Chapter 21: Chapter 20 ~ Home Sweet Home

Jay’s P.O.V

When we all returned home I ran upstairs and hopped into the shower letting the boiling water relax my tense muscles. I hadn’t spoken a word to anyone after Sebastian died; everyone was looking at me with concern. While everyone was smiling and cheerful, I was frowning and my eyes were like stone, I was showing no emotion. I couldn’t really blame them for being concerned we had beaten the rouges and I was the only one that wasn’t happy about that but then none of them had been there when Sebastian died, they didn’t hear his last words. They all thought that it was over. Boy, were they in for a surprise when I tell them the news. I know I should have probably told Penny or Alpha Sage straight away but I desperately wanted some time to myself to think.

I was in a sombre mood, I was angry at myself. I had let myself get kidnapped, put the packs in danger and I was responsible for the lives we lost last night. Pack members searched through the bodies searching for any wolves that belonged to the packs, in total we lost 24 wolves. From my pack we only lost four members which is quite good considering that we could have lost more but it was still heart-breaking to lose a family member.

I stayed in the shower for a couple more minutes before getting out and changing into some comfy clothes, black yoga pants, a white thick jumper and white fluffy socks to match. I wasn’t going anywhere any time soon so I thought I’d try to relax.

Once I was dressed I looked at the clock on my bedside table, it was half seven in the morning. The fight had gone on into the early hours of the morning. I debated whether or not I should go and find Penny or Alpha Sage and tell them what I found out but I don’t know if they were resting.

Only one way to find out, I thought. I crept out of my room and started making my way towards Penny’s office. I was thankful that I decided to wear my fluffy socks as they muffled the sound of my feet on the wooden flooring so no one would hear me. It didn’t take me long to reach Penny’s office and I was relieved to see that Penny was still up; I could also see that she wasn’t alone. Penny was sat at her desk with Leon and sat before them was Cameron and Alpha Sage. They were all in loose fitting clothes just like I was. They obviously had the same idea that I did. None of them noticed that I was crouched hiding behind the door. I was in a prime position to hear their conversation.

“I’d say that last night was a big success!” Alpha Sage said triumphantly.

“I agree, although we did loss a larger number of wolves than I imagined.” Leon agreed.

"There wasn’t anything we could do, we knew that we were going to lose some but I’d say that it was better than I expected.”  Leon only nodded in response.

“Have any of you checked on Jay?” Cameron piped up.

They all shook their heads then Penny spoke. “I think she just needs some time to herself. You saw her when it was over, she looked like a zombie.”

“I suppose you’re right.” Cameron muttered. “I’m just worried about her.”

Cameron was worried about me? I know that being in the cell had brought us closer together and Cameron had said those three little words but I didn’t think he would be this worried about me. Did I really look that bad after the fight?

“I know you are Cameron but she’ll be okay. She’ll tell us what’s wrong when she’s ready.” Penny smiled reassuringly.

I guess it’s time to make myself known. I stood up from behind the door and knocked their heads swivelled round to face me. I didn’t show any emotion, I was still in my hole of nothingness and that was what I felt, nothing. No one stood up from their chairs they stayed seated and stared.

“Jay!” Penny exclaimed. “How are you doing honey? Did you get any sleep?”

“No I haven’t slept yet, what about you?” I purposely avoided her other question.

“Same here, none of us have gotten any sleep. We were all just talking.”

“Is there something on your mind Jay?” Alpha Sage asked looking at me carefully. Damn it, I cursed.

“Yeah there is but I don’t know how you guys are going to react.” I said sheepishly. So I told them what Sebastian told me with his last breath. I also told them my theory about there being other rouges packs being either in the local area or in the next state over, waiting for the perfect time to strike. I also put forward the idea that maybe there was some other kind of supernatural working for the rouges like a witch or warlock this would explain why the rouges were stronger and more in control.

“You could definitely be onto something here Jay.” Alpha Sage looked thoughtful. “Did Sebastian tell you about the rouges?”

I shook my head. “He never told us anything. He said that he would tell us everything when it was the right time.”

“The only thing we did get out of him was how Jay could enhance her powers but that was about it.” Cameron added.

Everyone was quiet all lost in their own thoughts, thinking things through.

“We have quite a problem on our hands.” Leon broke the silence.

“I wouldn’t say that exactly. I would think of this in the way we did with Cameron and Jay’s kidnapping.” Alpha Sage said.

Penny looked outraged. “It’s a completely different situation!”

“It really isn’t the only difference is that it won’t be a rescue mission so we won’t have to worry about that. However, we won’t know what these rouges are like. If there is a witch or warlock working with them we are going to have to be extremely careful.” Alpha Sage tried to reassure Penny.

“So what do you suggest we do?”

“We go back to what we were doing before Cameron and Jay were taken. We train.”

I went quiet again. I could see in their eyes that they agreed with Alpha Sage but they were going through everything in their minds to reassure themselves.

“Alright then, we go back to what we were doing beforehand. We don’t know when they are going to attack so we need to be prepared for everything and anything.” Penny reluctantly agreed. “I suggest we all head off to bed, it’s been a long night. Training will take place in a couple of days I think everyone needs a rest.”

Penny, Leon and Alpha Sage departed from the office leaving Cameron and I behind. I stood awkwardly just in the doorway and Cameron remained seated. I was starting to feel self-conscious as he kept staring at me, my jumper showed off a section of my belly and my yoga pants were resting low on my hips. I could see the lust in Cameron’s eyes.

Cameron slowly got up from the chair and walked, well more liked stalked over to me. He stood so close that our noses were almost touching.

“I was worried about you Jay.” Cameron whispered his warm hand rested on my cheek. I happily leaned into his touch.

“I heard.” I smiled.

"Please don’t scare me like that again. If anything is bothering you, you know you can talk to me about it.”

“I’m sorry and I will next time.”

His hand was still on my cheek keeping my face warm, his eyes kept looking from my eyes to my lips. I knew he wanted to kiss me, heck I wanted to kiss him. I’ve always wondered what it would be like to feel his lips on mine. He slowly started to lean in giving me time to back out of it but I didn’t move. He must have understood because the next thing I knew his lips were on mine. The kiss was slow and gentle, his lips were so soft and perfect against mine. Through the kiss I could feel that he was fighting against his wolf to make the kiss more passionate so I did the honours for him. I wrapped my arm around his neck pulling him closer to me, I scraped my teeth and swiped my tongue over his bottom lip asking, begging for entrance. From that point on Cameron took control, I could hear the satisfied purr in the back of his throat and I suspected he heard my slight moan because I could feel him smile. Out tongues battled against each other but because this was Cameron we were talking about he was in full control. His arms had snaked around my waist and his hands were underneath my jumper drawing circles on my back. All too soon we both had to pull away for air. Cameron’s forehead was leaning against my own, we were both breathing heavily and his eyes were sparkling.

“I’ve been waiting for so long to do that.” Cameron smiled at me.

"You’re not the only one.” I admitted.

Cameron was shocked his eyes were wide like saucers. “Really?”

I nodded then reached up on my tiptoes and pecked him on the lips. When I pulled back I smiled wide up at him, it felt like my face was going to split in two.

“I could get used to this.” Cameron murmured against my lips as he captured them in another kiss.

I sighed, he wasn’t the only one.

He pulled away. When I opened my eyes Cameron had a serious expression plastered over his face.

“I know we haven’t really been able to talk about this, us I mean considering the circumstances but I really want to talk about it. I know no matter how many times I say that I’m sorry it’s not going to put everything right but I meant everything I said when we were locked up in that cell. I love you Jay. I’ve always loved you even before I found out you were my mate. I was a dumb jock back then; I was too worried about my reputation to act on my feelings. I thought I need someone that wasn’t you but really it was the other way around. I only needed you.” His eyes were moist and I could see the water building up. “We have a couple of days before everything kicks off again with the training and I was wondering if you’d like to spend time together, get to know each other and to start afresh.”

I didn’t reply straight away because I was in shock. I knew that he loved me now but I would never have guessed that he loved me before we even found out we were mates. This was turning out to be some kind of fairy-tale or perhaps even a dream.

Cameron’s face dropped when he still didn’t get a reply. His arms dropped from around my waist and hung limply by his sides. He took a step away and went to step around me. Before he could get away from me I grabbed his arm and spun him round so he was facing me once again. I didn’t give him time to pull away; I took a hold of his t-shirt and pulled his face to mine. I kissed him with so much passion and need that I felt overwhelmed.

I pulled away, our lips were swollen. “Does that answer your question?”

“Definitely.” Cameron grinned. “We better get off to bed; we both need to get some rest.” He took my hand and we quietly made our way to our bedrooms.

We stood outside my bedroom door but Cameron was taking his time, he was playing with my fingers.

"I’ll see you later.” He leaned in a kissed my cheek, he let go of my hand and began to turn away. My hand felt cold without his touch and my cheek was tingling from his kiss.

“Cameron wait.” He turned back around to face me. “Can you stay with me?” I blushed. I felt like a school girl crushing on the popular guy.

“Are you sure?” Cameron asked unsure he looked nervous.

I nodded. I took his hand in my own and led him into my bedroom. He let go of my hand while I went into my walk-in wardrobe to change into my pyjamas which consisted of a vest top and shorts, I get too hot otherwise. When I returned Cameron was already in my bed with his abs on full display looking rather comfy and his clothes were discarded on the floor in a heap.

“You certainly made yourself at home.” I chuckled getting into my bed myself.

“Your bed is so comfy I couldn’t help myself.” He ginned at me. I just rolled my eyes and got myself settled underneath the covers. I was facing the wall with my back to Cameron, I felt so awkward to be sharing a bed with him, and this is new territory for me.

Cameron must have thought that I was asleep because his arm wrapped around my waist pulling me closer to his chest. I could feel his breath on the back of my neck and his lips near the area where I would bear his mark. He kissed the area between my collar bone and my neck lightly then trailed kisses up to my ear. I fought to hold back a moan.

"Thank you for giving me a chance, I won’t let you down.” Cameron whispered then placed another kiss on my mark area, this kiss lasted longer than the first one. Cameron sighed. I could easily guess what was running through his mind. He wished that I was wearing his mark. I thought about it myself since being locked up with Cameron for a few days we had grown closer and got to know each other a little bit. There was still a long way to go between us but maybe I should let him mark me before it was too late.