Word Count : 769
Chapter 16 : Was it easy?
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'26th July, 2019'
"Taehyung, don't you think you owe me a few answers?"
Taehyung contemplated for a while before turning back to face Jungkook.
"Perhaps." Saying so, Taehyung kept standing before Jungkook got up from the couch and held Taehyung's hand, taking him by surprise. "Not here."
â At Jungkook's house â
Somehow, Jungkook convinced Taehyung to come to his house and have a talk with him.
It was this very moment which Taehyung was scared of. What would he say? Why did he leave? Why did he never try to contact Jungkook? Why did he create the distance between them?
"Sit down." Jungkook said, followed by both of them sitting on the couch. Taehyung just kept looking down, not knowing what to say. While Jungkook kept looking at him, waiting for him to say something. But when he saw nothing coming out of Taehyung's mouth, he himself thought of starting the conversation.
"So what do you think? Was it really easy for me to forget you?" He straight up got to the point. And he just received Taehyung's silence.
He didn't say or ask anything further. Rather, he asked Taehyung to get up and walk with him to his room.
As soon as they both reached the room, Taehyung's eyes kept wandering on the walls when he sawâ¦..what he couldn't believe.
There were his pictures. Both of their pictures. Of the memories they had created together. The letters that Taehyung wrote to Jungkook were hanging on the walls. Some even framed. It was all about him. Everywhere.
"So your answer?" Asked Jungkook.
Another couple of moments were spent in silence. Taehyung was too shocked to even let out anything.
Then Jungkook took off a letter from the wall and looked at it with no sense of emotion in his eyes. He just stared at that piece of paper in his hand with dullness in his eyes. But what his heart and soul carried wasn't dullness. It was a sense of being hurt by the person whom he had cherished all those years. It was a sense of being distanced by the only person he had ever placed his entire world on.
Taking the paper in his hand, he sat down on the bed while Taehyung just stared at the wall, but then his attention diverted towards Jungkook's figure who was staring at a letter. Probably by him.
"Ever felt extremely tired when you've loved someone whole-heartedly and have tried your level best to put every possible effort with them, only to have that person's lack of trust in you and them thinking that you've never really loved them or tried putting efforts with them?" Jungkook said as he stared at the paper in his hand and obliged himself from moving his gaze anywhere else, letting Taehyung hear his words and feel what they actually mean.
Then finally Taehyung spoke, "It wasn't the lack of trust, Jungkook."
Jungkook snapped his eyes at him. "Really?" He let out a chuckle. A chuckle which clearly expressed the hurt in his emotions. "If it was the lack of trust then what were all those insecurities about? You surely never had enough trust in me to give me a chance to start with. And you went away. Just like everyone walked away from my life, you did too. What was the difference in the end, Tae? What was it?"
"I had to go away. To find comfort. To heal from the pain."
"So was I never the comfort you had always said I was?"
"You were. But thenâ¦..you yourself became the source of pain from which I wanted to get healed from." There was pure agony in his words. In the way he said all these things.
Jungkook scoffed, "So you simply decided to go away just like that? Without even giving me a chance or having a talk with me?"
Again a huge silence took over between them as Taehyung continued to look at the floor, trying to gather his emotions.
And then Jungkook heard a sob. His sob. He looked at Taehyung as he started to speak.
"I swearâ¦.." Taehyung said between the sobs. "I swear, Kook. I swear I tried." Jungkook's heart broke as Taehyung's voice cracked. His heart felt like shattering as all the tears brimmed inside the corners of his eyes.
"Y-youâ¦.could have talked to me. Just once, Tae. Just once." Jungkook got up from the bed as he walked towards Taehyung. "If you gave me a chance to have a talk with you, I swear I wouldn't have let you go away from me."