Chapter 0146 Rowan Today we were having our monthly get together. The Woods and the Sharps have made this a tradition since I was about five years old.
Our families have always been close. Mainly because our motherâs have been best of friends since they were little girls.
It made logical sense that their children would end up being best friends too and that both families would be close.
âDad, why are you driving so slow? Youâre going to make us miss grandpaâs barbecue stakeâ Noah complains, his brows pulled together in irritation.
If it wasnât for Noah, I wouldnât even have gone. I used to love them. Especially when I knew that Aval wasnât going to be around.
When I knew that she wasnât invited.
I used to think it was the only place I could escape her. That being in a room where everyone except Noah. hated her guts was the best place to be.
Now though, it doesnât F***ing feel like that anymore. Instead I hate myself and the rest for the pain we have put her through.
Iâm going as fast as I canâI answer him.
âNo, youâre not. Youâre driving slower than a ninety year old grandma!â He huffs in annoyance.
Did I just get fried by an eight year old boy? I shake my head and chuckle before increasing the speed just a little bit.
The moment silence reigns in the car, my mind immediately goes to Ava.
She looked F***ing radiant when she opened the door for me.
To me she looked like a damn fertility goddess in a white flowing dress, long curled thick hair, her small baby bump and her beautiful flawless skin.
I was shocked by my reaction when I wanted nothing more than to take her in my arms and lock purselves in her bedroom for hours.
reaction to her is something that has never happened before and it took me by surprise.
havenât been able to think about anything or anyone except for her. Sheâs stuck on my mind and nothing I It F***ing scares me how obsessed I am with her. Itâs not once or twice that I found myself wondering what sheâs up to. Whether sheâs eaten or not. Or whether sheâs getting enough sleep. I keep wondering if i should hire someone to help her around the house.
Those thoughts shake me to my core. Iâve never been one to take on more when it comes to Ava. Now, the need to take care of her is almost consuming and itâs wrecking havoc inside me.
âDad?â Noah calls.
âWhat?â
âWe are hereâ
I had not realized that we were already parked outside my parentâs house. I donât know how we F***ing got here. I was so lost in my mind that I had been driving mindlessly.
I know how F***ing dangerous that is. Especially when I have Noah in the car with me, but I just canât help myself. Thoughts of Ava keep consuming me.
âCome on, Iâm sure your grandpa has saved some stake atmosphere away. 2 for youâ I say just so I can push the awkward âAre you okay dad?â He asks instead of getting out of the car.
I I didnât like that I was worrying him. I also couldnât tell him my beautiful mother.
âYes. I just have a lot on my mind, but itâs nothing to worry aboutâ
Problem was in the form of his He nods his head and unbuckles his seatbelt. We get out at the same time.
Locking the car, we walk towards the house. The door opens before we can get âMa!â Noah shouts before running to her.
Iâve missed you my Noahâ
She bends down and catches him as his b*dy collides with hers.
It has always been obvious that Kate and James love Noah despite what happened with Ava.
Everyone loves Noah, we just didnât love Ava because of the sin we thought she had committed against me and Emma reâs your mom? I sent her an inviteâ She asks, straightening and looking behind us.
âOh, sheâs not coming,â Noah informs her. âShe went to visit grandma Nora and grandpa Theo. She was excited. We didnât get to see them last week because they were on a business tripâ
Noah doesnât seem to notice, but I do.
I see the moment Kateâs face falls. The moment pain flashes in her eyes. This has to be painful for her knowing that Ava was building a relationship with her biological parents and that no matter what she tries, she will never have a close relationship with Ava.
She had burned her bridges. Hurt Ava too much for her to forgive and accept her. Ava wanted nothing to do with the Sharps or the Woods.
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