her lying on the ground.

"Khun Sam!"