-DISCLAIMER: some details in this story are NOT true or im not sure if they are, Im purely embellishing for the purpose of my writing
The last few days had been awkward between Roger and I. Luckily we had been kept busy by the bands rehearsals, since Roger now knew the drum part perfectly. I had been working with Freddie on the operatic section, having some previous experience from high school. We both began to write a melody of swooping vocals and menacing symphonies. Although I was happy to be on good terms again with Roger, my heart kept telling me otherwise. Each time I saw him their was a gentle tug on my heart string that sent a pang of pain rippling through my body. Although I kept telling myself everything was okay, I think the kiss still bothered me more than I would like to admit. At this moment everything was still very new and unknown, I needed time to heal and adjust.
"So darling. I think that is more than enough work for tonight" Freddie said quickly glancing at the nearby clock. It was a quarter past one in the morning. I could feel my jaw widen as a soft yawn escaped my lips.
"I think so too Fred" I said quietly gathering up the multitude of paper we had produced whilst writing. Freddie paused and looked at me.
"Darling, may I ask? What the hell is going on with you and Roger?" He cocked his head looking at me, I took a moment to think before I answered.
"I am not sure Fred. I mean I think I have forgiven him. I really want to. But the whole kiss, it keeps getting to me. I can't seem to get it out of my head" It was true, I couldn't stop thinking about it all and it was driving me insane the last few days had consisted of me replaying the image of Roger and Chrystal in my head over and over again. I think he knew something was wrong, Roger always seemed to be able to sense these things.
"I mean it is understandable darling. The whole previous situation with Paul is only going to make it worse. Honestly he was a bit of fucking idiot if you ask me" I let out a sad laugh looking in to the dimly lit recording booth in front of me. Freddie came behind me and hugged me softly. He stroked my hair soothingly and said "Don't worry darling, everything is going to be just fine"
We walked back to the house together in silence, that was all I needed right now. The air was cold and fresh, stars sparkled up in the sky.
"Hey Freddie, I think I am going to sit out here for a while" I said stopping to stare at the clear night sky
"Okay darling suit yourself. We have rehearsal tomorrow remember" he said smiling gently before retreating inside again. I walked over to a nearby bench, it has a series of flowers entangled around it's back and up it's legs. Weaving their way in and out of the soft wooden planks. I sat down gently and lifted my gaze to the glinting night sky. Millions upon millions of bright stars glowed back at me. Whenever I looked up at the sky, everything else seems insignificant and stupid. But it didn't seem to be working this time, my worries were still flooding my head like a tsunami. It was horrible, I loved Roger. I don't think a point in my life would come when I didn't love him, but now there was the issue of trust. It was like Paul, I gave my all to the relationship and didn't get the same in return. I couldn't do it again, I needed to sort it out with him. But I wasn't ready, the song was providing a good distraction. But it couldn't last forever.
I let out a sigh, the stars unable to wash away the burning pain inside me. I stood up and made my way inside, the door subtly creaked. I assumed everyone would be asleep at this point as we had an early rehearsal tomorrow. I padded my way to the kitchen attempting to be as quiet as possible, I made my way to the heavy oak door and heaved it open. Inside I saw John sitting at the table, paper sprawled over the desk. He was mouthing something and then scribbling frantically. I couldn't read anything, it was all a scrawled mess of letters and diagrams
"Hey John?" I said from the doorway, he was so engrossed in his work he nearly jumped out of his skin as he heard my voice. He looked at me his eyes wide with shock, they were red and bloodshot from lack of sleep. His skin was pallid and his hair very ruffled
"H-H-Hi, sorry Evie. I didn't see you there" He said
"No kidding"
"Hey. I'm supposed to be the sarcastic one" He said a smile tugging at his lips
"Tea?" I asked making my way to the kettle and pulling two large mugs from the cupboard. The kettle began to whistle just as I plonked the tea bags in to the cups. I quickly made up the tea and gave it to John who downed it gratefully. I looked at him again, I had seen John in some of the roughest states of his life. But he looked different this time, it was nervous, almost as if he would throw up. I stared intently at him, feeling his gaze shoot up jerkily to meet mine
"John what is going on?" I asked "Sorry to say it hun, but you look awful"
"Wow, thanks Evie" he droned sarcastically
"Don't get all sarcastic on me now" I laughed pausing "Seriously though John, what's wrong?"
"Nothing I am just stressed...its about the engagement" I let out an audible gasp, my eyes lighting up at the prospect of two of the most important people in my life getting married. He spoke again.
"I just want it all to be perfect, she means so much to me. I just don't know how to express it" I looked at him, it made me wistful to see how madly in love he was with this girl. I smiled and spoke comfortingly
"Well. You and I both know Holly well enough to know that she will want something flashy, but not public. She will want something that is personal and something bespoke. Something no one else has" John scribbled down every word of what I said
"So what exactly does that mean?" He said. I paused thinking
"Give me that paper" I said. John slid the paper over to me along with a luscious pen. I began to draw, my pen curving gently across the rippling paper. Soon I had a rough sketch along with a few rushed notes. John was looking at what I was drawing in wonder
"Okay. So the girls are coming up in a few days right?" I said
"Right" He replied
"So why don't you do it then? We can decorate the courtyard. It will be beautiful"
"Is that too soon? Evie what if we can't get everything planned. what if she says no I-" he trailed off looking sadly at the scribbled notes before him.
"She is not going to say no, you are both madly in love" This time it was my turn to trail off
"Leave the planning to me" I smiled "I need a distraction right now"
"Oh god Evie are you joking?" He said shooting up and hugging me tightly. I laughed and hugged John back. He pulled away and looked at me gratefully his bloodshot eyes lighting up
"So I just want to double check. Is this all okay with you?" I said gesturing to the plan I had messily scrawled
"Yes, yes! Its perfect" He said smiling "Evie you are a saviour" he gave me a soft kiss on the cheek before heading out of the kitchen and up to bed. I looked at the mass of paper sprawled in front of me and smiled at my creation.
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The last few days had been crazy, I had been rushing about trying to make sure everything would be perfect for Holly and John. I had hired decorators and had set up a whole sound system. It had been incredibly hard work but the courtyard looked gorgeous. It had taken a lot of arguing with Paul Prenter for this to happen. It was actually Freddie who ended up talking him in to it, he seemed very clingy to Fred. I had a bad feeling about the both of them, but I just couldn't quite put my finger on it. Mary couldn't make it this weekend, so it was only Chris and Holly visiting. I had spoken to them late last night and both of them were ecstatic. I hadn't told either of them about the plans of the proposal. I wanted it to be a surprise for both of them. I hadn't seen Roger in the past few days, the planning had been keeping me busy so I had been making constant excuses to avoid him. He knew something was wrong, he had been trying his hardest to spend time with me. I still didn't know how to feel about the kiss, every time I saw him images flashed back in my head. I didn't know if I would ever get over it at this point.
My thoughts were rudely interrupted as I heard a symbol crash, followed by a yell
"FUCK SAKE! BE CAREFUL"
"YOU ARE BEING SUCH AN ARSEHOLE!"
I rounded the corner to the courtyard. I saw Roger carrying his drums along with a member of the decorating team I'd hired. The poor boy had clearly accidently dropped the hi-hat he was carrying and looked as if he was about to cry from the way Roger was yelling at him.
"Hey" I said walking towards them "Is everything okay here?"
"Fine" Roger growled through gritted teeth. I looked sympathetically at the guy carrying the hi-hat
"Hey" I said looking at him "I'll take that, why don't you go help with something else?"Â he handed me the symbol quickly and ran out of sight without looking back. I shook my head smiling and carried the symbol to where the rest of the kit had been set up. I had created a stage area in the middle of the courtyard, all as part of the wonderful proposal plan. Roger looked at me running his hand through his hair, he let out an exasperated sigh. I awkwardly broke eye contact with him, fiddling with the hem of my shirt. A bad habit I had when I was nervous or uncomfortable. I started speaking
"So I thi-"
"Evie. What the fuck is going on with us?" He said locking his eyes on to me. I looked back at him, unsure of what to say
"Evie. I made a mistake, I am sorry. I don't know what else to say" he looked at me almost angrily
"Are you mad at me?" I asked, my voice coming out smaller than intended
"I just I don't know what else I can do. I love you, all I have ever done is love you. I want you back, more than I have ever wanted anything before" He snapped back viciously
"You have no right to angry at me Roger"
"I'm not, I just"
"You are so self centred sometimes Roger I have too many things to do right now. Today is about Holly and John. I will see you later" I said angrily, storming back in to the house. I still yet to decide on what to wear, I stormed up the stairs. My feet hitting the hard wood loudly, vibrating and creating a harsh echo in the large stairwell.
I made it to my room and placed my hand tightly on my door handle. Just as I did so a large hand grabbed my wrist. My head whipped around to see Roger standing looking at me with an intense animalistic lust. He placed a hand on my chest and pushed me flat against my door, I collided with the hard wood. Feeling a tingle travel quickly down my spine
"Let me show you how much attention I can give you. I promise you won't think I'm self centred darling" he smirked at me. My knees grew weak as I tried to shake my head in defiance, it had been so long and I missed him terribly
"Don't deny it now darling, let me help you" he pushed my hair to the side, his breath ghosting over my neck.
"Don't make me regret this" I smirked at him
"Sometimes you say the most idiotic things Evie"
-Oh no the smuts have started again. Here is a smut warning-
He brushed his hand gently around the side of my face. Before leaning in closely and kissing me harshly. Roger was in a dominating mood. His tongue entered my mouth with ease and played happily with mine. His hand moved to my throat, applying enough pressure for it to become exciting
We crashed desperately through the door, both of us moaning loudly in to the kiss and clawing at any piece of skin we could possibly get out hands on. I was wearing a short blue dress, his hands travelled under the skirt and squeezed my ass harshly causing me to squeak in surprise. His hands trailed over my hips leaving a burning trail as he did so until he came around to my front. He pulled away from the kiss and raised his eyebrows at me whilst I smirked back lustfully.
"No panties Evie?" His eyes darkened "You just get better and better"
I bit my lip, never breaking eye contact with him, I knew it drove him crazy. He made his way over to me grabbing the bottom of my dress and ripping it over my head leaving me completely naked in front of him. His eyes scanned me hungrily, I watched his mouth curve up in to a smirk that could make anyone fall at his knees.
"You still regretting your decision doll?"
He said beginning to unbutton his own shirt.
"Let me Roger" my voice was strained, my desperation evident His hand grabbed my jaw as he pushed one of his thumbs into my mouth.
"That wouldn't make me too selfish now, would it love?" he smirked down at me. His hand still tight around my jaw as I moved to unbutton his shirt, my fingers playing with the dips of his toned stomach.
I watched licking my lips as he began to unbutton his jeans, I could see his hard cock straining the fabric of his underwear. He made his way back over to me and ran his finger softly over my clit, the slight contact making me quiver. He pushed me on to the bed with enough pressure for it to be exciting and climbed on top of me. Kissing me softly on the lips at first before licking down my neck and quickly finding my sweet spot.
"Fuck Rog" I let out a loud moan too lost in the moment to care who heard us. He trailed down to the valley between my breasts each kiss leaving a tingle on my skin, he began to suck one of my nipples as he teased the other gently between his fingers. I let out an even louder moan my head falling back on to the bed as I was overwhelmed in pleasure. He looked up at me smirking again and I could feel my core throbbing in anticipation for him. As if he read my mind he began to trail his hand toward my soaking entrance. He teasingly pressed a finger softly against my folds, smirking dangerously at me.
"Fuck sake Rog" I panted "Just do it"
He didn't take anymore telling, he plunged his finger deeply inside me and began pumping quickly before slipping in another finger. I began to grow breathless my insides shuddering and tightening around his fingers. I gripped the bed sheets as I could feel myself growing closer and closer to my orgasm. Black dots began to cloud my vision as Roger's name tumbled off my lips countless times. My moans grew breathless as my body shut down and shuddered uncontrollably. I felt my insides tighten and coat Roger's fingers as I moaned loudly.
He helped me ride out my orgasm before quickly pulling his fingers out o me and sucking them clean.
"Still selfish am I?"
"Shut up, I thought you were going to fuck me?" I cocked my head teasingly. He smiled shaking his head as he pulled out his rock hard throbbing member. I looked at it still in awe of it's sheer size. He looked at me happily, before gently stroking my entrance and pushing himself in slowly. I bit my lip and rolled my eyes as felt him inside me again
"Fuck" He panted "You are still so tight" I winked at him playfully as he finished his sentence.
"All talk no action Rog" he raised his eyebrows, smiling at me. That was all it took for his dominating side to come out. He began pounding me mercilessly grunting with every slamming thrust as I screamed out his name between moans and swear words that seemed to just fall off my tongue. I could feel this thrusts growing sloppier as I was reaching my second high. His hand came down and began to rub harsh circles on my clit, that was all it took to send me over the edge. My mouth fell open in a silent scream and toes curled up as I came for the second time. Roger's thrusts were incredibly sloppy and he was grunting loudly as he released powerfully inside me. He lay there for a moment before pulling out, both of us exhausted. He rolled down to lie beside me, a little out of breath and covered in a sheen.
"Decent effort Rog"
"Shut up Evie" he laughed gently kissing me on the lips, it was as if everything washed away again and it was somehow back to the way it used to be
"I love you Evie" He said looking deeply in to my eyes. I hesitated before replying
"I love you Roger" He pulled me in close to his chest, as he did the clock ticking softly in the far corner caught my eye.
"Shit" I said loudly
"The proposal, its in 5 minutes. Holly and Chris will be getting the tour righ-" The door burst open widely and Brian's long arm poked through the frame of the door
"This is Evie's roo-" He trailed off as his eyes settled on Roger and I lying on the bed naked and entangled in each other. Everyone followed through the door oblivious to the sight they were about to see. All five of them stood, their mouths hanging wide open.
Roger broke the silence
"So Chris. Holly. How have you been?"
Hello. I am SO SO SO sorry this took so long to update. I have been super busy, so I thought id make it up to you with an extra long chapter AND a smut
Rock on lovies,
E xxxxxxxxxxxxx