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âPerry, please donât do this right now,â he leans into me his forehead pressing against mine until the back of my head hits the door behind me. âI know what happened was terrible but you canât just shut down like this, Baby. I need you as much as you need me.â
âCan we talk about this upstairs?â I can barely hear my own voic
He nods and reaches down to grab onto my thighs. I wrap my arms around him and then my legs when he lifts me up. I shut my eyes when he gets to the second floor where my study Itâs late so I imagine that Hunter and Natalie are in bed
Valentina and Rose have been taking care of them. I didnât have the heart to tell her that her new boyfriend was a serial- killing feral who was trapped in Jakeâs skin. Jordan and James were forbidden to say anything to anyone including the twins. The King sits on our bed setting me down on hits lap. I sit up and he pushes my hair out of my face.
âI love you,â he says gently. âAll of you. Youâre mine. So, when you say shit like what you did downstairs, it kills me because I know you fucking mean it,â he grips my hair to pull me closer. His lips press against mine for a moment before he lets me go to wrap his arms around me. âI donât know how to make this better.
any more than he does.
My hot tears land on his cheek and I wrap myself around him. I donât know what to do any
âI just lost my family, I choke out, I try to control myself but my body just ends up shaking. âAll of it. Thereâs nothing left, You have me. You have our family,â he holds me tighter.
I know that. I know that they all care about me
âI donât know if I want that, itâll happen again and again and agam. The way it always does he pulls away looking up at me.
âWant what?â
âYour family,â
âDonât fucking say that. Donât fucking say that to me,â
âI killed mine,â
âNo,â he shakes his as he holds my face in place. âListen to me. Oh, Baby that wasnât on you. None of this is your fault. Youâre so fucking lucky to have survived. Youâre out,â
âYou heard what he said. You were there. The Falcon is gone. He was supposed to be the bad guy. The evil man. Itâs not going to stop,
âPerry,â he growls.
I push him away needing to breathe. To stop the trembling in my bones, but he doesnât lerme. His arms tighten around me keeping me here.
âI donât want anyone else to die because of me,â
âNo one else is going to die, Baby,â he says against the back of my head. âYou have me now. I have an army. I have everything you need to keep us safe We have to stay together, Perry, I know youâre scared, but running isnât the answer. Weâll figure this
but
âYou canât make any of those promises. Iâve heard them before,
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âPerry,â he says genily and uns me around. âYou belong to me. You know I would do anything for you. There is nothing else for us out there.â he cups my face and fuck him because the gentle way heâs touching me has stopped the shaking in my body. âYou and me, Little Wolf. Nothing else matters.
âIt doesnât matter if we happened by accident or if your great great great great great grandfather orchestrated it. This is real, Weâre flesh and blood,â he drops his hand to his mark on my neck and then moves over to where Darrenâs had been. âDarren was real. All of it. I felt it in the way we destroyed one another when we met. I feel it now.
âYou love me as much as I love you. If what that thing said was true, youâre right. Eventually, theyâre going to come for their shit. Hunter and Natalie. Everything you stole from the Wraith. We hold all the cards.
âIâm so sorry this happened to you. Mackenzie deserved more. She was one of us and weâre not going to let that go. Youâre not the only one hurting, Baby. We all loved them because they were your family. Our family. Youâre ours. They were ours. Youâre not alone anymore. Do you understand? I want that out of your head. There is no place you can run to where we wouldnât find you. Stop trying to push me away. Iâm not going anywhere,â
âOkay,â I nod. His words are echoing in my head violently.
âOkayâ he lets out a sigh of relief and wraps me up in another hag 1 bring my arms up to hug him around the waist.
âI knew the blue monkshood wasnât going to kill me. I was never any danger. Oz tested it on several DNA samples before giving it to Dr. Salazar. If they would have told me it wasnât going to work, I wouldnât have gone through with it,â
âWhy do you say mean shit like that to me?â he nips at my neck.
Tve told you before, Jonas. Just because Iâm trying my best to be better doesnât mean Iâm not an asshole anymore, Ishrug.
âIf my hair wasnât already fading to white, youâd be aging me,â
âYouâre old. That was bound to happen,â I laugh when he growls at me playfully.
âGet out of this. Itâs wet and I need you to get warm,â he pulls back my coat
âYou need me to?â I roll my eyes.
âI need you to, Little Wolf. Youâre not going to take care of yourself properly, so I will,â
He unzips my dress and slowly drags it down my body until I can step out of it. He rips my nylons off leaving me in just my underwear. Without warning he scoops me up and takes us to the bed. He hisses when his bare skin presses against mine under the blankets,
âYouâre hot,â I press myself closer to him.
âItâs the only thing you like about me, he laughs wrapping me up in his arms. I turn around to face him.
âThatâs not true. I donât like you âcause youâre hot, I laugh.
âYouâve said that to me on more than one occasion,â
âYouâre remembering that wrong. Iâm pretty sure the words I used were I donât bite your cock off because thatâs the only thing I like about you. Itâs not the same thing.â
âHmm, I think Iâd remember that,â he shakes his head.
âI lied. You know that, right?â
The thing about my dick?â
âYeah,â
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âSo you donât like it,â
âYeah, but I also like that youâre hot. I like that youâre fucking old enough to like journaling,â I laugh.
âIâm going to push you out of the bed if you keep calling me old
âYouâre eleven years older than me, I laugh. He growls cligging his fingers into my thighs. âIâm sorry,â
âFor what?â
Î
âFor everything. I mean things Iâve done to us personally, I reach up to touch the scar on his face. All the fuck up shit I said. I didnât mean it. I just didnât want you to love me. Youâre a straighâup masochist,â
âWhat does that make you?â he smirks. âA sadist?â
âI donât like humiliating people. I immediately regret shit as soon as it leaves my mouth. I said some fucked up shit to Knightly just before we went after the wraith. I say mean things to you all the time and I punish myself for that. A lot. Itâs why it doesnât hurt my feelings when other people say ugly things to me. I have to live with myself. Know that what I say to you or others is never as bad as what I say to myself,â
Im very well aware of that. I wish I could change that. I wish I could make you see you the way I see you,â
âNo, I donât think that would be ideal,â I shake my head.
âWhy?â he laughs.
My great great great great great great grandfather is so selfâfulfilled that he thinks heâs a god. Can you imagine me with a godâcomplex? Fuck that. It would be over for everyone,â
We both laugh
âYouâre right it would be disastrous,â he pulls me closer. âBesides, the last thing I want to do is pray when I get on my knees in front of you. Thatâs reserved for ungodly things,â
âAre you propositioning me?â I sit up.
âIs that weird?â he grins.
âThe only other time you did it was the first time we fucked. And it was just as amazing as this time around,â I laugh. âIâm usually the one that goes after you,â
âWe donât have to,â
âFuck that,â I pull the blankets off us. âMy mate is initiating sex with slick fucking lines. Weâre doing this,â
âI was actually told I didnât have any game,â he laughs.
âWhoever told you that, is a sad lonely fuck, I straddle him and press my lips to his âWho doesnât know what the hell theyâre talking about,â his hands roam my body the way they always do. You made a suicidal feral wolf fall in love with you and it had nothing to do with a fucking mateâs bond,â
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