every morning I wake up and I feel lonely. the second my eyes open it's like I've been punched in the gut or had all of the air knocked out of me. i can't breathe.
but I go through the motions, grasping for anything I can that will help me get through. when you show up I forget to hold on to everything and I lose all of my breathe. i suffocate.
you push me around without a care. you walk all over me like a doormat. you talk smack about me and I pretend like I don't notice, like I don't care. because that's what friends are supposed to do right?
i can't tell if you're mad, or frustrated, or annoyed, because you won't tell me. you act like everything is fine while you suck all of the air out of my lungs.
it doesn't matter if I am around you or if I'm not, you are always there, constantly depriving me of my life. it's harder and harder to breeze, to live without anchor people in my life. i'm sinking, floating, drowning, into you are the only one who can pull me back up.
but you don't. so I just continue waking up every morning with the lonely feeling in my gut, knowing that when it finally happens, I'm the only one going down.