"Damaged people are
dangerous. They know how to
make hell feel like home."
One More Mistake
Chapter forty-three
â± I tried to get away from the hard rain but there was no shelter around. Alec wasn't here yet and it's been about twenty minutes. I was already soaked and it didn't help that I was wearing a thin sweater.
I felt my phone vibrate, and I quickly checked.
Sterling: You sure you don't want a ride, just saw it was pouring outside. Rory wouldn't mind, I'm sure you're freezing. Text me back so we could know where to pick you up.
I didn't text him back.
It should be obvious to me that I didn't want to deal with Rory. What happened back there with him never happened to me before with anyone. That small spark, that mutual connection. I didn't like it, not one bit. Although my thoughts made me wonder if Rory liked it?
I wanted to know what he thought about me- no, I didn't want to know. Because I already know what he thinks of me, and it's not pleasant. He hates me and I make it so easy for him to do so.
If he hates me then I hate him too and he shouldn't be surprised when I treat him as my enemy.
I realized I've been cold towards him these past few days and I think I know where my anger is coming from. Not only does Rory make me feel like a fool by thinking about him in this rain, but by also making me feel this way. He controls me and he doesn't even know it.
He's the one to blame as to why I'm like this and desperately wanting to know if he thinks about me like I do.
That's the problem with him, he can't get out of my brain.
Just as I was about to humiliate myself even more by asking myself a question I wouldn't ever say out loud, I noticed headlights coming my way. Once I've seen the car stop next to me, I've quickly made my way towards it. I made sure to look at the person who was in it before getting in. Alec stared at me as I tried to warm my hands, they were freezing cold.
"You can borrow my hoodie, it's in the back," he said as he looked away from me and started to head towards my house. If this were a different situation I wouldn't have accepted it but since I was soaked and cold I didn't need to overthink it.
When I finally found it, I wrapped it around myself and soon I felt the warmth of it. I pulled the sleeves so it can cover my cold hands.
Once I got comfortable, I looked over at Alec. He was soaked as well but it seemed like he didn't mind it. His look was aloof and cold but this time he looked more tense. He was also quiet, he usually was, but this time it felt different.
Something was wrong.
I wanted to ask questions but I kept quiet.
As I stared at him, I couldn't help but notice the way he clenched the steering wheel. His face was hard and out of emotion. It felt like he wasn't here with me in this car, and that scared me.
I've seen most of his looks and none of them looked like this. When I think back to the first time we met, he was a totally different person. At least he fooled me enough to believe he was a nice guy.
He might've fooled me at first into thinking that he was just a normal guy but he was more than that. He's got his secrets that should probably scare me away and I'm not sure if I knew what his intentions were.
Was he actually going to go along with the engagement? Or was that just something he made up so he could get closer to Bruce?
He was like a closed book so it was hard for me to know what he was up to next.
For all I know, I could be just a puppet for him to play with.
What if that's all I am?
The car came to a stop once we were parked outside the house. Alec took off the key from the engine before leaning onto the leather seats. He looked at the roof of the car, sighing softly. His eyelids closed after a while and soon the silence surrounded us. The rain drops hitting on the pavement was the only thing that was heard.
I didn't do anything to leave the car either. I hugged myself tighter before facing the front. It was quiet like we didn't know what to say but I wanted to say so much. I'm sure he wanted to speak as well but I guess we didn't know how. My head was filled with unanswered questions and just as I was about to say something, the lights from the porch illuminated the car.
I turned to look at who was standing there and I found Bruce standing there. He had his hands in his pockets while staring off at us.
I leaned off the seat before looking at Alec but he wasn't looking at me, he still had his eyes closed. I opened the car door and quickly made my way towards the house. When I turned back around I saw Alec get out of the car and make his way towards me.
"I was with Alec" I told Bruce once he was in front of me. I couldn't help but notice the slight gleam in his eyes. He smiled at me like he knew something I didn't. I didn't like it.
"Yes, he called me earlier telling me he was with you. If he wouldn't have called at all, I would've guessed you weren't with him but with someone else." He said while standing a bit too close to me.
"But I was," I said back before pushing him away and entering the house.
"Alec is joining us for dinner" he told me after a while. I furrowed my eyebrows when I realized that we've never even had dinner together before but since Alec was here, he wanted to do anything to impress him.
"I'm going to go upstairs and dry myself up" I say and make my way upstairs but stop when I hear Bruce call me.
"Take Alec with you, he needs to change into dry clothes as well" I quickly looked at Alec who was already staring up at me. It made me uncomfortable to have Alec in my room but that was the reason why Bruce was telling him. To make me feel uneasy because he just loved to see me like this. He loved to taunt me, trick me and somehow it worked every time.
"Sure" I said, ignoring the way Alec threw a look over at Bruce. I've heard Alec's heavy steps making their way up the stairs. I turned back around when he was behind me. He looked tense and as I tried to make him look at me, he didn't. His face was looking down while breathing slowly.
"I'll be outside making a phone call" I heard Bruce say. I looked down at him and he had a small smile playing on his lips.
When I turned to look at Alec, I found him staring back at me. I've noticed there was something completely off with him as well. I was obviously missing something but I couldn't figure out what it was. I quickly looked away before walking towards my room.
He followed me up to my room and I expected him to wait for me outside but he didn't. He walked in my room and glanced at me with a look I couldn't understand. His eyebrows were furrowed and his lips were in a flat line. I tried to ignore it.
I walked towards my closet and as I was looking for something to wear I heard the door shut. I turned to look at Alec but he was already behind me and putting his hand over my mouth.
His grip on me was tight and I widened my eyes when I realized what was happening.
"I'm not going to hurt you" he quietly said as he started to grip my wrist with his other hand. When his grip loosened on me, I tried to push him away but he didn't bulge. I tried to yell but the hand on my mouth muffled it. He got closer to me and whispered to my ear.
"I'm so sorry, Thea" he said and before I knew it I felt him kissing my neck. I realized now that this was planned and Bruce was involved in this. It made me sick to even think about what he was going to do to me. I didn't ever think of him as a fucking rapist, but now I didn't know what to think anymore.
"Stop" I tried to speak louder but the hand on my mouth stopped me from yelling.
His sloppy kisses were slowly making their way towards my chest and I tried to get him off me but I couldn't. His grip on my wrist tightened when I was starting to slip away.
As his kisses got more aggressive, I tried to get a hold of his neck so I could get him away from me but he quickly turned me around before harshly throwing me onto the bed. When I landed on the bed, I saw him staring down at me while clenching his fist.
He had stopped but I didn't let my guard down.
I looked away from him because I couldn't look at him. I didn't recognize him anymore. It was like I was looking at a stranger. He wasn't the same person who I first talked to when we met. He wasn't the same Alec I knew, I didn't see him as that guy anymore.
Now I've seen as a fucking monster.
I couldn't help but get as far away from him as possible. I was on the edge of my bed when he started to make his way towards me. I intended to yell but I felt as if my voice had left me.
"What the fuck Alec" I said when I got my voice back. I was shaking and I felt tears threatening to come out. His dark eyes stared at me coldly like there wasn't anybody inside him.
He was so close to me, but he didn't dare to touch me. He was standing near me and it seemed like he was at war with himself. After a while he groaned and walked away from me.
"I can't fucking do it" he yelled loudly which made me jump. He put his hands in between his hair while making his way towards the corner of my room. He sat on the love seat before putting his head in between his legs.
"What the fuck!" I yelled louder, afraid. He looked up at me but didn't lock eyes with me.
"Your uncle wanted me to force you..." he stopped and suddenly locked eyes with me. Chills erupted on my skin when I saw the look on his face.
"I'm sorry" he said again. He looked guilty but I know he wasn't, he just wanted me to think that he was guilty about what he did.
He spoke to me again, his lips moving slowly though I couldn't understand. My mind was still trying to process everything that had happened. I was still trying to figure out what the fuck was going happened if he didn't stop.
I looked away from him and down at my hands. They were red and turned into a purple color. As I looked around my wrist I noticed that my hands were shaking uncontrollably. Suddenly I've seen large hands cover mine.
They were cold.
"Get the fuck away from me" I yelled as I looked up at Alec. I moved away from him and stood at the other side of the bed. He had a hard look as well but he had no right to.
"Get out" I whispered quietly. My breathing was loud and heavy.
"I said to get the fuck out of my room!" I yelled again once he didn't move an inch. He stared at me for a while before making his way out.
Once he was out, I quickly ran towards the door and locked it. I stared at the door, afraid Alec would come back to finish what he started.
The feeling of his tight grip on me didn't go away. His lips on my neck still lingered on my skin and all I wanted to do was wash it away.
I didn't realize that I was still wearing his jacket until now. I quickly took it off before throwing it on the floor. I didn't mind changing my wet clothes, and instead lay on my bed.
I wanted to convince myself that this wasn't real, that it was just a nightmare.
I tried but I couldn't hide the ugly truth.
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