I harm people and don't even feel anything about them or what their family could feel when they know their family member is dead. I don't give a fuck if I get hurt. Because what's better than killing people because your suppose to is killing people for revenge. I was changed through the hard way that if I hurt people, they will come and hurt the ones I care... I am a monster, keep your distance or you will burn in hell with me.
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Waking up to my alarm, I realise today is the day I leave for Canada. Moving across the world is scary, but what's more scary? Telling my friends that I'm leaving. Yep. I haven't told them, and I leave tonight. Great. Of course I leave everything to the last minute. I honestly don't know how I'm going to do this. Maybe I don't need to go to school today? If I do that and leave. My friends might as well kill me. Shit!
I sign, just thinking about it gets me so stressed. I look out of my window, only to be met by a cloudy day. wow have a bad day and the weather agrees with you. As I try to forget about the small but still big situation, I decide that I should start getting ready. I hop out of my bed and decide what I should wear. Finally deciding my clothes for the day, I leave it stretch out on the bed and go to my bathroom to have a shower
taking my hair out of my ponytail, it falls a bit longer than my shoulders. looking at the mirror, I look at my reflection and see a girl who pretends to be happy but isn't. I study my face, the only feature I like about myself is my wavy natural light brown hair. My eyes are the feature that most people notice about me, they say that my caramel brown eyes are common but have something special in them but personally, I think they are plain and boring brown eyes.
After getting ready, I go downstairs and say goodbye to my parents and brother. My family, I don't have any more family, I do but we don't talk to them for two reasons, number 1 is because they live in Spain and number two is my parents are not in good terms with them. My parents, my brother and I were born in Spain, so yes we can speak Spanish. We moved to California when I was 6 months old and my brother 4 nearly 5.
My mother's name is Maria, she is very beautiful, she looks like my older sister and a younger sister for my brother, Will. My mom has the same features as me, the only difference is she has blue eyes, like the ocean when the sun is shining on it and she has mid-length hair, same colour. My father, David also looks very young for his age, he has dark brown hair, short and has black eyes, Will is like an identical twin but only has a different eye and colour hair. Now for my annoying big bro Will, as I said he just looks like dad. My brother is 22 and when he was in high school, he was a player, I don't blame him but I blame the girls he would bring when my parents weren't at home. The girls he would bring secretly would say mean things to me, saying that I'm ugly, useless, lonely, no one likes me. I believed everything but I know that I'm not lonely I might be ugly, useless but not lonely.
"Bye, I'm going to school, see you later,"
"OK honey," My mum comes closer to me and kisses my cheek, I wave to my brother and dad goodbye since they were in the living room watching tv and I was already standing near the door.
I walk out of my house, towards the path. I am so nervous about my friends not knowing that I am leaving, but I am going to tell them today, I have too. I think it will be easier this way instead of telling them months ago. You might be thinking, it's not such a big deal but for me, it is.mMy friends are everything to me, they are family. I lift my head towards the sky and I inhale one of the longest breaths that I have ever taken, I exhale it afterwards and I begin my fifteen-minute walk.
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Fifteen-minutes later, I finally make it to school, taking my earphones out, I continue to walk inside the school until I see my best friends leaning on their lockers. There they were, Bianca, Abigail, Taylor, Skylar and Lucy, my only friends, the only people who I talk in school.
As I get closer to them, Abbie lifts her head and sees me walking towards them and she greets me,"Hey Allie," she says.
"Hey guys," I say back to the whole group.
"How has your weekend been," Bianca spoke this time.
"Good," I answer back to the group, but I stay quiet after I spoke because I don't know if I should tell them now or later or how to tell them that I am leaving today.
I met all of them in elementary school, we became inseparable. I love my friends, they are like my sisters. they are pretty and perfect and just amazing. Then there's me, I'm the one who stands out but not in a good way, I'm not pretty nor perfect or amazing, I'm just plain boring. People always question them for 'letting me sit with them'.
"Allie?" Taylor spoke.
"Yeh, what?"
"I've been trying to talk to you," Taylor spoke out again, I guess I zone out.
"Oh sorry, I just have stuff in my mind."
"What stuff?," Sky said.
"Ummmm?," i begin but then the bell rang letting us know that we have to go to class and that's what I did. I got my stuff and said bye to them and ran to my class, literally run to class.
I had English first. I sat down on my desk, as I said before I only have five friends and none of them were in this class so I sat by myself. After some time the teacher walks in with him. Aaron...the popular guy of our year but his nice, his not like those books you read about jocks. He stands out in the crowd, that's how I can describe him. He is one of the most-liked guys in the school, like why would no one like him, he has brown shot hair that sits perfectly on top of his head, chocolate brown eyes, a beautiful smile and laugh to die for. I have liked him since I saw him in my class on the first day of high school but we don't talk at all. The reasons why I like him is because he isn't your classic jock, plus I have to admit he's pretty cute,...ok, find his hot.
As I pretend that I haven't been staring at him for the past few seconds, I begin to look around the classroom and noticed the only spot was next to me. I got so excited but I acted like I didn't notice him walking towards me. My heart started to beat so fast I started to fake writing whatever the teacher was writing on the board but then I heard a hey. I lift my head and see that Aaron was staring at me.
"Hey," I respond to him.
"Sorry but your name is Allie, well Alison but everyone calls you Allie.... right?" he question. I felt like I was no one since he didn't remember me nor, know my name, so I did it to him.
"Um yeh and no worries um, your...Aaron...right?," I question but, of course I knew his name, I always think about him, I know, stalker much.
"Um yeh," he asks confused probably since his popular and expects everyone to know him.
"Anyways, what are we doing," he said after a moment of us just staring at each other.
"Just copy what the teacher is writing," I respond. Aaron just nods, he takes out the chair and sits down. He begins to write the things that the teacher is writing on the board.
After a couple of minutes, I realise that I have been staring at him and begin to have an idea that maybe I should tell him that I like him.
"Aaron?!," I said kinda loud.
"um... yeh,?" he said staring at me.
"um, I just... um could I talk to you for 5 minutes before school ends, it's like really important," I asked nervously.
"sure where?," he responded, I was confused about why he would agree to talk to me, since we don't talk, at all.
"basketball court?." i question my question
"yep I will meet you there," We continue the class and then as class ended, he said: "see you then,"I just nod as I see him disappearing into the crowd of students.
After a few periods, it was the last break and I had to finally tell my friends about me leaving. I walk up to where we sit which sadly is next to the popular table. As I begin to get closer Lucy noticed me and greets me.
"Hey Allie," She says and my friends turn around to look at me.
"Hey," I said putting down my food and sitting down. As I sit down my eyes wandered to the popular table, the people who sit there are Aaron of course, then his friends who are James, Ethan, Henry, Jacob and Liam and then these really rude girls who are Maddy, Jane and Leslie. I return my gaze to our table and I begin to have a mini heart attack and decide that maybe I should tell them now, like now. I open my mouth to talk.
"guys I need to tell you something important,". I said nervously. My friends turn their heads towards my direction.
"yeh, what?" Taylor said. "Um well, you see know, um actually...this-is-my-last-day-of-school," I said fast at the end."what do you mean last day, there's still 6 months left of this year," Taylor said."Um well you see today is my last day of school because... im-leaving-the-country," I said quickly. "WHAT!!," All my friends scream catching everyone's attention from the whole cafeteria.
My friends and I apologise making everyone return to their conversation except one table, the popular table which as I said before is right next to our table, don't even ask how we ended up sitting next to them. All I remember is that the table was always empty but then one day they sat there, moving from their previous table, anyways back to the conversation.
"I'm moving to Canada," I said quietly, as I said this my eyes roamed to the popular table and I looked at Aaron, finding him already staring at me, he looked sad, angry and lost, I force my eyes away from him and look back to my friends.
"When were you planning to tell us!" Bianca spoke."shhh, um today," I said very quietly. "Why?" Abbie spoke."Dad got a better job in Canada," I said. "no, I mean why, why tell us now," Abbie said. " I don't know, I'm sorry,""It's okay we are going to miss you, how long like 3 months or something," Lucy said."Um nooo more like 2 years," I said. "2 YEARS!," Sky scream."yeh," I said sadly. "it's okay, we are going to miss you a lot," Taylor said. Then the bell went, We walk back to class since we are all had a gym together.
I get changed and go outside to find the teacher already there, telling us that we are going to play soccer. We won playing and then got asked to go back and get change. After we got changed I noticed we only had 5 minutes left of school and then remembered Aaron and I were going to talk.
"Allie?" Aaron said walking towards me."um hi?," I said, looking around trying to find my friends but I couldn't find him."so what did you want to tell me," he said. "ok this is like really hard to say but here goes nothing well....since I'm leaving and probably never going to see you again I'm going to tell you that.......um i-like-you," I said quickly. Before he could respond I talked again, "You don't have to say anything and yeh well since I'm leaving and never going to see you again I just wanted to say have a good life and yeh, um bye I guess I will never see you." I say laughing nervously and awkwardly, I turn around and begin to walk to my friends but I couldn't find them, then the bell went, since the bell went I figured that I should just leave and not say goodbye, as I think everything through I begin to feel terrified I was never going to see my friends again.
I walked out of school before I could say my goodbyes because if I did I was going to cry and I just couldn't, this is just so much easier On the 28th of May, I left the country to go to Canada.
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Two years later, the 12th of June 2019
I wake up from a coma...
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