Y/N'S POV-
I don't remember much after that point as I must have passed out pretty hard. When i finally open my eyes the following day and they adjust to my surroundings I realise that I am lay on a medical bed
R- "Your finally awake.. I was getting a little concerned" I sat up holding my forehead and saw Ravi stood next to my bed
Y/N- "What happened??"
R- "You passed out cold. We aren't sure what happened but it seems like you endured a hit to the head"
I sit for a minute silently trying to recall what happened
R- "When you are better, Lucilla wishes to see you" he says checking my temperature. Lucilla? My memories suddenly came flooding back as I stumbled off the bed
Y/N- "I need to go now- Ravi" He tries to put me back into bed
R- "Your not ready.. you need more rest" I feel this impulsive wave of anger hit
Y/N- "I'm going NOW! I can't wait any longer" I realise that I just shouted at a man trying to help me. Before he tries to stop me again I head to the door "I'm sorry Ravi.. I know you will understand"
It's a long tiring journey to the cells so i push on with all the strength I have left in my body. I wrapped a cloth around my head in the hope that it disguises my identity. I'm not sure where I stand after that last game. I reach the cells and start searching through them until I find the cell that Lucilla is being kept in. Luckily the guard had hooked the key up next to the cell door so I just let myself in
Lucilla heard the key being turned in the door so she looked up surprised to see me
L- "What do I owe the pleasure?"
Y/N- "I want answers and I'm not leaving without them" I cross my arms over my chest
L- "Please sit down.. it may be a lot to take in" I hesitate but i do as she says and sit down on a chair next to her
Y/N- "I'm fed up of not knowing who i am.. where i came from. You know who I am- You keep calling me Aelia?"
L- "I do.. because that is your birth name. I would know because- i named you" A lump forms in my throat as I choke out the words
Y/N- "Why did you name me??"
L- "I'm your mother Aelia.. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for everything" a tear drops down her face as she tries to take my hand. I shake her hand off and stand up
Y/N- "Why did you do it?! Why did you just abandon me? I was a child! I needed a mother" the words came flying out my mouth
L- "I couldn't keep you here! It was too dangerous.. I was trying to protect you"
Y/N- "Protect me from what?!"
L- "Your father!" She blurts out "Everyone who would put a mark on your head" I instantly feel sick. I don't want to ask- but I know I need to
Y/N- "And who is my father?.." the tears stream down her face heavier
L- "Your father is.. Commodus" I feel faint so I topple back into the chair
"Don't you see why I had to send you away?? Your a pure blood child. Your grandfather is Emperor Marcus Aureluis and your father is Emperor Commodus. I sent you away when you were a child and your brother Lucius when your grandfather died to protect you both! But you found eachother by yourself"
I couldn't hold the waterworks in anymore so I cried silently into my arm. I couldn't talk for a few minutes as my head is like a bombsite. So many thoughts so many questions.. the only thing I managed to get out was
Y/N- "Did he know about me?"
She shook her head
L- "No he didn't.. my brother is many things but I know he wouldn't have abandoned you. Aelia listen to me- you cant tell anyone this. You hold even more power than Lucius"
Y/N- "My name is Y/N.. and my parents are dead to me" I get up and wipe the tears from my eyes. Lucilla gets up desperately
L- "Please Aelia.. i love you, more than you will ever know. I hope you understand why I did what I did- one day" she tries to touch my arm but I walk away. I'm in too much pain to except her embrace. How could you just do that to your children? How can i be the daughter of Commodus? Am I like him?
I stumble out of the cell and watch as one of the servants dissappear around the corner. I look back at Lucilla with panic in my voice
Y/N- "I don't think it will be our secret for much longer"