i was standing on the edge of a cliff.
calling out into the void, swaying in the wind, feeling the familiar coldness brush against my cheek.
the problems I had worked so hard to recover from were once again staring me in the face.
every day, I had been inching towards the drop off, curious of what awaited me on the other side.
although, I already knew what was waiting, for it wasn't my first time to the cliff's edge.
the darkness called me forward and I longed for something to fall into.
finally, I was given a push.
and I found myself teetering on the very edge.
as I peered into the black hole before me, I caught a glimpse of something small.
a light.
it's not common to find a light amongst miles of darkness.
but in this moment, a beacon was there when I needed in most.
i was enchanted by this glowing orb, transfixed on its aura.
this light, this distraction, kept me from tipping over into the abyss.
every day, the light would grow brighter.
out of fear and awe, I would take steps back from the edge to keep distance from the light.
this light was drowning out the darkness which had appeared to be unavoidable.
i don't back away from the light anymore.
i embrace it.
and I trust that this light will keep me safe.