Light flurries fell from the sky, my headlights hitting them directly and making them look like cold little fireflies. I kept both hands on the wheel despite the aggressive urge to grip Loreleiâs thigh the entire ride home. After the run-in with the deer, I wanted us safe.
Plus⦠there was no guarantee what Iâd do once I touched her again.
âGod, she is the best.â Lorelei laughed against her fist, the trill of her amusement filling the silence in a fun twinkle. She snorted a few more times, her fingers moving over her phone fast before she stared up at me. âDude, this video has thousands of likes already.â
âYou posted it?â
âSure did. Added a viral song in the background, and a few filters that were trending, and hashtagged it up. She is a hit.â She leaned back in the seat, hugged the phone to her chest, and let out a squeal. âThis is the most fun I have ever had.â
âWhat is?â My chest got that funny feeling again, like the time I downed too many cheese fries at three in the morning. Did she mean⦠me?
âThis whole experience with your grandma and the adventures of getting up there. I know this will be difficult for you to relate to as football is your life, but soccer isnât who I am, just a part of me. I love it. Iâve always loved it. But there was no thought of playing beyond college. But marketing? Creating campaigns and meeting people? Doing good? This fulfills a part of me I didnât know I had. I wake up excited to try new things and explore ideas. I know this is for an internship, but I think⦠this helped me figure out what I want to do in my life.â
âAnd what is that, Lo?â
âI want to do promotions with genuine, real people for good causes. No fake bullshit, no lying, no politicians. Yikes.â She cringed and made a gagging sound. âAnything but them.â
âSo, you found your next steps.â
âYes. I didnât know they were missing, per se, but they werenât solid, and it feels⦠settled. Good. Calming, in a way. You have football and the NFL, and Dean too plans to go pro, and even my girl Mack wants to stay in soccer, but this feels more me.â
I couldnât stop myself. I patted her thigh, squeezing above her knee in a way I hope conveyed my support. âGood on you.â
âYeah. Good on me.â She smiled, her nose scrunched and her joy almost tangible around her. âOh, and would you believe the audacity of this bitch?â
âEric? What did he say?â
âOh, I meant my brother, but shit. I forgot to read his text.â
âRead it.â
âThat was a little aggressive with that tone, Monroe. A little bossy.â She smirked, a twinkle catching her eye before I moved my hand up her thigh. âOh, is this one of those things where you punish me?â
âWait, what?â My mouth fell open. âPunish?â
âDid you ever play that game in high school? A dude would put his hands here and go up slowly if the girl didnât want to answer the question? Something like that? The guy who went the furthest won?â
I wanna play. âUm, did you ever play?â
âNo. I never got a chance to because feelingsââ
âLetâs do this.â
âYouâre driving.â
âThe snow let up, and Iâll be safe, I promise.â I cleared my throat, my cock already hardening at the thought of teasing her. âBe a good girl and slide your pants down, Lorelei.â
Her breathing picked up, and she let out the tiniest little sigh as she did as I asked. I wanted to eat that sigh. âSo how does this work? I ask a question, and if you donât answer, I move up your thigh?â
âYes.â
I glanced over at her. Her thighs were spread out, but her shirt covered her pussy, so I didnât know what color panties she had on. âWhat color panties are you wearing?â
âIs that a question?â
âYes.â
âI donât want to say.â
Fuck. Hot. I slid my fingers up a few inches, my pulse racing like there were two seconds on the clock and the game came down to a field goal.
âWhat did Ericâs text say?â
âYou want to ask me that with your fingers an inch away of discovering if Iâm wearing panties or not?â
âYouâre notâ¦â I swallowed, hard. âYou donât have any on?â
âIâm not answering that.â
âGoddamn it, Lo.â I moved my finger up more, my knuckles grazing the outside of her bare pussy. I sucked in a breath. âDangerous. You are a dangerous woman.â
She grinned at me. âRemember that.â
I growled, quickly grazing her clit with my finger. She groaned and rocked against it, but I stopped. âThe text. What did he say?â
âThat he wants to talk, apologize.â
There were no cars coming down the interstate, and thank god for that. It was nothing but us, my truck, and my headlights on the road, and I had half a mind to pull over and lick her entire body right now. The squirming, the roughness to her voice, the fact she didnât wear goddamn panties. She had me twisted up.
âAnd what did you respond back?â
She sucked in a breath, her hand coming down and gripping my forearm. âI donât want to answer.â
âMm are you keeping things from me, or are you greedy?â
âI donât want to answer.â
âThatâs two moves I get, right?â
My cock physically hurt with how turned on I was. I ran my thumb over her clit before swirling it until she groaned. Then I stopped. âThat was one.â
âThis game sucks.â
âIâm quite fond of it.â
She snickered as I dipped a finger into her, teasing, then pulled out.
âFuck.â She hissed. âHow far until weâre home?â
âFifteen minutes.â
âI wonât last that long, not like this.â
âYes you will, baby. I wonât give you a choice.â I then took the finger that was just inside her and sucked it in my mouth. âFilthy.â
She shuddered and gasped my name.
âNew rules.â I returned my hand to her. âIf you donât respond to my question, I take my fingers away. How about that?â
âIs this some sexy torture?â
âIt is now. I want answers, Lo.â
Adjusting my grip on the wheel with my other hand, I continued slowly teasing her while I prepared my question. âWhy didnât you ever play this game?â
âUm.â She squirmed against my finger. âDonât you stop, Iâm answering.â
âCanât hear you.â
âFeelings and sex are⦠hard for me to separate.â
âMm, how so?â I pinched right where she needed it, and she threw her head back against the seat. Her throaty sounds were better than a sports highlight.
âI never⦠hooked up with someone I wasnât with.â
âWhy?â Did that mean she didnât want to continue this because we werenât together?
âTrust, I think.â
âDo you trust me, Lorelei?â I went harder, faster, bringing her to the brink. She gripped the armrests, and her face twisted in pleasure. âAnswer me.â
âYes, Luca. Please.â
I gave her what she needed, and she fell apart on my hand. Gripping my forearm, she bucked and moaned as my cock fucking throbbed. Pre-come spread through my pants, but I didnât care. Lorelei screamed out her orgasm in my car, next to me, on the road, and I couldnât imagine a sexier image to remain in my head forever.
I let her ride my hand, giving her what she required before she stilled. âYouâre fucking hot when you come on me.â
âYour mouth, Luca. I swear to god.â She laughed and rested her forehead on the window. Her breathing came out heavy, almost like mine, like the orgasm took everything from her. âYou talk filthy like this on the field too?â
âNo. Just to you.â
âWell shit, youâre making me feel special now.â She pulled up her pants and adjusted them to look normal. Besides the slight heavy panting, no one would know Iâd made her orgasm with just my fingers. Pride filled me.
âGood.â
She snorted, the sound pleasant and familiar. âYou can tell me Iâm a good girl who comes on your fingers without issue, yet youâre all one-word syllables everywhere else?â
âForgive me, Lo, my cock is hard as a rock, and I want you to sit on my face the second we get home. All my words are used up.â
She popped her lips, clapped her hands twice, and nodded. âAlrighty then. Drive faster.â
âThereâs a fucking party?â Lorelei stared out the window, groaning as people flooded our front lawn. The living room door was wide open, groups spilling out. âDean said he was having some people over. People. People is like ten max. This isâ¦â
âMore than ten, yeah.â I ran my hand over my jaw, my muscles tensing. I wasnât against parties on nights off, but Dean usually let me know. Fuck. Did he and I missed it? I pulled my pocket from the charging spot and winced. Sure enough, there were texts from them an hour ago.
Dean: I need a distraction. Can we party tonight? Iâll clean up tomorrow.
Oliver: Iâm in.
Callum: If I ever say no, know Iâve been taken
Dean: Luca, that cool with you? Iâll block off your hall.
âAre you alright with it?â Lorelei asked me, her voice small. âI can see if Dean will kick people out if itâs too much. I knowââ
âYouâre worried about me.â
âWell yes. Itâs not a game night.â She ran her teeth over her bottom lip, concern etching itself all over her face. Her nose wrinkled, and the line between her brows dipped. Her wild hair cascaded over her shoulders.
âI was worried about you.â I played with the ends of her hair, the same tight feeling in my chest expanding. I stretched well yesterday so there was no reason to be sore, but the sensation wasnât pleasant. Rubbing my hand over it, I cleared my throat. âSeeing you worry about me⦠it makes me want to kiss you.â
And be with her despite football and Dean and my future.
âYeah?â She arched a brow. âThen you better find me. In there. But be careful.â She leaned over the console, nipped my bottom lip, and dove out of the car before I could stop her.
âHey, Lo! Wait!â
She winked, and goddamn it, that little gesture shouldâve been the final clue that I was so fucking fucked. I parked the truck in a daze, still horny from making her come but also dizzy with how much she cared about people. From her brother to her team to my grandma to me⦠her heart had to be ten times bigger than mine.
She couldnât separate feelings and sex because of trust. That meant she trusted me. That came with additional guilt because no matter what happened, Iâd always pick football. She knew that. Accepted it. But what did she trust me with then? Her heart?
Stop using your excuses, idiot. I ignored the intrusive thought, damn well aware I was leaning on the football defense because it was easy. Letting her in meant I could get hurt again. I knew what I felt like to be left behind. Why the hell would I put myself in a position to give someone that power? My parents had crushed me. This was no different.
âShe has that effect on people.â Dean leaned against the back porch, his hands in his hoodie pocket. I jumped, not aware my teammate could see me.
What if I kissed his sister? In front of him?
For the first time in years, the thought of breaking my own code seemed like a good option. Would he really tackle me in front of everyone? No.
I studied his expression, my reactions based on his offense here. He didnât seem mad, curious almost. âWhat do you mean?â
âMy sister.â He smiled, shaking his head as he stared off toward the back alley where we stored the trash. âWe give each other crap a lot, but sheâs one of my favorite people ever. Thereâs nothing I wouldnât do for her.â
âYouâre both lucky.â I pocketed my hands, my stomach downright caving in on itself. Did he know? Was he guessing? Was this a warning?
âI feel that way about you too, you know.â He rocked back on his heels, his gaze slicing into me.
âWhat are you trying to say?â Shit. Shit. I didnât want to hash this out even though I wanted Lo desperately. If we talked about thisâthat meant I had to be honest with her and try, something that terrified me. Giving someone the opportunity to hold my heart in their hands.
âI never thought I had to worry about you. Callum? Yes. Oliver? Sure. But Luca Monroe? Never.â He ran a hand down his face, groaning. âFuck.â
Some people panicked in a fight or flight moment but never me. My gaze became heightened, my focus better. The sounds of cars miles away faded, and every hint of expression on his face was a clue. His eyes were a bit lazy, like heâd been drinking. He said he wanted a distraction, so he hosted a party on a night that wasnât a game.
Did he need a distraction from this, or was something else going on?
âWhat exactly do you think happened?â
âYou and Lorelei?â
âAgain, what do you think happened? Youâre insinuating shit and talking in circles, but youâre not actually accusing me of anything. You told me recently you were glad she made me happy since weâve been friends.â
âYou both got out of your car.â
âYeah, because we drove to see my grandma together, like weâve done a handful of times for her project. She needs to kick her exâs ass, and sheâs helping out my family in the process.â My pulse raced.
âWait, what about this ex?â
I held up my hands. âYou canât sit there and ask me questions about your sister when you clearly arenât in the right headspace. Somethingâs wrong, I can feel it. If you wanna talk about it, Iâm game. If not, thatâs okay too. What do you need?â
Dean closed his eyes and pulled the ends of his hair before meeting my eyes. âI want to play beer pong and not talk about a goddamn meaningful thing.â
âThen thatâs what weâll do.â
âYouâre the best type of person, Luca. Iâm sorry I accused you of anything. God, Iâm a dick. Youâd never do that to me.â Dean leaned in for a bro hug, and I swallowed down the lie and guilt.
He needed me. I just hoped Lorelei understood why I bailed on her for the night.