The celebrations for the Spring Festival started early. The entire hacienda was agog with excitement at seeing Sergio use his godly gifts and worship him even more than they did year round.
Noelle was alone watching from the sidelines since Lucero had been ordered to help set up the outer courtyard so it could accommodate all of the villagers that would be joining for the holiday.
With everyone so busy, it meant that Noelleâs actions were not as scrutinized so she could accomplish the first part of her plan.
Sheâd grinned the shrooms sheâd stolen to a fine powder, and the next step was to dump it into the stew that would be served to all the guests. She was still a little wary of the dosages, but from what sheâd been able to research, if she gave them slightly too much, they would just hallucinate for longer.
She didnât necessarily care how much they hallucinated as long as they did.
The opportunity arose the night before the celebration when the kitchen was left unattended.
Given the quantity of stew the cooks had had to prepare, theyâd cooked everything the day before and had left the pots in the main kitchen. It was infinitely easy for Noelle to sneak inside and heat them up while stirring the ground shrooms inside until the contents became homogeneous.
With that part out of the way, she needed to prepare for her following step.
For months, sheâd practiced the words in the ancient language with Luceroâs help and she was sure she would succeed. But while sheâd thought of all the details, there was still the element of surprise.
She would be putting on the performance of her lifetime, and she would be doing it in front of Sergio and his faithful villagers, which made it the ultimate risk. If it didnât work according to plan⦠She was going to die.
She knew that. Lucero knew that.
She either succeeded in her ruse, or she would die for itâthere was no in-between.
Yet her life was at risk for every moment she breathed in his foreign land. Whether she died by her own folly or because Sergio caught her unawares, she knew the end would still be death.
Now, if she succeeded⦠That was another story altogether.
If she managed to pull off her plan, she would not only get away with her life intact, but she was sure that everyone would give her the same reverence they gave Sergio, if not more.
She would finally haveâ¦power.
Was it for power that she was doing all this, or was it merely for survival? Noelle had asked herself that question numerous times as she prepared for the Spring Festival.
Deep down, she knew she could have found other waysâwould have likely been able to contact her family if she tried enough. But a part of her didnât want to.
She wanted to succeed on her own. She wanted to achieve power Because at the end of the day what was it to her if she returned to her family? She would still be just as powerless, her life not her own, her choices nonexistent.
At least this way, whether she lived or died would have been her own choice.
She would have had the power to decideâsomething she hadnât had the luxury of many times in her life.
And if it worked⦠She was certain she would be one step closer to finding her Blue.
The months might have passed. The seasons might have changed. But her heart remained the same.
Still hurting. Still yearning. Stillâ¦loving.
Blue never strayed far from her thoughts for she always imagined what he would say or do in a certain situation. He was in her dreams, both at night and during the day.
He simplyâ¦was one with her.
On the one hand, it gave her the necessary strength to plan and plot, to wait and bide her time. But it also made the chasm inside her heart deepen every time she realized she still did not know how he wasâif he was still alive.
Despite that, Noelle lied to herself.
She convinced herself he was still alive, thinking of her just as she thought of him. She convinced herself that one way or another, she would find him and he would fall for her as heâd been meant to from the beginning.
It didnât matter if it was delusionalâif even Lucero thought her mad for entertaining such thoughts about someone sheâd never once talked to in real life.
Maybe she was mad. Maybe she didnât want to be anything other than mad.
Because at least she still had him.
The more she found herself in conflict with her daily life, the more she relied on her dreamsâthat land she could only visit at night but which she could tailor perfectly to her liking. And there, her BlueâRafaelo as sheâd call him affectionately if they were face to faceâwas hers and hers alone.
How many times had she dreamed about him holding her, kissing her, making love to her? How many times sheâd snuggled into her pillow, inhaling deeply as if she could recreate his scent?
She wasnât ashamed to admit she spent her days half a ghost because her nights were consumed by thoughts of him. If she wasnât plotting her next move, she was imagining how her future would look like with him.
Lucero had been very frank with her.
âI donât know how you could trust another man after El Señor.â
âBlue isnât just any other man,â sheâd replied, almost offended. âHeâsâ¦the kindest, most thoughtful person. Not all men are like this, Lucero,â sheâd told her friend, knowing her own experiences had soured her completely towards the opposite sex.
âButâ¦wouldnât you be scared that heâ¦â
âHe would never raise a hand against me.â
Lucero had refrained from questioning her assurance considering she didnât know the real him. Instead, sheâd confessed that she didnât believe there were good men. All her life sheâd never met one who didnât want to either rape her or abuse her.
Noelle could certainly understand her point of view.
But Blue was Blue. And she was absolutely certain that he would never do anything against her wishes.
That had been their last conversation on the topic since Lucero had seen that Noelle was unyielding when it came to her Blue. Instead, sheâd quietly supported her.
But that was Lucero. She was quite possibly the purest person Noelle had ever met. And despite her naiveté that was so contrary to their battle for survival, Noelle didnât want to see her lose the core of who she was. For that reason alone, sheâd promised herself that she would never force Lucero out of her comfort zone, preferring to keep quiet about the more morally questionable matters. After all, if she found out, Lucero would involve herself simply to help Noelleâeven if it went against everything she believed in.
Noelle didnât want that. She was already gone, so she wasnât worried about herself. But Lucero could still hold onto her humanity for longer.
âThe ceremony will start in an hour,â Luceroâs voice made Noelle turn her head towards the door of her room.
âIâm ready,â she nodded, tying the traditional belt around her waist.
She did her best to conceal the small bags sheâd attached to the body underneath the clothes, for that was to be the main attraction of the show.
âIt has to work,â Lucero said as she neared her side to help her put on the headdress.
Noelle noted the difference in her wording. Usually, she would ask her if it would work, not that it to work.
âIt will,â she assured her. âI have this. By the end of the day, Sergio will kneel to ,â she said, determination dripping from every syllable.
Looking at her reflection in the mirror, Noelle saw the same conviction shine bright in her eyes, just as she noted her different appearance. It had nothing to do with the traditional clothing she was wearing. Rather, it had everything to do with who sheâd becomeâthe person sheâd transformed to be able to come to this point.
It hadnât been easy.
She would be lying if she said she hadnât thought about what she was about to do countless times, knowing she was either going towards her salvation, or her death. Such thoughts tended to change a person, whether they wanted to or not.
But that was another lesson she had to learn.
With the power to choose also came the responsibility for oneâs choice.
âLetâs do this,â she nodded.
Lucero lent Noelle her arm as they slowly made their way to the courtyard. She had to be careful to not disturb her outfit and make sure she didnât burst any of the bags underneath before the time was right.
Music blasted through the air, together with the sound of people talking loudly and singing along.
Together, all the villages were composed of some hundreds of peopleâall present today to see Sergio do his yearly sacrifice.
Yet by this point, they must have already been served the stew, the psychedelic slowly seeping into their systems and getting them ready for what Noelle had in mind.
âSergio wonât even know what hit him,â she joked as they hid in a corner, waiting for Sergio to make his debut onto the makeshift stage that had been built in the middle of the courtyard.
âI canât wait to see his face when he realizes whatâs happening,â Lucero chuckled.
âIs everything else ready, too?â
Lucero nodded.
âI released all the horses from the stables. When they hear the sound, they will panic and run around.â
âGood. What about the other thing I asked you?â
âIt wasnât easy,â Lucero pursed her lips. âBut I managed to attach it to his belt. Luckily heâd had two bowls of stew so his aim wasnât very good.â
âTell me he didnât grope you.â
âHe wanted to. Didnât succeed.â
âGood.â
âYou still havenât told me what you mean to do with that,â Lucero frowned.
âItâs better you donât know until the moment is right,â Noelle smiled, though it didnât quite reach her eyes.
Lucero pursed her lips but she didnât say anything more. Instead, she just handed Noelle the basket with the goods.
âThey arenât poisonous, so donât worry too much.â
âThey can still strangle me to death,â Noelle joked.
âI donât think itâs the time to think of such scenarios.â
âYouâre right,â Noelle sighed. âJust look at him,â she nodded towards the stage.
There were two bands playing. One on the right side of the stage and the other on the left side.
Sergio was garbed in a colorful tunic held together by a gold band. He had an ostentatious headdress onâa symbol of his status. And as he walked among the villagers, they all knelt before him, blessing him and thanking him for all heâd done for the region.
Some women wept. Others fainted from being so close to the . The men, too, sported a perpetual expression of awe as their knees trembled.
Noelleâs lips curled in disdain as she watched the way Sergio preened at the adoration coming his way. And thatâs how she knew that it wasnât all about the money, or the authority to conduct his business as he pleased. No, it all came down to his ego being constantly fed with this obscene veneration.
âItâs starting,â Lucero whispered as the music suddenly changed to a quieter melody.
âBienvenido a todos,â Sergioâs voice boomed as he spoke into the microphone.
âIâm surprised he didnât require you on the stage, too,â her friend commented.
âIâm not. He knows how much the people dislike me and he wants to keep it this way. If he had invited me there, it would have meant he was acknowledging me publicly, and thatâs the last thing he wanted.â
âYou know,â Lucero licked her lips, her head tilted to the side. âThereâs something that I just donât understand.â
âWhat is it?â Noelle turned towards her.
âIf you ignore what you did to him on the wedding night, why was he so adamant to marry youâan outsider? He would have known the people wouldnât take well to you, as they are doing right now.â
âIâm not sure. From what I heard, Sergio insisted on the wedding. Althoughâ¦â she paused, her brows knit together as a scene from months ago came to mind.
Sheâd laid on the floor, bleeding, while Sergio had paced around the room in a fit of anger. Heâd muttered something about his plans going to shit because of herâthat heâd promised something that he couldnât deliver.
It had been only later that sheâd found out Sergio, embodying his full godly persona years back, had made a prediction about his future wifeâan outsider who would bring forth change.
âI think he wanted to use me,â Noelle said pensively.
âUse you?â
Noelle briefly recounted what sheâd heard.
âI think he planned to change things around but he didnât know how to legitimize his ideas.â
âSo he pretended it was a divine prophecy?â Lucero snorted.
âIt might be why everyone hates me so much. What if he didnât specify change, and now the people think Iâve come to destroy everything?â
Lucero pursed her lips, muling over the information for a moment.
âIt could be. El Señor could tell them anything and they would believe it. He could evenâ¦â
They both turned towards each other at the same time, their eyes widening in stark realization.
Sergio didnât need to do anything to Noelleânot with his own hands. He only needed to insinuate that she was a pest, and the villagers would take care of her.
Wouldnât that be perfect for him? If a mob suddenly trampled over Noelle and killed her ?
Right at that moment, Sergioâs voice boomed in the air, his words echoing her thoughts.
âCreo que han visto que nuestra tierra ha sido invadida. Que tenemos a nuestros lados la personificación del diablo. Y hoy, estoy aquà para mostrárselo que los voy a proteger como lo he hecho durante decades. Hoy, nos enfrentaremos juntos a esta plaga y vamos a enterar este desgraciado capÃtulo de nuestras vidas. Ahoraâ¦â
âThe motherfuckerâ¦â Noelle muttered. âI need to act. Fast.â
âBut Noelle⦠They just ate. Donât they need more time for the drug to act?â
âI canât let him make me public enemy number one,â she said determinately. âBe ready to sound the alarm on my command.â
Before Lucero could say anything else, Noelle took over the lid off the basket, reaching inside and wrapping her hands around the serpentâs body as she carefully draped it around her shoulders. And taking a step forward, she pushed her chin up in defiance as she prepared for the craziest moment in her life.
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Noelle slowly made her way through the crowd, and upon seeing her, people stepped out of her way, a clear path appearing between her and the stage.
Everyone was talking in hushed tones, but among their chatter, Noelle recognized the signs of the drug taking effect.
Some thought she was a stranger. Others believed her to be an apparition. Some even claimed she was a goddess as they saw the snake slithering on her shoulders.
She straightened her back as she brought her hands to the buttons of her tunic, slowly unbuttoning them and letting the material fall to the ground. In the process, the bags sheâd sown on the inside of the cloth burst, red liquid dripping down her naked body.
Her clothes slowly pooled at her feet, her only cover the animal blood that draped her from head to toe.
Gasps erupted in the crowd, peopleâs eyes bulging in their heads as they stared at her.
She walked sensuously towards the stage, the white snake hissing and baring its fangs to the people on the side.
Suddenly, some dropped to their knees, a prayer on their lips. Others, swooned and crossed themselvesâperchance hoping that christianity would give them an answer.
Noelle smiled furtively as she realized they were seeing her as she had wished.
Through the lens of the psychedelic, they didnât see a small woman covered in blood. They saw a graceful creature being from blood, walking proudly towards the stage with her faithful reptilian companion.
The music stopped.
Sergio stared at her unblinkingly. He couldnât even mask his shock as he took her in.
âWhat is the meaning of this?â He gritted out at her, noticing from the corner of his eyes how people were reacting to Noelle.
â¿Cómo me hablas asÃ, hijo?â She asked in a clear tone, her accent flawless.
Sergioâs mouth dropped open, as did everyone elseâs.
âHijo?â He repeated.
âNo me digas que no me reconoces en este cuerpo.â
Whispers floated in the air. Though the drug distorted peopleâs perceptions of what they were seeing, it didnât fully inhibit their understanding.
Everyone heard what sheâd said.
.
Sheâd called Sergio son.
But how could she do that, unlessâ¦
âTÅnacÄcihuÄtl! Someone suddenly yelled.
The name echoed through the crowd, everyone joining in a choir.
âTÅnacÄcihuÄtl?â Sergio sneered.
âAsi me tratas?â She tilted her head, keeping her composure as she looked him dead in the eye.
Screams. Prayers. Chants.
The entire yard was agog with reactions, some stronger and more vocal than others. Yet at first sight, Noelle could see that the combination of her appearance and the drug theyâd imbibed had the intended effect.
They no longer saw her as Noelleâthe abandoned wife, the outsider.
Now she was just a vassal for TÅnacÄcihuÄtl.
âWhat the fuck do you think youâre doing, Noelle?â Sergio snapped as he climbed down the stage, striding towards her, murderous rage oozing from him.
Fernando was following closely behind, his expression closed off as he awaited Sergioâs orders.
Noelleâs gaze dipped to his belt, an insidious smile pulling at her lips.
As Sergio stopped in front of her, she realized she didnât even mind her lack of clothing anymore, the blood giving her a power unlike any other. Like a drape over her body, it hugged her skin, providing an immortal armor between her and the world. And in the eyes of the world, she was just thatâtimeless, immortal.
âWhat do you think Iâm doing?â She murmured softly, the words only for his ears.
Looking right and left, she raised her arms in the air, more drops of blood falling to the ground.
At the same time, one by one, more people knelt down in front of her.
âWhat the fuck,â Sergio burst out, grabbing her hand in a bruising hold.
Noelle bit down against the pain, her body recognizing danger as it had become too inured to Sergioâs revenge sessions. It took everything within her not to give inâroll to the ground into a fetus position to avoid being hit.
She raised her gaze, brazenly looking at him.
she told herself. Now, more than ever, he couldnât hurt her in front of everyone.
âIâm here for one reason and one reason only,â she smiled smugly. âPayback,â she whispered.
Right at that moment, she squeezed her fist, clicking the small transmitter sheâd hidden.
The countdown began.
âTu,â she said as she wrenched her arm from Sergio, taking a step back as she pointed towards Fernando.
Counting the seconds, she backed further and further away until the time was almost upon her.
âLa muerte vino por ti,â her voice thundered ominously.
Fernandoâs eyes narrowed in question while Sergioâs widened in alarm.
He barely managed to take a step away from Fernando when his body exploded from the waist up. Pieces of bone and flesh flew through the air, blood splattering among the crowd and spilling onto the ground.
Noelleâs gaze went to the house and she gave a harsh nodâher signal to Lucero.
In no time, animals started running around the hacienda, the thumping of the horses blasting through the air. They were all running amok, surrounding the crowd of people, with some cutting through it. Yet through all of this, no one moved. They might have been alarmed, but their faith kept them rooted to the spot.
Despite the mass hysteria the animals should have caused, the people were still on their knees, watching Noelle with awe in their eyes, her goddess name on their lips as they intoned that sheâd come to save them.
Too bad, though, that sheâd only come to damn them.
And Sergio was the first one on Noelleâs list.