Jack was acting more agitated than usual but I can see why. He didnât really want to be bothered so I allowed him the space he needed. He shouldnât have to reject it to be a family. We can be a family regardless. And now that itâs the daughter of Luna. Hopefully, she wonât give us a hard time now. I sat outside by the campfire that I started and just relaxed. I was supposed to meet Vanessa tomorrow and I wasnât prepared but I can only hope that she would decide to help me. I was stuck and lost. So was everyone else. But I knew things needed to be safe again if we are ever going to get to the point of decision-making. I felt cold glass on my arm and noticed a beer was being handed to me. âYou look like you could use one.â I took it from Vincentâs hand. âYeah, itâs not every day your baby daddyâs mate slaps you across the face.â I took a huge sip from the beer. âNo shit, he found his mate? How did he react?â Now he was more interested. âWell, not the way you think heâd react. If anything the same way I did when I found out about you. He told me he didnât want to break up our family and it doesnât matter anymore if he had to share me. But that girl was so mad she gave me a good one on my cheek.â Another chug I took out of the beer. âHow do you feel about it?â I met his eyes that were only inches apart. I think maybe he needed to hear that truth. âHonestly, it hurts. I developed a relationship with Jack thatâs so unhinged and we grew together and have this beautiful daughter. But I also know that he is always setting his feelings aside to keep our family together. He is so selfish itâs irritating. I want Jack to be happy. He has a mate thatâs all for him while I am still stuck between you and him. I want him to make choices based on him and if he wants to be with his mate I will support him. But if I am being honest with you and itâs going to sound like the most selfish thing in the entire world and shallow.âHe was still staring at me like he was actually listening to what I had to say. âI canât decide between you both. I love both of you. And the mate bond should only be towards you but it craves for his affection too. I know heâs okay with it but I know you arenât and if I feel like if I canât have both of you then itâs best not to have any of you.â
He sat back with his head now leaning upwards just thinking. I know itâs a lot that is going through his head. I mean I understand. âWhat if he decides to be with his mate, where does that leave us?â He asks. âI donât want you thinking that okay cool he is with his mate now we can be together. I guess it depends on you if you still want me. But if he wants to stay together with me even with you then I wonât say no. But he deserves so much and so much better than dealing with me. Jack is such a great guy and I can never thank him enough. I donât know. I-I am not making any sense I know.â We sat for a few minutes just sipping on our beer. He was someone with feelings and I wonât dismiss them. Just because my feelings were everywhere doesnât mean he has to stick around to see my downfall of it all. âI am not up to sharing so if it ever comes to that then choose him, Athena. I want you to be committed to me and sadly I canât give you what you want.â The hurt that was in his voice struck me. The tears welled up in my eyes. I wasnât mad at him. I could never be mad at him. He put his arm around my shoulders and kissed the side of my cheek before he stood up and walked away. Why wasnât this choice easy? It should be my mate right? But my heart pangs when I think of never seeing Jack that way again. I donât deserve any of them. I sat there until the fire gave out and I was sound asleep on the couch. Not even morning awoke me but I woke up noticing a blanket had been placed on me.