I had always been good at math. Med school required itâdosages, statistics, biostats, even the dreaded calculus. I aced them all.
So, I knew how to calculate a due date, and after working out the math on Ellaâs, I couldnât think of anything else.
For days, I had done nothing but run the numbers in my head, over and over, as if the outcome might somehow change. But it didnât. It never did. The timeline was too perfect.
The twins were early, but not too early. Backtracking their conception pointed straight to that week on the island with Ella.
And now, nothing else mattered. I had to know.
I sat at my hospital office desk, fingers drumming, coffee cold at my elbow, walls closing in.
What else could I do?
I had already reached outâsent a basket, every luxury a new mom might need. I needed her to know I was thinking of her. Maybe, selfishly, I needed her to think of me.
I had included the plastic mermaid in the basket because I wanted to remind her of what we had. To feel what I feltâthat it hadnât just been some meaningless one-night stand.
But the truth was, I didnât know what I felt. You donât develop feelings for a person in one night. Thatâs not how this works.
I wasnât a hopeless romantic. Love at first sight didnât existânot really. That was chemistry. Lust. A trick of biology.
But Ella? She left a mark. A need that hadnât faded.
I wasnât used to being left behind. Women didnât slip out of my bed without a word. They lingered, hoping for another night, another chance. Ella vanished before the sheets cooled, and that shouldnât have gotten under my skin.
But it did.
And if this obsession had been just about pride, I would have forgotten her by now.
I grabbed my phone, my fingers moving before I could second-guess myself again.
Dom: Hey, Ella. Just checking in. How are you?
I stared at the screen, my pulse hammering. It wasnât ten minutes before three dots appeared. Then they vanished. Then they came back.
Ella: Hey. Iâm okay. Tired, but good.
I exhaled sharply. She didnât sound distant. That was something. I took a chance.
Dom: Iâd like to see you. Can we meet up?
There was a longer pause this time. Thenâ â
Ella: Iâm not leaving my apartment anytime soon, so if you want to see me, youâll have to come to me.
My chest tightened. An invitation. At least things were moving in the right direction.
Dom: 6 good?
Ella: See you then.
The rest of my workday felt like a weight had been lifted. I moved through surgeries on autopilotâstill doing my best, but my mind was elsewhere. No one seemed to notice, so I must have been doing well enough.
By the end of my shift, the streets of New York blurred past me as I walked, my body moving on autopilot.
My mind wasnât in this office. It was back on that island. Back on her.
I could still see herâsun-kissed skin glowing under the tiki torches, hair wild from the ocean breeze, laughter sharp and intoxicating. She was untamed, messy, perfect.
I remembered how she melted against me. The way she gasped when I slid inside her, nails carving into my shoulders, begging for more without a single word.
I still tasted herâsalt, bourbon, fruit, and something purely Ella. I could still hear the low, desperate sounds she made as I pushed her to the edge, the crash of waves filling the room as I buried myself deeper inside her.
I wanted her like I hadnât wanted anyone in years.
And I wasnât done wanting her.
I hadnât thought about protection that night. Not once. I was clean, tested regularly, and Iâd assumed she was covered. Thatâs how it usually wentâwith women my age, women who handled their own birth control or were past worrying about it.
But Ella was younger. Iâd been reckless.
I muttered a sharp curse, the sting of it hitting me fresh.
Still⦠would I have done a damn thing differently? Even knowing what I know now?
No.
Not for a second.
But now, I had to deal with the fallout.
Could I handle raising kids again? At my age?
Iâd loved it the first time. But back then, I was younger. I had energy to burn and a wife who managed the home so I could dominate my career.
Now? Everything was different.
I had grown kids. One, a ray of sunshine. The other, Leonardoâa man-child still playing at adulthood.
And just as I was poised to take on a job role that would own my time, my focus⦠did I really want to swap boardrooms for bottle feedings? Executive decisions for midnight meltdowns?
More importantlyâcould I still do it?
Patience wasnât exactly my strong suit anymore. I needed sleep. Iâd earned the right to need sleep. When Leonardo was born, I was practically a kid myself, running on adrenaline and bad coffee. And Jodieâs parents picked up the slack when we couldnât.
This time? There wouldnât be a village.
It would be me.
I didnât have answers yetâbut I would get them.
I needed the truth before I made any moves. Logic said there was a chance the twins werenât mine. Maybe she met someone else at the resort. Maybe some guy on the flight home. Hell, maybe she crawled back to that bastard ex of hers.
All possible. But I didnât know if I wanted them to be true.
If she had slept with someone else, if someone else was the biological father, then I was off the hook. And I didnât know if I wanted to be off the hook.
The only thing I knew for sure was how to play it.
Sheâd open the door, probably tired, but beautiful in that way only new mothers could beâsoft, radiant, and stronger than hell. Sheâd let me inside, and Iâd meet the girlsâsee them up close for the first time. After helping her settle them down for the night, weâd open the wine I brought and talk.
Reminisce about that night. Feel that pull again.
And if luck was on my side, Iâd end the night buried inside her.
Finally, Iâd ask the question that had been eating me alive, and sheâd tell me the answer that could shake my world.
When I reached her building, I hesitated for only a second before knocking. The door opened a moment later, andâ â
Jesus.
She looked wrecked.
She had dark circles under her eyes and her hair was piled into a messy bun, strands falling loose. Pajama pants hung low on her hips, the fabric wrinkled and stained.
And despite all of thatâdespite the exhaustion written across every inch of her face and leaking out of every poreâshe was still the most beautiful woman I had seen in years.
For a second, I forgot what I had come here to say. My brain was nothing but oatmeal.
She just stared at me. Silent. Frozen. Like Iâd knocked the wind out of her without even touching her.
Her hazel eyes darted across my face, searching for somethingâmercy, maybe, or a way outâbut finding none.
The color drained from her cheeks, leaving her pale but still maddeningly beautiful, radiant in a way that only mothers were. A fresh glow beneath the fatigue, the kind that made my gut twist and my chest burn.
The air stretched between us, taut as a wire, vibrating with everything we werenât saying.
âAre they mine?â The words ripped out of me, raw and unforgiving, shattering my careful plan.
No easing in.
No waiting.
Just the brutal truth clawing its way to the surface.
Ella froze, her breath hitching like Iâd sucker-punched her. Her eyes widened, wild and glassy, and her knuckles turned white where they gripped the doorframe. She stumbled back a step, like the floor itself had shifted beneath her. An invitation? A silent confession?
I followed her inside, shutting the door with a click that echoed like a gunshot in the suffocating silence. Bracing for the storm I knew was coming.