"Pain is something to master not to wallow in."
Bree's pov.
I'm waiting for the class to end. I need to go and pee . Fucking hell. It's a Friday and I just can't wait for the day to end too.
The bell goes off indicating that the class is over. I take my books and rush down to my locker, place the book and go towards the washroom. Thank God.
Before I could come out , I hear girls speaking and hold back.
"Aiden's going to win the bet , " one girl says. What bet?
"What is the bet about, " another girl asks.
"Ricky and Aiden had a bet about Aiden getting the nerd laid and it seems to be that Aiden is winning, " she states.
"Do you mean Bree Adams? " one girl asks.
"Yeah, " the girl answers. I shouldn't have trusted him. My phone buzzes in my pocket.
Aiden : where are you?
Fucking asshole. I don't answer that and shove the phone back into my pocket.
I was so stupid to believe him. I compared him to Jared. I was fucking off my mind.
I wait for the girls to leave. I save my tears for later. I bang my fist against something and I could feel the blood trickle down my arm.
No one could see it since I was wearing a hoodie. I rush down to my locker and take my bag. A hand grabs my arm, forcing me to turn around.
"What's wrong with you? " he asks me. Aiden of course.
"You know what Aiden? Thank you for making me smile . I told you it wouldn't last long. But still thank you cause I've seen my brother happy for at least a few days. And I'm not like the other girls that you get laid with, " I say and yank my arm from his. His face looked emotion less.
"Are you fucking bleeding? " he asks me. I don't answer and walk down to the principal's room.
"Is everything alright Ms.Adams? " Mr. Thomas asks me as I enter. I pull my sleeves down so that he wouldn't notice the blood.
"I'm not really feeling well so I would like to go home, " I state without hesitation.
"I'll speak to your teachers. You may go, " he says and I thank him before I leave his office.
Aiden was right there. "Baby doll let me explain...." he says but I cut him off.
"Don't you fucking dare call me that, " I yell at him and walk away.
He was right behind me but I just walk faster and get to my car . I get in and take off.
I don't drive home , I go to Jared instead. I take off my hoodie and throw it in the back seat. My phone starts ringing. Jackson.
I couldn't talk to him right now. I cut the call and put a message saying that I would call him later.
I switch off my phone and leave it in the car. I sit down next to his grave on the soft grass.
I almost never went to my parents grave without Jackson cause I couldn't handle the guilt.
I let out the tears I've been holding. He wanted to get me laid. I even regret trying to move on.
"I tried to move on and look what happened Jared, " I say. I trusted him . I wish Jared was here.
I cry but my tears never find an ending. I'm an idiot to not see what he was up to. He was just another douche trying to take advantage of me.
On top of all this he wanted to explain. What would he possibly say? 'I'm sorry I didn't want to get you laid but I wanted to have sex with you.' Just great ! I'm over thinking.
I sit there for hours. I hit my hand onto a sharp edge which introduced pain.
Those were the same places I got hurt everytime. I never gave enough time for then to heal. It started to drizzle and it was getting dark.
I kiss Jared's grave and get back into my car. It started to rain and I started driving home.
I put on my phone to see 25 voice messages and over 30 messages. I don't bother to check and keep driving.
I reach home and put on my hoodie before Maria could see I was hurt . I walk straight into the kitchen and grab three tins of beer.
People would think I'm an alcoholic. I used to hate the taste of beer or any alcoholic drink for that matter but it did help forget things.
"Your phone was off, " Maria states as I leave the kitchen.
"My battery went dead, " I lie and walk upstairs.
"I want to stay alone. If I want dinner I'll come down, " I state . Maria would've sensed something was off already.
"Aiden came two hours ago and waited for you. He left right before you came home, " she says.
"Thank you for letting me know, " I say. My voice was stern like it was when my parents and friends died.
I get into my room and drop my stuff on the floor. I take off my hoodie and throw it aside. I open a tin and start having it.
It was dark already. I put off all the lights and open the roof. It stopped raining now.
The tears just roll down my face. I finish the three tins and lay down on my bed.
My phone starts buzzing. Aiden. I don't pick it up and scream into my pillow. My landline starts ringing. I pick it up.
"Aiden is waiting for you sweetheart, " Maria says.
"Ask him to leave Maria, " I say and drop the call. I soon hear a knock on my door.
"Maria just leave me alone! " I yell.
"It's me, " I hear Aiden's voice from outside.
"Get out of my house !" I yell at him.
"Just let me explain Bree, " he says. I open the door and look at him.
"You now listen to me. I hate you Aiden. I fucking hate you. You gained my trust and broke it too. I was a fool to compare you with Jared. I was an idiot to have trusted you. Please leave me alone Aiden, " I say with tears in my eyes and shut the door.
I fall onto my bed and cry. "Sweetheart let me atleast bandage your cuts, " Maria says from outside.
"I know you're doing it for him Maria. You know what ,they don't fucking hurt. So just leave me alone, " I yell .
The house fell into complete silence. I knew he was there. It was a never ending stretch of tears. I curl up into a ball.
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I couldn't sleep. It is 4 in the morning. I tried sleeping but I couldn't sleep for more than half an hour.
I get off my bed and get into the shower . The dry blood starts to come off as the hot water hit my skin. Tears flowed with the water.
Moving on felt like the worst decision ever. I spend about half an hour in the shower and get out.
I put on a pair of shorts and a crop top. I didn't want to stay home so I write a note to Maria saying that I was going on a long drive and take my lambi convertible and leave.
I carry my wallet , phone and my power bank. I had to talk to Jackson at some point. Shutting him out wouldn't help me.
I start driving . I put on some music. It was 6:30 am already. I see Aiden's car while I pass by his house. Fucking asshole.
I push away his thoughts and continue driving. I was feeling hungry since I haven't eaten anything after breakfast yesterday.
I stop at the beach. There was a breakfast spot open. I take my stuff and head towards the place. I order some pancakes and take a seat at one of the tables. My phone starts ringing. It was Annie.
"Hey Annie, " I say.
"Hey Bree. I had to ask you something, " she says.
"Shoot, " I say as I eat the pancakes .
"I'm sorry for the other day . Could you come to my wedding? " she asks me. That's the least I can do. Her wedding was today.
"I will be there, " I promise her. Atleast for Jared.
"Thank you so much Bree, " she says and drops the call. I have my breakfast and pay for it before I go home. I need to get ready. I couldn't let down Annie again.
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