-This chapter comes with a trigger warning for abuse, violence and rape. I will mention further down so you can skip if you wish-
The night had been crazy. It was filled with tears and celebration. Roger and I had done some celebrating of our own later on in the night. He was perfect for me. I couldn't shake the complete bliss he left me in with each touch. Every slight movement, a burning trail of passion. This morning Roger awoke before me, it was unusual of him. He awoke me with soft kisses over the throbbing purple marks that covered my neck and chest. I giggled giddy with happiness as he rolled me over to rest on top of him. His hands flowing through my hair dreamily. The morning sunlight streamed through the rustic cracks in the old windows. Each single beam of light filtering to create a beautiful spectra that danced across the old wooden floorboards. The bright light cascaded twirling patterns of shadows on Roger's chiselled physique. I held his head in my hands, lovingly tangling my hands carefully in his hair.
"You are gorgeous" I said smiling down at him "But you already knew that" I said laughing
A smile crept on to his lips "What do you mean I already knew that Lily Pad?" He scowled jokingly
"You were quite the ladies man" I said smiling teasing him.
"Evie, you know how much you mean to me. I have never loved ANYONE as much as I love you, let alone another girl. Anyway you have me cuffed, literally" He said laughing and producing a pair of pink fluffy handcuffs from under the soft nest of pillows. My hands flew to my mouth in a gasp as memories from last night came flooding back. I could feel my face turning bright red. Roger wrapped his arms around me protectively
"C'mon Evie. It's not that bad" Roger said smirking
"Roger I DANCED for you and it was awful"
"Awfully good"
"shut up Meddows"
"What have I told you about calling me that?" He laughed, lunging dramatically at me and tickling my exposed midriff. That set me off in to shrieks of laughter, I rolled around in hysterics. Whilst Roger tickled me mercilessly.
"STOP ROG STOP" I yelled, tears of laughter rolling down my cheeks. I tried to crawl away from him
"I'll stop on one condition" He said smiling devilishly
"yes?!" I smiled back
"You promise to never call me Meddows again" He smirked
"Okay okay" I pleaded "I promise I will never... stop calling you Meddows. MEDDOWS" I shrieked again in laugher as Roger attacked me again. I was rolling around helpless in a tangle of sheets as Roger tickled me. Shrieking at him to stop, when he abruptly did. He looked down at me a huge smile plastered on his face.
"What?" I said feeling a smile creep on to my own face
"I love you. I'm going to miss you"
"I love you too Rog. It's only for a weekend anyway. I have to get back to help you lot perfect your Bohemian masterpiece"
Last night I had made the decision to go back to London for the weekend. I had a new project I wanted to get done and I needed a break from the chaotic energy of the boys. Vanity, Holly, Chris and I had an epic movie night planned for just the girls. To be honest I was really excited, although I would miss Rog. I needed some time to myself, to re-centre and refocus now my mind was finally free of worries. The boys had all demanded I made them a huge breakfast before we all set off. I was happy to oblige, considering I still had to prove to John I could eat more than him.
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After sizzling batter had turned to pancakes everyone had began to dig in to the breakfast that was being served
"Evie do you really have to leave?" John said, making dramatic puppy dog eyes at me
"John I am literally just gone for the weekend"
"If you think I can go a weekend without your pancakes you obviously don't know me as well as I thought you did" He tried to keep a straight face, but a little smile crept on to his lips
"I think you have bigger things to worry about than pancakes" I smiled shooting holly a wink
"OF COURSE! How could I be so stupid? I need to LEARN how to make the pancakes so the baby can have them too" He said making Holly and I both erupt in to laughter. Soon all of our bags had been bundled back in to the van Vanity had driven up to the farm. The weather was beginning to cloud over, the abrupt departure of warmth making me shiver. A few perfectly formed droplets of rain began to lash down from the sky. Coating the revving van in a glossy sheen of water. I reached out to clasp Roger's palm watching the shining droplets dribble down his hair. I smiled
"I'll see you soon Meddows" I kissed his lips softly
"I'll see you soon doll"
I climbed in to that car following Katy, all of us waved goodbye sadly to the boys, raindrops trickling down the windows. Like tears rolling down a smooth cheek. I looked at Roger's sad expression as the van pulled away from the farm and a pang of guilt struck up in my chest. The rest of the trip was quiet, knew everyone missed the boys. John was especially reluctant for Holly to leave given she was pregnant now. I knew she was even more reluctant to leave him, they both wanted John to be as involved as possible. But with the album it was proving rather tricky. She had made me promise that I would make the boys finish it quickly, so John could come home. It was now just additions of the harmonies required. Roger had told me Brian, Freddie and himself would be doing that just themselves, they never failed to amaze me.
"Okay Evie, this is you" Vanity said looking back at me and rubbing her tired eyes
"Thanks V" I said giving her a weak and tired smile "See you tomorrow?"
"Yeah, see you tomorrow love"
I tumbled out the car a small backpack slung over my shoulder. I stood on the pavement and took a deep breath. It was home.
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As predicted, rain had began to tumble from the sky. I ran myself a deep, warm bubble bath. The sweet scent of the glinting bubbles filled my nose with a familiar warmth. I padded slowly out of my bathroom in just my dressing gown. The noise of the running bath washing a soothing zen over me. The doors to my balcony beckoned me. I grabbed a pack of cigarettes lying teasingly on the counter and flung open the doors.
The warm, wet scent of the city hitting me. I stepped out, the water droplets placing themselves gently on me. Each one creating a shining path as they rolled down my warm skin. I lit the cigarette with a lighter Roger had left here a while ago, a small smile tugged at my lips with even the slight memory of him. I inhaled deeply, blowing a large puff of smoke outward. The dark, smoky cloud created an almost ominous mystique over the city, that quickly faded and the usual bustle returned. I returned inside to hear water trickling soothingly from the tap. I made my way to the bath and screwed the top off, longing to hop in and soak myself in the blissful water.
A knock at the door interrupted my thoughts
Internally annoyed at the interruption I stormed over to the door and flung open the door in an underlying rage
"Hey Evie" a slimy smile was plastered on Paul's face. Before I could slam the door in his face he entered the room forcefully.
"Wow. I like what you have done to the place" He said smirking down at me. I felt small and unprotected without Roger being around. I tried to cover up myself knowing fine well I was naked underneath my gown.
"Don't cover up Evie. No need to be shy" He grabbed my face and pushed his lips on to mine, his tongue forcing it's way in to my mouth and moving around like a unwelcome slug
-TRIGGER WARNING-
Not saying a word he pulled a piece of rope out of his pocket, he grabbed my wrists with one hand whilst the other was clamed tightly over my mouth. I wriggled in desperation, screams being muffled by his large palm spread over my face. I bit his hand my legs flailing around, attempting to make some contact with him. He let out a yelp as my teeth sunk in to him.
"I told you, that you would regret what you did. Now you are going to regret it even more"
I tried to kick him, successfully striking him a few times as e grabbed my bounded hands and pushed me against a wall, tears began to stream down my face as he covered my neck it harsh biting bruises, his hands roamed around and down to my ass and squeezed it hurting me a little. I let out a scream of pain and he pulled a gag from his other pocket and placed it roughly over my mouth as I wriggled trying to release myself. He slapped me harshly in the face, leaving my cheek bright red and stinging.
"Hold still you stupid slut" he grunted eventually gagging me so my screams came out in helpless muffles. His hands could now roam freely over my stone cold body. I was kicking and wriggling in any futile attempt to prevent what was about to happen. He pushed me through my door and on top of my bed, quickly taking off my dressing gown and leaving me naked and scared lying on my bed. He wasted no time in getting down to business, it was painful and pleasure less. Tears rolled down my cheeks with every thrust as I let out worthless screams in to the tight gag. He finished quickly, his putrid breath fanning in my face as he lay above me. I was crying uncontrollably now, feeling helpless and degraded. He loosened my hands He pulled his jeans back on quickly and made his way to the door.
"I told you Evie. Don't fucking mess with me" He smirked before leaving my apartment. I lay on the floor crying helplessly, alone and worthless.
-SCENE OVER-
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The next morning I awoke with a jolt. I had fallen asleep at the edge of the bath. Late last night I had soaked myself in the stale cold water to try and rid myself of the feeling Paul had left me with. I needed to talk to someone, I needed someone I loved. I needed Roger. I managed to drag myself to the phone, in a haze of disgust. I punched in the number a few times, I heard it ring a few times before someone picked up at the other end
"Hello?" The voice was low and groggy. It sounded slightly husky as if just awoken. I looked at my glinting watch,, it was 4:38am
"R-Roger?" I said in a cracked whisper
"Evie? Why are you calling at this time? Is everything okay?" The husky tone began to fade from his voice
"I- I just. Paul just-. he-" I managed to get out before dropping to the floor the receiver still pressed to my cheek and bursting in to tears
"Paul?! Evie, Evie? Evie listen to me everything is going to be okay"
"No"
"What do you mean no?"
"He raped me Roger." I managed to stutter
"Don't move, I'm on my way Evie" Roger said hanging up the receiver with a click.
The room began to spin as I grew light headed and dizzy from the breathlessness the tears were leaving me in. My head hit the ground.
Everything turned black.
Hey guys. This chapter was so awful to write. I hope you guys weren't too upset by any of the graphic content within this chapter.
here is a rape helpline if anyone would like to use it
-https://www.safeline.org.uk/contact-us/
Stay strong girlies, Evie xxxxxx