You ever want to kill somebody so bad, that you actually start watching episodes of 'How to Get Away With Murder'? That you actually start thinking of places to go if you were on the run? No? Then lucky you.
The boys have been on my ass this whole week about their gang business that I honestly don't want any part of, but I did make a promise. Kai and I have been having 'special moments' throughout the days but I always remind myself that I can't give into him, so I push him away. Sometimes, I even catch him wanting to do something as well, but it seems like something is holding him back. As much as I would like to know what it is, it's none of my business and I don't think I should interfere with his personal life and such.
Though, Liam and Blake have been getting more comfortable with me which I'm glad about, I can't even bare to feel the amount of discomfort like that ever again. I've played them in multiple games of COD, Uno, Monopoly, and surprisingly the game of Life. It's always fun to watch them complain about how skilled I am, even though I was no better than my br-
Let. It. Go.
I can't think about him right now. Hell, he doesn't even deserve to even be thought about. It was always mom and I, not him. Never. Him.
Without even noticing I felt my body temperature heat up from my anger towards him. I felt my blood rush with frustration and disappointment just by the thought of what he did. He's not allowed to be thought of. He's not allowed to be called my- fucking shit. Even hearing it from my own mouth it felt like acid burning my tongue. Just the memory of what he put us through, of how he made us feel, hell, that's why I'm even in this line of work in the first place. Fucking son of a b-
"Diamonds, are you okay?" I felt someone poking my arm which immediately dragged me from my thoughts. I looked over to see Blake with the pencil he poked me with in his hands, Kai and Liam snapped their necks towards me after hearing Blake's concern.
I looked around and realized we were in class, I looked down to see a broken pencil in my hands, probably from my sudden anger. I turned to Blake and gave him a sly smile before nodding my head. He hesitantly turned back towards the board as well as the other boys. I ducked my head down and hid my gaze from everybody else.
You do NOT need anybody looking after your feelings.
Just take care of yourself for once, you can't expect everybody to be picking up your broken pieces after you finally break.
Don't risk your heart again, you might end up doing something stupid.
The bell rung signaling that class was over. The four of us walked towards the cafeteria to have our lunch when all of a sudden a slutty silhouette appeared from the corner of my eye and was now standing in front of me, blocking my way to the cafeteria. Without any hesitation, I continued to walk past her, shoving her stiff shoulder to the side as I basically just walked through her. I heard her scoff and stomp off into the other direction and let out an ear-piercing screech. Without a bother, I continued to our table.
"She's so fucking annoying, how in the hell can she even live with herself?" Blake complained as we sat down. Kai sat next to me while Liam and Blake sat across from us as we dug into our lunch. I watched as a hand started reaching for my cookies but I quickly smacked it away without a second thought.
"Ow! Vicious woman," Liam mumbled while rubbing his hand. I shrugged my shoulders and continued to eat my food while listening to the boys' conversation.
I felt a vibration in my back pocket and I jumped a little from the sudden jolt but quickly pulled my phone out. Without checking the caller ID I answered the phone;
"Hm?" (what)
"Gold! Don't forget about the fight tonight honey, 8:00 p.m., don't forget!"
And with that, William hung up the phone. I sighed and face palmed myself as I had forgotten about the fight tonight. I needed to train before then but I also needed to rest before then. I got up from my seat and started packing my things so I could go home.
"Hey, where you going?" Liam asked as he watched me packing my things. I went to my notes and started typing my answer and I handed the phone to Kai, " 'Fight tonight, need to get home' Are you talking about the one on Wilferd Rd.?" I nodded my head and zipped my back pack before snatching my bag and towards the doors.
As I was walking through the hallways I heard footsteps catching up to me, "Hey, I'll help you train," Kai offered. I shook my head respectfully and out the doors to the parking lot. I unlocked my car and slid into the driver's seat. Suddenly I heard the passenger's side open and I watched as a stubborn Kai slid in with me as well.
"I'm going there tonight anyways, we might as well carpool there together, and the boys can take Blake's car, yeah?" He said smirking.
I rolled my eyes at him, "Kai are you sure? I'm going to be taking a nap first and then I'll start training," I pushed.
"It's alright, let's go," I pulled out of the parking lot in the direction of the house.
There was a comfortable silence until we arrived through the doors of the house. I trudged my way up stairs and to my bedroom, the whole time with Kai in tow. Once I finally reached my bedroom I turned to Kai, "What are you doing?"
"Well, i- just um- you know- could we-?" In all my life had I not once thought that a gang leader would stutter because he was nervous about taking a nap with me. But for some reason this fluttery feeling warmed my stomach just by the thought of the warmth of his body against mine just to sleep. The way he was acting, almost, adorable.
He wanted to be near me, and that made my heart warm up. He was acting nervous around me and it made me lose the thought of him being a gang leader. Right now, at this moment, he was a normal nervous 17 year old.
I smiled warmly at him, "Yeah, I don't see why not, but only napping," I warned. He playfully put his hands up in a surrendering position and chuckled, "Of course princess."
I went to my dresser and started pulling out some comfortable shorts and a crop top then made my way to the bathroom. After I had changed I washed my face to wipe off any sweat that I had trailing down my face and patted it dry.
I walked out into my bedroom to see Kai already under my covers with basketball shorts on and his normal black tee shirt.
He must've changed when I was in the bathroom.
"Yep, I did princess," he deadpanned at me while smirking. To say I was embarrassed was an honest understatement, I have to stop doing that or else my mouth might get me in trouble. I rolled my eyes at him instead and mumbled a quick, "personal bubble," to him.
I slid under the cool covers with him and turned so my back was to him. As I was drifting off into my sleep I felt a heavy arm place itself around my waist and pull me closer to a chest. The sweet aroma of Kai's cologne made my senses go into a daze as he snuggled his nose into the crook of my neck. As much as my mind was telling me to get him off of me, I was also too tired, and it felt pretty nice. The warmth of his body felt 10x more comforting than my covers and it was relaxing, like I needed this comfort.
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Kai
As I started to twist and turn I recognized the sweet smell of vanilla but couldn't figure out where it was coming from. I started to feel around the bed for Diamonds, causing my eyelids to flutter open when I couldn't feel her presence. I looked around the room for any sign of her but the room was completely empty, the only source of lighting was from the sun setting behind the curtains and I immediately turned to the clock on her nightstand.
6:43.
All of a sudden the door swung open to reveal a very sweaty but gorgeous Diamonds. She had on grey exercise leggings with a loose tank top as she stepped into the room staring at me.
She gave me a small smile and walked over to the bathroom, "How was your sleep?" She said from inside.
"It was okay, did you finish your training?" I asked groggily. There was a few seconds of silence until she spoke up, "Yeah, I'm just gonna take a quick shower and get going. You might want to change too if you're coming with," she suggested.
I rolled off of the bed groaning in protest as I was still tired. On my way to my room I couldn't help but think that was one of the best naps I've ever had, and that I could definitely get used to waking up with the smell of sweet vanilla. She's so addicting, like a forbidden drug that I can't help but get more of. She's like a prize that everybody wants once you get to know how caring and cute she is. Her heart is made of pure gold and I don't think she knows that, she's been so considerate of us boys that I sometimes believe that she forgets about taking care of herself.
Then I will take care of her.
No! No! We can't go through this shit again, we can't put another person in danger! It doesn't matter how strong and skilled Diamonds is she could get killed! Or worse, people might want her so badly that they start suffocating her with deals and negotiations just for them to have her. I hope she's happy working for Williams, I'll have to ask her later.
But for now, just be friends. No more naps, no more teasing, no more temptations. Just. Friends.
I stepped into the ensuite bathroom of the guest room and quickly take a shower. After I do a quick shave and gel my hair to the side, I walk over to the closet that already has my Armani Suit in a plastic cover. I slip on my dress pants and white button up dress shirt and cover myself with a dress coat. I arrange my tie and tie my black polished dress shoes before heading out.
I head down to the kitchen where I'm met with Liam and Blake who are also dressed in their suits, "You guys ready?"
They nod their heads in response and as if on cue Diamonds walks in with a small duffel bag in hand and her car keys in the other. She's dressed in black puma leggings and a hoodie that doesn't actually go down to her knees. As usual her bright smile glows up the room and she directs me to the garage while the other two go to Blake's car.
The sweet vanilla takes over my senses once again as I slip into the car and we pull out of the driveway. I decided to break the silence with a question I've been meaning to ask for awhile, "Are you happy with Williams?" I asked in a serious tone.
She briefly looks at me and turns back to the road, "Yeah, of course I am. He's a nice man," she says assuringly. She was probably a little taken aback by my sudden question, and with it sounding so stern as well. I didn't mean it to come out that way, I was just curious.
"I need to stop the car," she says as she pulls over.
I look over to her in confusion, "Why?"
"You need to drive Robin, if someone sees me with you they're," she slightly paused before she continued, "Just drive him please." I looked deep into her eyes to see a glint of plead shine through them. Why would she be so worried about being seen with me? Is she scared of being seen with me?
It didn't matter, I would get answers later and I would make sure of it, "Alright."