chaos
surrounds me.
stress
overwhelms me.
panic
consumes me.
never
good enough.
always
a disappointment.
faking
true happiness.
feeling
all alone.
thoughts
are clouded.
judgement
is scattered.
fear
takes everything.
confidence
is a dream.
weight
on my shoulders.
perfection
on my mind.
wishing
for sunlight.
but
clouds
cover the sky.
...
Life for me has been a freaking roller coaster and I'm on the verge of screaming. I think I must have bipolar or anxiety or something because the way I feed isn't normal. I get panic attacks, I tear up every time I slightly mess something up, and I hate myself for everything I am.
god,
I must've mistook smoke for simple clouds
but now
it's become impossible to breathe