"Roger stop"
"No"
"What do you mean no?" I replied "I will do what I want. You don't fucking own me Roger!"
"You aren't leaving, you have to let me explain Evie. For god sake, do I need to get down on my knees and beg?"
"No Roger. It just still hurts" I said sadly, stepping back from him.
"Then let me explain, let me try and make it hurt a little less" The way his eyes were pleading and the soft hurt tone in his voice made my gut wrench.
"Fine" I said my voice shaking
"Really?"
"Yes, explain yourself Roger. Explain why I am so hurt" My voice was still trembling and my heart beating in anticipation of his explanation.
"Okay Evie. I need you to hear me out. I am going to be honest with you, most of all I need you to believe me" I nodded my head in agreement. I could see Roger's knee bouncing, a habit he had when he was nervous. I suddenly began to notice every detail of the large empty room. The room had a musty smell that hung in the air unpleasantly. A faint buzzing of electrical equipment was humming in the background and the feel of the squeaking leather drum stool against my thighs slimily.
"I want you to know. I didn't cheat on you" Roger stated simply, I opened my mouth to protest but remembered my agreement to hear him out and let him continue despite the anger flaming in my chest.
"Paul came in that night and I had one too many drinks. When he started to treat you badly I couldn't stand it anymore, so I lashed out and punched him. He just annoyed me so much, that anger had been building up for the whole tour and I just lost it at him. All I could ever think about is how he treated you, how he broke your heart, that he had the perfect woman and he completely disregarded and disrespected her. It infuriated me, I couldn't take it" He paused breathing deeply, I could feel my heart strings being gently tugged as this unfiltered stream of consciousness poured out from his soft lips.
"So after I stormed out my head was clouded with visions of the both of you two together. All I could see was an image of him dragging you away from me and me being unable to do anything about it. It broke my heart. I battled my way through the crowd and went outside to try and clear my head and to have a smoke. I went outside, I was alone. Chrystal came out and asked me for a cigarette" Even just her name coming out of his mouth hurt so much, he choked a little.
"She asked me for one, I told her I didn't have one. Then she started talking about Paul and you, how you guys had been getting awfully close and that you had been around to his trailer a few times recently. She said she didn't know what was going on between the both of you, but she thought you were cheating on me" His voice was wavering now, I could see tears forming in his eyes. It made his irises swirl as the glinting liquid caught the pale light.
"I was so upset and angry. I wasn't thinking straight, all I wanted was to get images of you and him out of my head. I didn't want to hurt anymore. So I kissed her, I tried to pull away as soon as I realised what I was doing. But she wouldn't stop, she had me practically pinned against the wall. It was horrible, I couldn't escape. I am so so sorry Evie." He finished
"So was everything before true? Did you sleep with her?"
"NO! GOD NO!"
"The fucking bastard. It was Paul" I said all my anger at Roger slowly melting away and transferring to burning hatred for Paul Young
"What was?"
"He must have made Chrystal give the impression you were sleeping with her and he tried to do the same with me. Because I didn't sleep with him Roger, I couldn't keep my hands off of you" I said with a shy smile
"I didn't sleep with her Evie. I was madly in love with you, in fact I still am. It has been a really hard time for me, I never understood why you left and wouldn't talk to me. I thought it was maybe because you'd found someone better"
"I don't think it can get much better than you Roger to be honest" I smiled gain sheepishly, this time earning a smile in return.
"still as cheesy as always Evie"
"god, I hate you"
"no you don't"
"It's so unfair that they did this to us." Roger said sadly his eyes falling to the floor "I understand how you will feel now Evie, I am going to try and make it up to you in every way possible"
"Roger. If all you did was kiss her, we can move past this" I smiled and placed my hand softly on the side of his tear stained face. The fuzzy feeling returned to the pit of my stomach
"Still. It was wrong of me to do it. I'm sorry Lily Pad" This time when he used the nickname it didn't sting. Instead I could feel my heart melting. I cursed myself at my own stupidity for believing someone as malicious as Paul and not the man I loved.
"I meant it when I said it earlier. I still love you" My heart did a backflip and started beating again as I felt those warm words tumble off his lips. My heart was beating fast as I uttered my reply
"I still love you too Roger" It was as if a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders as I said those words once again. I felt different, I didn't hurt anymore. I had one of the most important people back in my life and it felt amazing
"Evie?"
"Yeah Rog" I said smiling sweetly, feeling love radiate from me
"If I kiss you. Do you promise not to run off this time?"
"I promise Lover Boy" He smiled at me and placed his hand on the side of my face, his thumb gently brushing my cheek back and fourth in a smooth rhythm. He took a loose stand of my hair and familiarly tucked it behind my ear. I smiled and looked deep into his gorgeous eyes. He blinked back at me his thick lashes highlighting the twinkle that had returned to them. He leaned in closer, closing the gap between us. Tension was thick in the air, you could practically cut it. He leaned in so close our lips were touching ever so slightly, his breath mingled with mine for a few seconds before he gently latched his lips on to mine. Expertly moving them against mine, his hands continued to stroke up and down my cheek gently as his tongue did a well practiced dance with mine. We had both sunk deeply in to the kiss, it was beginning to grow more desperate and the pent up anger between us dissipating slowly .
"FUCK YES" We broke apart abruptly to see Freddie punch a fist in the air. The three boys had returned to the studio. All of them had wide grins on their faces, clearly happy to see the sight of us together
"So Rog. How's that drum part coming?" John smirked happily
"fuck off John"
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The rest of the rehearsal was a little awkward. I actually did end up teaching Roger the drum part. He was impressed by the phils I had come up with and he picked it all up really quickly. He was a natural drummer. I loved the way he blew out gently as he hit each note, his lips pouting ever so slightly. I did still feel as though something was holding me back though. I still felt a little reserved though mostly happy about the fact we were back together. Right now everyone was about to take a break. Mike our engineer looked exhausted and in dire need of something to eat. Freddie finished on the final note of what he and I had come up with so far. His voice cracked ever so slightly as he carried the emotion of the song beautifully, all of them looked drained although I knew they were all delighted with the progress we had been making. Even if we were a little behind schedule. I pressed the nearby button and my voice filled the booth.
"Okay you all look exhausted and hungry. Go and grab some food. We can come back later" All of them smiled gratefully at me. I walked out of the studio and made my way to the kitchen where the phone was attached to the wall. I picked it up and quickly punched in a number, a few loud rings sounded before the click of receiver being picked up sounded at the other end of the line
"Hello?" A warm voice filled the line
"Hey Holly"
"Oh my God Evie! Hello! How are you? Vanity told us you are up at the studio with the boys." Her voice faded a little "How is it, is everything okay?"
I laughed happily down the line "Everything is good, great actually" I replied genuinely
"I'm so glad to hear that. Vanity and Chris are here right now actually" I heard a few yells in the background mostly of 'I love you'
"Anyway, I have some news" I paused "Roger and I have sorted things, it turns out Paul seems to have masterminded a plan where Roger and I would turn against each other. Apparently it worked" I said sadly
"so he didn't cheat?" Holly said confused
"No. He didn't"
"OHMYGOD HE DIDN'T CHEAT. HE DIDN'T CHEAT. OF COURSE HE DIDN'T CHEAT HE LOVES YOU!" I heard a muffle of yells and squeals coming from all three girls in the background of the call. The crackling line still carried the joy in their voices and I couldn't help but smile at my wonderful but crazy friends. I heard a scrabble in the background and next it was Chris' voice that filled my ears
"Hello love. What does this mean then? Are you back together or what?"
"Oh" I paused, I heard a sharp inhale on the other line "I'm not sure, I mean we kissed"
"They kissed! THEY KISSED!!" Chris yelled to the two other's who were probably jumping with joy at this point. It kind of sunk in though. I didn't actually know what Roger and I were. Were we an item? was it back to square one and we were dating? or was it nothing at all? After another series of endless grilling questions about Roger. I finally said goodbye and hung up the phone. I sighed and opened a nearby cupboard. It was stacked full of baking ingredients, which I am sure would go to waste. I rattled through a few doors and cupboards and pulled out a whisk and bowl. I quickly whipped a mixture together and began to ladle small amounts in to a sizzling pan. Soon the gorgeous aroma of my famous pancakes was wafting through the air. I was dancing happily and humming to myself as four familiar figures burst through the door.
"Yes! I told you all she was making pancakes!" Roger said looking smugly at the others
"Evie, Thank you, you don't understand how long I have been craving these for" Brian said rather dramatically. They all began to pull out cutlery and plates from various cupboard. Each of them also finding their favourite pancake toppings. They began to quickly lay the table and then sat down hungrily. At this point the pancakes were beginning to pile high and I was cooking my final one. I threw it high in the air and caught it again in the pan. Earning a cheer from the on looking boys. I laughed happily and placed the final one on the tottering pile, carefully taking it over to the table
"Evie you are an absolute angel darling. Roger do not loose this one again" Freddie said happily, grabbing a pancake off the plate. After that all of them dove in ravenously, I did the same. We all had plates piled high, that were soon demolished and everyone sat back clutching their stomach and groaning.
"Oh god thank you Evie"
"Thank you"
"Thank you"
"Evie I can't walk now. Maybe you are actually a danger" John groaned making me laugh. I managed to pull myself out of my chair to head to the sink to begin cleaning up. I heard someone else get up behind me, a familiar pair of arms snaked their way around my waist from behind. Soft kisses were planted along my neck, making me giggle. I turned around to face Roger placing my hands on each side of his face and looking deep into his captivating gaze. We stayed like that for a while, both of us lost in each other. I was so happy we had figured things out
"Has anyone ever told you two, you would have beautiful children?"
"FREDDIE!!"
Hey hey hey. So I hope u guys liked this chapter a little more than the last. Also everyone who leaves comments THANK YOU because they always make my day.
Rock on angels, Evie xxxx