Chapter 34 - Blood thirsty
The crowd went wild. Shouts and screams from both stands, cheering their team on. Lights so bright, it hurt to stare for too long. Teenagers sexing each other up underneath the bleaches. Nerds playing their instruments. The cheerleaders doing what they normally did; cheer. A few already getting tipsy. Everyone going about doing their thing.
And me?
I scowling at the idiots behind me as they continued to make snarl pick up jokes at me.
"Hey Sasha! Sasha! Just turn around for a second. My friend wants to show you a surprise." One of the idiots says. My jaw clinches.
Ignore them, ignore them, ignore them---
"Heard you are good with your hands, sweetie." Another guy comments, with his friends snickering.
I whirl my head around and stand up, facing the group. "Say that again, to my face. I dare you." My voice dangerously low, looking at each idiot.
A guy with orange hair smirks and stands up. "Why, do you want to blow me--" a football bashes straight into his stomach, cutting him off.
He screams out in agony with his friends jumping to his aid. I turn around to see who threw the ball. A football player stands with his hand still in mid-air. Chad.
I could sense he was smirking.
Asshole! I didn't need you to defend me. I had it under control, my inner-voice scowled at Chad, knowing he would read it. Chad bows in mockery and runs off to the centre of the field, where his team were getting ready to play.
Our school screamed with glee when our star quarterback made another touch-down. We were 23 - 0. Our visitors did not stand a chance with Clayton and Chad's Vampire strength that powered many wins. I guess it was called cheating, since we had that advantage and all, but oh well. It's not like anybody knew about the Vampire cousins. And as far as anyone's concerned, there's no such thing as a Vampire.
I yawned, already bored. I wasn't much of a football fan--okay I lie. I hardly ever give a rat's ass about the favourite American sport. And coming to one of these was the same as going to a five years old birthday party.
Dammit, I don't even know why I'm even here in the first place. Chad came to mind again, like always. Damn, I'm here because of him. Pffft. Stupid Chad and his stupid football game and his stupid strength! Grrr.
However, I still managed to stay the first quarter of the game. Waiting patiently for it to end. Luckily for me, those idiots from before weren't bothering me anymore, but just scowling every time I looked their way. To be honest, I would also behave myself--if I was in their shoes--when it comes to Chad. I mean, Chad is a pretty intimidating person if you get on his bad side---
And there I go again! Thinking about Chad! Gosh, can't his name just stay out of my head for like an hour or something?!
Okay, let's think about something else. Hmm . . . I can think about, food! No, wait, that still leads back to thinking about Chad. Urgh, this is hopeless!
"Penny for a thought?" a sly comment came from beside me.
I turn my head swiftly in the direction of the familiar voice when I'm just looking at a girl stuffing her face with a corndog. I'm confused. I could have sworn I heard Chad's voice now? Or maybe I'm thinking about Chad too much that I'm starting to hear things.
A hand grabs my ankle. I look down to see a smiling Chad busy looking up at me, standing underneath the bleachers. I want to cry now. Can't I have too seconds without Chad? He's EVERYWHERE!
I kicked his hand off my ankle, and stomp on it.
I smile.
"Aw come on Sasha! It's half time. I need to speak with you." Chad whispers, looking up at me with pleading eyes, and we are the only ones that can hear his whisper over the loud chattering.
I groan with irritation. Nonetheless, I get up and walk down the bleachers, turning and walking to where Chad stood. He grabs my hand and drags me off to the darker, more private section of the school, hidden behind thick trees.
"I don't have much time so can you walk a little faster?" he snaps with annoyance.
"Dick." I murmur and knew he heard me. I stumble to the ground; my foot had kicked into a rock. I let out a, "Eeep!"
"Oops, forgot to say 'watch your step'." Chad says with fake innocents in his mocking tone.
I scowl up at him, raising my hand up for him to help me. He gives his hand. "Asshole! You did that on purpose!" I yell, dusting myself off with my free hand.
He shrugs. "Maybe I did, maybe I didn't." He winks and walks on, not letting go of my hand.
I pull my hand out of his gasp, continuing to walk on. Chad frowns at me, shaking his head and grabs for my hand again. Squeezing tightly so I can't pull away. Stupid Chad! However, a small smile manages to escape my lips at his actions.
"You know, I would have shut those idiots up and showed them that I am capable of fighting my own battles if you didn't butt in and throw that ball. Which was unnecessary."
"Oh really now?" Chad said unconvinced. "What would you have done? Please, enlighten me. I'm dying to know."
I frown. "Well, I was planning on punching them."
He burst out laughing. "I'm sorry but I can't picture that happening."
"You wanna bet?" my voice raspy with anger. Before he could give one of his sly comments, I quickly threw my fist forward and punch his arm, with everything I had.
Chad snorts. "That was a punch?" My jaw clinches and I'm about to go for round two, when he stops walking and pulls me back.
"What now?" I asked, annoyed.
He looks down at me, as we stand facing each other, eyes sparkling with a mischief glint surfacing. And then he's kissing me. On the lips. Chad's tongue stroked along my teeth, asking for entrance. I can't seem to think at all and feel the need to reach for his soft hair. I tug at it when I feel him nipping on my lower lip. This was hot.
At one point we came up for air, he murmured, "I don't ever want this to stop." before he smashed his lips onto mine again, like a greedy savage. And just when things are becoming steamy, he breaks off the kiss and pulls himself away.
I'm left with my mouth wide open and roughed-up hair like I was attack by a really crazy monkey. I was kind of surprised that Chad out-of-the-blue kissed me! But this is Chad I'm dealing with! Any things expected.
"What's the matter?" I ask breathless, following his gaze.
He groans and looks ahead into the dark bushes. "Just one more kiss." He captures my lips again but its gone before I can enjoy it. He takes my hand and leads me ahead. I'm feeling all blissful as if I just won the lotto. But my happy moment is gone when Chad puts his hand in my face, stopping me.
Rude much?
"I need you too shush now!" he snaps.
"But I wasn't even--"
"His right behind this tree. I don't want you to scare away dinner." Chad hushes me and points to a tree that had someone's arm peeking out, behind. A human.
I roll my eyes. "I still don't understand why I got to be here."
"Because," Chad turns to face me. "You are to guard us from human eyes. Now quit whining and stand watch. Can you do that princess?"
I glare at his stupid smirking face. "Call me princess again." I threaten.
"Princess." he says casually and walks around the tree.
I swallow down my anger, rolling my eyes and sighing out loud instead. I hear Chad telling the human that he 'will not remember this at all and it won't hurt' and blah, blah. I soon get bored. A few groans coming from the human, I presume, and my curiosity grows bigger.
No, don't do it Sasha! My inner-voice warns. But I want to see how Chad looks like when he's feeding! I argue back. A nagging urge got me to move my foot in front of the other. A few more steps and they come into my line of view. The human guy is up against the tree, going pale with Chad sucking onto his wrist.
My eyes go wide in fascination. Maybe I was frozen in my spot, eyes glued to Chad's lips sucking away, because this was the first time seeing him feed. Or maybe I wasn't surprised but rather jealous of the human. Chad and I would have been in this position if he just accepted to drink me. And I be more satisfying to feed off of than that Mr. Human.
Chad somehow senses I'm watching and his eyes open to look at me, mouth still suckling. My eyebrows arch together while my head tilts to the side, studying Chad's expression. And then Chad's mouth leaves the humans wrist and suddenly he zips right up to me. His expression is searching mine, human blood dripping down his lips.
The urge to kiss his lips again was strong, but I hesitated. Not sure if this was a right moment.
"Or you frightened by this?" Chad spoke after a long pause.
I want to laugh, but I shrug instead. "I'll tell you if you kiss me again." I heard myself say boldly. Wow, where did that come from? However, if felt so satisfying to say it.
Chad looks unsure. Probably thinking if I was joking or being serious. I was SO serious right now! "You want me too?" he asked softly.
I close the distance, looking deep within his eyes. More than anything. "Yes."
He moves slowly forward. I lick my lips in anticipation, watching his eyes looking hungrily at my lips. But just as his soft lips graze over mine, he mumbles, "There's something you need to know."
My ears perk up at his words. I open my eyes and see his eyes are shut tightly.
"There's something about me that you don't know." he pauses and re-opens, staring intensely into my eyes now. "I know it was wrong of me to keep this from you but back then I didn't think it would get worse."
Gets worse? What was worse? "Chad, what are you trying to say?"
"That the truth is; I really, really, really want to drink you dry. I want to suck out all your blood until there's not one single drop left. I've wanted too since the moment you became a Flesher. But you see, there's that one little tiny voice in the back of my mind that reminds me why I cannot do that. And that tiny little voice is what motivates me to forget about those-those,"
"Chad, you're shaking." I point out, seeing his body shiver uncontrollable and a distant look in his stressed eyes.
"Those strong urges! Do you know how hard it is to even stand here right now without sinking my teeth into your neck? Your blood is so delicious and it gets more stronger each time I'm near you!" he yells out in frustration. Calming down as he notices me looking at him with bewilderment. He sighs.
"I don't take that temptation, Sacha, because I could not live a second without you with me."
My mouth open. Was this Chad finally telling me he has affection for me? What he said got to mean something!
Oh, gosh, its now or never. I never in my entire life have ever admitted this to anyone before. I've never truly loved someone. I didn't believe in the L.O.V.E word because there wasn't anyone there to show me how it feels. Until now, that is.
This moment felt right. It was the moment in every cliche movie where it's just you and the guy that clammed your heart. Nothing else mattered but this moment.
Come on, Sasha! My inner-voice urged. You can do this! These feelings aren't one sided and you know that now!
Shut up! I scowled my inner-voice, getting irritated. I can do this without you bugging me, jeesh!
Chad's eyes searched mine, causing me to fall out of purpose for a moment. Blame his distracting beauty.
With time ticking preciously away, the building urge to expose my feelings was growing stronger and stronger. I gritted my teeth and balled my fist for courage.
"I . . ." I began but noticed that my voice was muted. "I . . ." The more I tried speaking up, I was beginning to lose my courage. I felt like the ball of determination was shrinking, and fast! It was slipping out of my gasp and I couldn't do anything about it if I lost it.
This moment would not come again. It wouldn't! Chad would never show me this side of him again. Hence that he would ever let me see this sweet vulnerable side that sparked something inside of me. Wait, my determination was coming back. I could feel it pulsing through my dark blood.
But Chad was already beginning to walk away!
NO! HE WILL NOT LEAVE ME!
"Chad!" I yelled out and gripped his shirt collar, turning him to face me. Where I got the strength to shout out like I did, I had no idea but I wasn't complaining. "Don't you walk away from me!" I was angry. Angry with myself for almost losing him. Angry that I was angry. However, I felt I needed something from him. What he gave me, I guess it wasn't enough.
He needed to feed me more . . .
However, he said and did nothing. Just stood there, looking at me as if I held all the answers to this world.
I pulled him closer to me, my hands still gripping to his collar with dear life, as if I was holding onto a beating heart that would bring me to life.
Yes! That's it! Chad had clammed my heart. He had my heart the entire time, I was too blind to see it. Without him in my life, I was nothing. I was a dead Flesher without my beating heart--Chad.
I wanted to scream and cry out because I realized that he had been feeding me exactly what I needed. Yet, I couldn't say what I felt inside. It was as if my lips sealed themselves together.
My eyes desperately begging him to unseal my lips. I hoped he understood my silent pleading.
And then he made a move. His hand reached up towards my cheek and wiped a tear that I had not realized, had fallen.
He hushed me and his eyes held so much pain within, it caused another tear to fall from my eye. "Shh, it's okay." he forced a small smile.
"Chad," I heard my voice say. My voice had come back. I'm doing this now! I'm going to speak my heart. "Cha--"
His finger touched my lips and he gave me a silent look of loss. He took a deep breath in and said, "I'm glad you know the reason why I couldn't stay yesterday." Chad bowed his head.
"I really--"
"There were things that you needed to know. And I was selfish to keep them from you for this long." he cut in. He cleared away the broke tone and strongly said, "A small part of me is sorry that I had to kill you. You were so innocent. So vulnerable to the world. But the other parts are glad I killed you," he looks into my eyes whilst his darkens. "Because sooner or later you would have killed yourself if I hadn't."
"Why would you say something like that?"
"Your depression was written all over your face. I could tell that you wanted to die that night I killed you. You were sad and broken, and I took that all away from you. I killed your sad heart. I realize that now. You are much happier dead than alive." He chuckles but it doesn't reach his eyes. "And--and you got this--this nagging darkness within you that thrives for a kill. You sometimes embrace this darkness and lose control over your humanity. But something grabs you back."
He steps closer.
"Or someone." I finish. I arch my brows together with question. "How do you know all this?"
"Because, we are more alike than you realize."
Was it true? Were we both the same kind of people? Yes we were. I had known from the start that we had a lot of things in common. Both stubborn, selfish, dangerous, hot headed and the list goes further on. I was hiding the truth behind a made-up thought, thinking maybe from eating Chad's flesh all the time that I kind of developed his personality. How foolish.
Shrugging, I say, "So?"
"You don't get it do you?" his soft expression changes to bewildered. "We need each other. We can't separate. Loose the one, the other looses its humanity." Chad's hands enclose around my cheeks. "Why is it so hard for you to just admit what you feel inside for me?" His tone lacking control. "You can't deny that we hold each other up. That we keep each other from going crazy. Right?"
I shift on my feet. "Yeah . . ."
"If you can admit that we need each other, why not admit we can be together?" Chad cuts in with a rush, gripping my shoulders.
I open my mouth to speak but no words come out.
"Come on Sasha, meet me half way here!" He lets go on my shoulders and tugs at his silk chest-nut hair in frustration. Why couldn't I do this now? Was I being selfish to Chad? "You've been leading me on for ages. You got to at least have feeling for me? Right?" he question with hopeful eyes. I said nothing. "Right? Sasha am I right?" He stepped closer to me, awaiting my answer.
Silence.
What was holding me back now? Where had all my courage, my determination, my feelings gone too? Moments ago I was about to pour everything out in the open. Now, now it seems that my mind was blank without life. How I was feeling now could mean a Million things. Could mean that I'm stupid and won't admit it. Or maybe it could mean that I was shocked that Chad was literally begging me to love him back.
Why was I being a pussy about it then?!
Chad had bowed his head. It made me want to cry again. "Chad, Chad look at me." I ordered, gaining urgent eyes to meet mine. "You are great." I heard myself say. But then I realized just how awkward my words where put. I really sucked at telling my feelings to someone and that's why I couldn't speak up when my chance was there. I didn't know where to start. "You are great, so great. How I ended up--no, how fate had brought us together--" I paused, stumbling over my words. My jaw clinched, feeling ridiculous and aggravated that I couldn't do this right. How the hell did girls do this?
A small ghost of a smile appeared at his lips.
I turned my head away and put my hand to my face to hide it away from Chad. This is so embarrassing Sasha! Smooth, real smooth!
Chad takes my hand away from my face, and says, "You don't have to speak then. Just show me how much I mean to you."
My eyes watered. "No."
The smile dropped from his lips. But I knew what to do now. My courage was back. It came back because even though it has taken me this long to say something, he still had patience and waited for me.
I moved closer. Slowly going up to his face on my tippy-toes, while looking into his eyes, I hold both his cheeks in my hands as I say, "Answer me this. If I walk away from you right now and never let you in to know what I truly feel inside, would you still have feeling for me . . .?"
Chad has an emotionless face and stays silent. If I had a heart it would have broke into a Zillion pieces.
"Then I'd try every day, every minute of every hour, to show you just how much you drive me crazy for you. I'd do anything it takes for you to realize we are perfect for each other, Sasha." He answered. His own eyes watering up.
Those words left me speechless. But those were the words I was looking for.
A tear escaped my eye and as it dropped off my chin. I smashed my lips onto his.
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