âIâm going to miss you so much,â I say to my favorite person in the world in a sweet tone I reserve only for her.
Charlotte smiles up at me from where she lies on her changing table and bats at the loose strands of hair hanging in my face. One tiny hand gets a death grip on my blonde locks and I laugh even as I wince and unclench her fist to free (most) of my hair.
I pick her up, then lift her above my head like sheâs flying. Her grin widens and my heart feels like it might burst. She has my brotherâs smile and Piperâs dark hair and blue eyes. Sheâs a shy baby with strangers or people she doesnât trust, but sheâs such a lovebug with those she does.
Pulling her down against my hip, I breathe her in. She smells like lavender and baby powder. I love the feel of her little body nuzzled up to me.
âI think sheâs going to miss you too.â Piper leans in and kisses Charlotteâs soft cheek. She looks at her daughter with so much love and adoration that it makes my chest hurt. Her love for Charlotte is so big. Itâs the kind of pure maternal affection that most people take for granted. But not me. âWe all will. Are you sure you donât want to come with us?â
âNo.â I shake my head, not even having to think about it. âBut maybe you could just leave her here with me.â I sit on the pink chair in the nursery with Charlotte while Piper continues packing for their upcoming vacation.
I want to soak up all my nieceâs little laughs and kisses before they leave. Hockey season is over, and my brother and his teammates are all taking some much-needed time off. Tyler and Piper are headed east. They rented a place on the beach where Charlotte can play in the sand and dip her toes into the ocean. It does sound nice, but with college just ending and real life hovering on the horizon, my ideal summer is staying here, sleeping in, lounging by the pool, and pretending that nothing has changed.
âI think youâd be ready for a break after a day or two. Sheâs cute until she wakes you up at two in the morning.â
That does sound exhausting. âI donât know how you do it.â
âShe has me.â Tyler walks into the nursery and shoots his wife a wink before settling his gaze on me and Charlotte. âHow are all my favorite girls?â
âWeâre great,â I say reverting back to baby talk. I donât know what it is about a tiny little human that makes us all coo and talk weird, but I am not immune to it. Especially when it makes Charlotte smile at me like Iâm the coolest person alive. As she should.
âStressed.â Piper adds another outfit to the suitcase. âIâm running out of room. Do you have another bag?
â
Tylerâs brows rise as he takes in the very large, very full bag on the floor. âYou know thereâs a washer and dryer at the beach house, right? You donât have to bring every scrap of clothing she owns.â
I clear my throat and give Ty our secret sibling look, which isnât really that secret. Wide eyes, shake of the head. Itâs a clear âstop talking if you want to surviveâ look that weâve perfected over the years.
He trails off and then flashes Piper a smile. âIâll go see if I can find another bag.â
âThank you.â Piperâs shoulders sag in relief. Ty brushes his lips over hers before disappearing out of the door he entered only seconds ago.
When heâs gone she glances at me. âAnd thank you.â
âNo problem,â I say with a laugh. âMy niece wants to be the best-dressed baby on all the beaches.â
Piper takes a break from packing and sits on the floor next to the suitcase. âSo, what about you? Youâre really just going to hang around here all summer?â
âIâm sure Iâll take a few weekend trips here and there, but with the long list of things everyone left me to check on, I think Iâll stay pretty busy.â
Nearly all the Wildcat guys leave in the off-season. Some go back to wherever theyâre from, others travel. And while theyâre gone, they need someone to check in on their houses, get the mail, water plants, and one guy even asked me to check in on his elderly neighbor once a week. Itâs not the most glamorous job, being their house sitter/errand runner, but it saves me from getting a real job for a few more months. Plus, most of them have pools that theyâve agreed I can use.
âWhen do you have to be in Briar Lake for the internship?â she asks, a big smile pulling her pink lips apart to flash her straight, white teeth.
Nerves swirl around in my stomach and settle into a tight ball. âThe last week of July.â
âYour brother is so proud. So am I.â She continues beaming at me. I can feel her pride stretching across the room. In a lot of ways, sheâs responsible for me graduating high school and college. She was a student teacher my senior year when I came to live with Ty. She believed in me when few people did. Without her and Ty, I donât know where Iâd be.
My brother took me in after everyone else had given up trying to get through to me, and Piper treated me like a little sister, even before she and my brother were together. I owe so much to them both. The words of gratitude get stuck in my throat. With their happiness for all Iâve accomplished comes expectations and hope. Sometimes I feel like Iâm one wrong move from letting them down.
Piper continues smiling at me like she can see all my hopes and dreams floating above my head. âThe houses there are so gorgeous and youâre going to get to decorate them. Itâs a dream job. Youâre so perfect for it.â
Each word makes me a little more anxious, but it is a great opportunity, and I did work hard for it. In six weeks, Iâll be heading two hours north for an interior design internship with one of the most prestigious design companies in Minnesota. They work on everything from boutique hotels to million-dollar lake homes. It is a dream job, really, and the woman Iâll be working with is basically my idol. She was named one of the âTop 30 under 30â in the state. She has a waitlist of clients a year out hoping to work with her.
If I impress her during my internship, she might offer me a permanent job. Though sheâs not known for taking on a lot of full-
time staff. But even a recommendation from her would be incredible for my career.
âIâm not sure how much hands-on work Iâll be doing. I will probably spend most of my time running errands for her, pulling samples, ordering things, and helping move furniture and artwork.â
âAt first, but youâre so talented. I have no doubt that youâll be one of their most requested designers in no time.â
I chuckle softly. I love her confidence in me, even if it does make me nauseous. âFingers crossed!â
Tyler returns with a big duffel bag that looks like it could fit a body. âThis is all I could find,â he says.
âThank you.â She takes it from him, then eyes the overflowing suitcase in front of her. âBut I think you were right. The more clothes we take, the more laundry Iâll end up doing.â
Smiling, she hands it back to him. Charlotte flails her arms around in my lap, making a sound thatâs awfully close to a giggle as she watches her parents.
âWe will do. I told you, I can help more this summer. Laundry included.â
He leans down and kisses her. Instead of the quick, chaste kiss I was expecting, he lingers, taking her mouth in a way that has me looking away and covering Charlotteâs eyes. And this is another reason why Iâm not going on vacation with them. I think itâs sweet that theyâre still so in love, but watching my brother constantly make out with his wife is not the summer of my dreams.
âEv,â Ty says my name, alerting me that theyâve finally stopped kissing.
I glance over at him. âHmmm?â
âAre you sure you donât want to fly out one weekend? Fourth of July maybe?â
Itâs at least the third time heâs asked in the past week.
âIâm not sure if youâre worried I canât function on my own or if youâre just going to miss me so much youâre panicking.â
An easy smile spreads across his face. âBoth, I think.â
âIâll be fine. And I already promised Grace that Iâd do something with her for the Fourth.â
All my friends are graduating and moving away or starting jobs this summer. Maybe it should make me more eager to do the same, but instead it makes me want to appreciate a few more weeks of the lax life even more.
Sweet Charlotte starts crying in my arms. I swear the sound breaks my heart every time.
âWhatâs wrong?â I ask, bouncing her gently in my lap.
âItâs time for her nap.â Tyler comes over and steals her from me, but not before I take one more whiff of her lavender and baby powder scent. This summer will be the longest Iâve gone without seeing her. âThen we can grab lunch or something if you want.â
âItâs okay,â I say, standing. âI need to go to Ash and Bridgetâs house to bring in their mail, stop by Declan and Jadeâs to water the plants, and then Leo and Scarlettâs house to double-check they turned off all the lights.â
Ty grins. âIs that all?â
âFor today.â
âAll right.â After he places Charlotte down in her crib, he moves toward me with his arms outstretched. I let him wrap me up in his embrace like Iâm still his baby sister and heâs the only person in the world that can keep me safe. No matter how old I get, he still fills me with the same sense of security. âIf you change your mind or decide you miss me too much, just say the word and Iâll have you on the next flight out.â
âGo. Enjoy your vacation. Donât worry about me or your house. Iâll take good care of it. Especially the pool. And I promise not to throw any parties with more than fifty to a hundred people.â
âNo parties.â He laughs like Iâm joking, then his expression goes serious. âAnd no boys.â
Piper and I both roll our eyes at him.
After I leave my brotherâs house, I head to Ash and Bridgetâs place. It feels beyond weird pulling into the abandoned driveway. He and several of the other guys live in the same neighborhood, but with all of them gone itâs eerily quiet.
I check the mail and then as Iâm letting myself in, I get a call from Bridget.
âAre you watching me on your door cam?â I ask.
âNo,â she says the word slowly. âAre you at the house?â
âI just walked in.â I set the pile of envelopes on the kitchen counter. âYour junk mail is safe and sound.â
âOh, thank goodness,â she says with a small laugh. âBut thatâs not why I called.â
âWhatâs up?â I ask, noting the hint of concern in her voice.
âHave you seen any of the guys?â
âI just left Tyâs place.â
âAnyone else?â
Sheâs acting strange, but I go with it.
âBefore he left on vacation yesterday, Leo stopped by to give me the key to his mailbox.
â
A beat of silence hangs between us as I turn and lean against the counter.
âWhat about Jack?â
âNo.â I walk toward the living room window that looks out toward the hockey team captainâs house. All I can make out from here is his driveway. A red van is parked behind his SUV. âWhy would I see him?â
âI got a call from a nurse friend of mine. She does scheduling for the home aide service heâs using and she wanted to see if I was available for a difficult client.â
I snort. âNobody is less surprised than me to learn heâs not sunshine and rainbows after his surgery.â
A twinge of sympathy fills me as I think about him laid up. His car accident a month ago brought a devastating end to the season for him and the team.
âThatâs not all. I texted Scarlett and she said none of the guys have seen him since the surgery and heâs barely responding to texts or calls.â
Iâm not really that shocked. Jack is great at being there for other people, but he tends to shut everyone out when heâs dealing with things or in a bad moodâwhich is often.
âWhat are you going to do?â I ask because I know sheâs trying to figure out how to help him. When Bridget sees someone hurting, sheâs incapable of standing by.
âNothing. I offered to stay and help before we left, but he wouldnât hear it. He didnât want to ruin my and Ashâs vacation plans.â
âSounds like Jack.â
âI should have stuck around a little longer. At least until he was back on his feet.â
I hear the regret in her voice, but sheâs being too hard on herself.
âYou offered and he said no. We both know that when he makes up his mind, thereâs no changing it.
â
âYeah,â she says, but her tone tells me she still isnât sure she did the right thing. Bridget has a good heart. Sheâs much nicer than me, which is probably why weâre friends. Every nice girl needs a mean friend. Itâs just facts.
âMaybe I should come home.â
âDonât do that,â I say. She would do it because sheâs just that caring, but it isnât her fault that Jack is being difficult. âThere has to be someone else that can take care of him who also wonât let him be a big jerk just because heâs in pain.â
âI think most of the nurses are afraid of him. The others probably want to sleep with him.â
He does seem to have that sort of effect on people.
âDo you want me to go check on him?â I offer because I know itâs what sheâd do if our roles were reversed, then silently pray she says no. Jack and I butt heads on the best of days.
âWould you?â Her tone is tentative like she isnât sure thatâs a good idea, but she doesnât have a better one.
That makes two of us.
Dammit. I did not have deal with Jack on my to-do list today or I would have started the day with some yoga or Zen music. I let out a quiet, resolved breath. âYeah, of course. Iâll stop by, tell him to stop being a pain in the ass, and you can keep enjoying your vacation. Are you and Ash having fun?â
I hear her fiancéâs muffled voice on the other end, something that sounds a lot like kissing, and then her giggle.
âIâll take that as a yes,â I say. âIâll text you after I see Jack.â
âThank you, Ev,â she says, then adds, âBe nice.â
âIâll make no such promise.â